at first glance, i thought i may have bitten off more than i can chew, but now that i am getting into the swing of things, i think i can handle it. at least until the bi-term starts and i have my model building class. so far, having 2 drafting classes is working to my advantage, as a lot of the assignments are the same, or similar, so its really just like i am doing something twice. i don't have as much free time as i would like, these days, but i am free friday midnight to whenever i feel like it saturday, and don't have to be at work till midnight where i get to take a nap. all in all, my schedule seems to be working well...

now as to the matter of the personal life... obviously, as i am still on here, i haven't been able to find anyone, and to be honest, it's not so bad being by myself. i still have my best friend and the rest of my little circle to hang out with, so its not like i have a lack of things to do in my free time. it would be very nice to meet someone, once in awhile. so i suppose what i am saying is... if you are even slightly interested in what you read, take a chance, give me a msg. you might enjoy yourself.

in order to better facilitate the desire for knowledge about what it is that i do...

I work for an organization called CAKY, which stands for Community Alternative of Kentucky.

what i do is simple. i am a resident support provider for indivuals with some type of MR (mental retardation) in their homes. basicly i work mostly with highly functional Downs and Autistic individuals. they have a house, and i go and cook for them, make sure they take the correct meds at the right time, help them clean, keep them company, and help them out if they have some sort of an incident, like a siezure or behavior problem. my schedule is pretty much set in stone, and i work everything in around this job. it may not pay much, but i like what i do, and if either what i do, the pay, or my hours are a problem, then i am sorry, you know where the door is.

i have little tolerance for people who have little tolerance for those who were not fortunate enough to be anything close to what we consider to be normal. that's all there is. i have had several people ask me what it is that i do, so there you go. this and my school work are what fill the majority of my time.

apparently, things are worse than anticipated. i have been turned down for every job i have interviewed for and it has taken a week to find only a few more openings... if something doesn't change soon, i will be out on the street with nowhere to go... that's not appealing. i will eventually find something, but i need a job yesterday.

as it turns out, i have only about 30 days left to find the money i need to pay for a new computer for school if i am to be able to take my drafting class or i will not be able to take it. financial aid disbursements won't happen till 3 weeks into the semester, and it will take about 2 months to get the computer due to that model being on backorder. unfortunately for me, its the least expensive model out there that has the power that i need in a laptop to be able to run Autodesk Revit, so its kinda the one i need to have. it wouldn't be so bad if the university labs actually had computers capable of running the damn software, but they don't. i never thought that my hopes and dreams would come crashing down because i can't find the money i need for my equipment when the rest of my schooling is paid for.

the worst part? i am already enrolled in the drafting course, and i can't drop it without violating the terms of my funding contract. if i drop a single class, my funding gets pulled... i hate how beurocracy has invaded society to the point that i can't get the money for the equipment i need till the end of the semester that i need the equipment for, therefore causing me to fail the class and lose my funding, and i can't drop that class or i lose my funding. i have been round and round with financial aid trying to get an early disbursement, and i have asked for money from churches and other charitable organizations, all to no avail.

i suppose it's in god's hands...

not sure why, but it says i haven't made any posts at all, despite the fact that this is my 3rd one.

anyhow...
went to the university today to check on my financial aid status, but the fafsa has been changed 3 times, so now i am expected to pay more for my education than i was originally supposed to. not only that, but i was informed that i can't get anything else done until i register for classes. no big deal... except...

in order to register for classes i have to talk to my advisor to get the hold taken off my acct, and to do that i have to email her from my university email, which won't get created till i register for classes... anyone else see the problem here?

i have come back to the home i left four short months ago, and it is largely still the same. took a week to find my center and to readjust to the water, but now i am back, and i am jobless...

i got laid off from the teaching job, and now i am trying to compete with so many other people that are out of work that i find myself at a loss for words, as well as money.

i just found out that along with not having work, i will need to shell out some $6k this summer to acquire a new computer that is capable of running the software needed for my engineering classes. don't bother trying to tell me where i can get it cheaper, i have already found the cheapest one that can run the program and keep up sufficiently with techno-progression that i will not need to purchase another till i start grad school in a few years.

i have had a few positive responses from employers, but i have nothing definite, and this is beginning to irk me, as i have spent the last of my money and only have half a tank of petrol left. i don't know what i am going to do after this week is out, if i haven't gotten a job by then.

my various circles of friends have each in turn taken me to get incredibly drunk as a welcome home present, and while enjoyable, left me feeling a tad lonely as we all went to our separate homes, but not for the obvious reason. i miss living with friends, because it was cheaper to entertain ourselves, and there was always something to do to relieve boredom, and someone to listen when you needed it, and someone who trusted you to listen. after being gone, that's all changed.

i suppose i am done with my rambling.
grain of salt, my friends...