I am a contridiction - and I won't apologize for it. I have lived through things that could have killed a person twice, but I am better for having dealt with it. I am a work in progress, and prefer to live below the surface of the world. I am prone to rants, I am prone to raves. I cuss, I smoke, I drink, I bring the party with me; and my heart is so big that sometimes, most of the time, it overwhelms my logical mind.

You can ask me about consumeralism, listen to a rant about entitled Americans, then watch me window shop at the Louis Vitton store.

I drive a little 5 speed truck, I am self sufficent - Most of my life, I have preferred to save myself. However at this junction, at this part in my life, I would say that I would be willing to open up and allow someone else to be the hero. For me, a relationship is about mutually benefitting each other, its about loving someone, its about the automatic change from think 'me' to 'we'.

I am eccentric. Since writing this profile initially, I have met quite a few people; and figured out a few things. I should get this out of the way right now.

I am far from perfect. I am not your typical definition of niceness, but I am a kind person. I can also be awesome, funny, and the best company you’ve ever had.

I am at what I feel could be a crossroads of my life. I have typically always been a good student, the responsible mother hen friend. I have paid my bills on time, and generally done everything that is asked for me. I am starting to feel like this system isn’t really serving me well, its serving everyone else well. It’s causing a need, an itch. A feeling, like, hrm, I wish there was a zombie outbreak, so that I could legally swing a shovel at someone’s head. I need a change, a break, a bust out. Maybe it’s a quarter life crises. This has lead to a few new qualifications that I am looking for in an awesome dude. (That’d be you, dear reader/awesome dude) It’d be nice if you didn’t care about other people’s opinions, because I have stopped caring. It’d also be nice if you had your own life and your own set up. I am not really interested in nursing anyone’s old wounds, and I won’t ask you to nurse mine.

I guess the ideal would be a man who can connect, someone relatable. It’s really a very simple request. I will always be honorable about things, and I will never lead anyone on, or convince them that something is different than what it is.

I just moved to the middle of the country. I live in Nashville, and I am currently trying to balance my people from home with meeting new people here, and sometimes, just being homesick. I need some reliable friends that understand that sometimes, I will need to laugh, and I will need to cry, and I will give the same back to you.

I am working hard to achieve the things that I feel are important. I work, full time, and have comepleted my first two degrees with the intention fo going back for a thrid, and fourth. I am involved in several projects that are really for me more than anything. I am involved in my friend’s lives, and I have 3 God Children. I find comfort in supporting and helping other people, but my favorite thing to do is make someone laugh.

Bartending! Cracking Jokes, communicating, video games. Coming up with creative ideas, and solving issues through resourcefulness. I can pull someone out of a bad mood, I can support and motivate. I make things happen. I don't quite understand the concept of settling, and I am motivated to make the most out of what I was blessed to have.

I have green eyes. I am also a super hero that masquerades under the name Prisim because I can bend light. I look out of place in a comic book shop, but I know more about comics than you do. What other broad can claim that?I am a morning person, and can be a little too cheerful sometimes. I am an individual, and have been described as eccentric. I would prefer someone to notice my brain before anything else. I will answer almost any question you have for me, but I do reserve the right to tell you to fuck off if you deserve it. I like to keep the mood light, and the good times coming.

Oh books, lovely books. I cant really narrow it down, because anything written with passion, and talent is good for me, but if you made me decide, it'd be Enders Game. You'll catch me reading the LOTR series pretty often, and I do believe the bible is one of the best stories ever written, but I take it for what its worth. I am not overly religious.

Movies, you can get me to watch just about anything, I like campy horror, foreign films, animated (but not disney) movies. Cult classics, but by far my favorite movie is the Wizard of Oz, and the Return to OZ, blame it on good childhood memories.

As for music, you'll catch me listening to anything from drum and bass to classic hip hop, and everything in between. I have a guilty pleasure of listening to some poppy kinda lame music sometimes. As for the death metal,its just about the only thing that you will catch me avoiding.

My current favorite artists are Atmosphere, and Portishead. I dig oldies, like Marvin Gaye, Otis Redding, Costello, but my favorites are The Temptations, Patsy Cline, or Dusty Springfield.

Women don't eat, we simply absord food energy by looking at it with love, and a smidge of whimsical jealously.

hope, laughter, intelligent conversation, my people, an internet connection, and you, mister.

I spend a lot of time thinking about the general state of the world. Battling the idea that people are inherently not good. I am a religious history buff, and I love the mythology behind many religions. I like to watch people; try to see their motivations before they lay them out on the table. I love art. I avoid thinking about work unless I am at work, and I avoid thinking about things that will not really propel me to the level that I am aspiring to be at. I enjoy politics, and I am fascinated by the ideals of free will, and how it affects general life. And music, I love music. Recently, I have begun to think that maybe I am not as bad as I previously thought, and I might really believe I am awesome instead of just pretending to be.

Well, sinced I moved to Nashville, singing to my cat, and trying to find places to hang out with like minded people; I have begun to count the tiles in my bathroom, but I have yet to name them (lets see who recongnizes that movie reference) I am down to figure out what Nashville is really about - I need some locals.

When I die, I will not go out quietly. I tend to spend my days living as much as I can, and a fear of mine is to die in my sleep.

Just do it. Stop being a scardey cat. I know you won't know what to do with me, and you might be a little overwhelmed, but we are going to have one helluva time in the end, I promise.