Maybe that's why I'm not ready to give up quite yet.
Paul Simon's brother used this relationship analogy when discussing Paul and Carrie Fisher's divorce: you can have a flower and a gardener, or two gardeners, but you can't have two flowers. I'm a gardener, looking for another: a same-aged, bright eyed, fresh thinking best friend and lover interested in cultivating some lasting mutual happiness.
Honest and direct, whole-hearted and empathic, quick to laugh, awash in joie de vivre. Come from an expressive, visually attuned family of creators and 'do-ers' who take pride in what they've accomplished on any given day, who naturally gravitate to studios and workshops. Clueless re: pop culture - don't own a tv, turned off by convention, prefer to live as if originality counts. Don't ski, play golf or tennis (a 30-year marriage taught me the best relationships leave room for non-shared pursuits) but love outdoor life - kayaking, swimming, planting, biking/walking/hiking anywhere. A 'toucher' when conversing, a spontaneous smoocher, quick to show appreciation for kindness and special efforts, my guy will never lack for attention or affection. Financially independent - the career's been good to me - have raised two adult daughters to be critical thinkers, ethical people.
Men I find attractive tend to be a cerebral AND okay with saying "heck, I don't know" when asked something they've never really thought about. I go for guys who prefer being kind to always being right, the quieter guys who listen as much as they speak, and do both as if it mattered. Someone who laughs throughout the day, finding the world and the humans therein both nuts AND amusing. Someone who's weathered a long term relationship before, and has the energy and desire to commit again.
Does this resonate? If so, please drop a line to introduce yourself.