with the approach of school yet again, I'm trying to get a jump on some classes; looked over a chapter in my spanish book for next semester (Latin American Culture 2), and have checked on what other books I'll need.  Thankfully I don't have to go through registration confirmation (hallelujah)!!!  I also have Tuesdays & Thursdays off, more or less.  I still will have chapels to do (i.e. - go to church, get credit) on Tuesdays, and while I'm there will probably work a few hours in the music library.  In another of my spanish classes, in some ways I feel ahead of the game... at least a little.  I'll be studying the spanish inquisition, and years before (although I remember parts of the film quite well), saw the movie The Pit and the Pendulum  This is not the drab original MGM release (what year was that again?), but the 1990 Stewart Gordan film (produced by Full Moon pictures).  Yes, most of it was probably fictionalized, but hey... it's got Torquemada!!!!  Man, Lance Henrikson pulled that off well.

In addition to school, I continue to keep up with the keyboard work, but not quite as much as I used to; I feel like I'm improving that much more so I don't have to practice as much... this theory, though, has come back to bite me more than once, so I at least try for 10-30 minutes a day.

There are times, though, like just a few hours ago, when I get frustrated with the whole deal.  Doubts start creeping in... am I really making that much of an impact on people's lives?... are others out there listening and finding value in my work???... was putting my music on itunes a waste of $32????

This last one gripe's me to no end, and is further proof for me that humans continue to feel like we've gotta control the whole bit of our lives.  Sure, I have said that the money doesn't make a difference as far as itunes is concerned, and that as long as people are listening to my music & being able to take something from it that that's all that matters; well, sometimes it seems like that's anything but!!!!  If any cash comes in, it'll be posted by Saturday to my Tunecore account, but I'm not getting my hopes up... 

I just wish Josh (my brother) was around to see what an amazing thing God's done (and continues to do) for me.