I just needed to vent a little. I get out of a 10yr relationship 6 of them married. I knew this was going to end soon so when it did there was no surprise. Yes I married and Idiot and a cheater. Well I take time to my self not seeing anyone and making sure I was ready for a relationship before jumping into one. Also taking time with my kids so they don't get hurt in the process any more then they have. So 2-3 months go by and I feel that I can start looking again. Now the whole time in these last couple months I have been supportive of my X in her new relationship that started before ours officaly ended ( I told ya she was a cheater lol ) because hell we don't work and if she found that one person she is happy with great for her. 

Well after joining a few sites I find someone that really sparked my interest. Meet her one night and had a blast talking with her and her friends. We really didn't have time to chat long as she had to go and we both wanted to meet again to talk and really get to know each other better. A few days go by and a few text back and forth. Then on Saturday night I start getting text from the wife. You know the ones " where are you, I love you" and so on. 15 in total! I know they are fake and just to try and mess with me as she knew I went out to meet someone. I talk to her and she said sorry won't happen again. Ok maybe she was drunk and didn't know what she was doing as she said. Then, last night, same thing out with a friend and text come through to my phone. Same old crap "where are you, I love you, exc." Then she starts hitting my myspace photos and trashing them.

Well I left a message with the girl I met that night to let her know I just couldn't meet her again and wished her the best of luck. I know my X and sooner or later she would start to look for who I was seeing and if things did progress into something more then just 2 people sharing a drink and having fun, she would mess with her too. I couldn't do that to such a beautiful person inside and out. Well now I have to make a choice, live with this problem creeping up on me till my lease is up and I can get the heck out of dodge, or spend my savings to buy this lease up but that will kill me financially. Don't you love life's little challenges! 

Well I went out and bought the electric cigarette today. Have got it once before and had gone a whole two months without cigarettes and hope to never have one again after today. Wish me luck!