Introverted hedonistic exhibitionist, sounds like a contradiction, but definitely true. Optimistic pragmatic realist, learning to be less cynical.
I'm ever so busy! My peculiar job means I work odd hours and no two weeks the same.
I am very fortunate in my friends, excellent, ethical enthusiastic people all.
I remembered recently that when I was 13 or 14 I began writing what I intended would be the first novel in a series. What struck me in this remembering was that the social structure was non-monogamous. At the time I had no specific term for it. I thought their lives would be happy if they could enjoy each other, men and women, with no negative judgement, but with understanding of their fundamental animal natures.
In many ways it was an outlet for my sexual fantasies, and also a way of expressing my disgust with what I perceived to be an obsolete patriarchal culture.
I read a great deal more than my peers, fantasy, science, anthropology, history, (science fiction didn't come until later, although there was much of it in the house, it was old and the female characters were difficult to connect with) and was considered weird. At the time this pained me deeply, but I embrace & celebrate it now.
The point of the above reminiscence being: I was never naturally comfortable with monogamy.
I have come to a very happy time in my life. I feel positive about my work, my contributions to my professional field, and the prospect of spending some serious time in making my own art, rather than facilitating other artists in theirs.
However, what delights me most, is being able to speak honestly with my partners, and acknowledge my other partners. I do have multiple relationships, all of which I am attempting to be mindful and considerate in. I am not exactly seeking more, but I am not closed to the idea.
I've been quite clear that I have a number of partners already, and have kept the available listing. Now I change that to "seeing someone(s)" because I want to give myself and my existing partners appropriate attention.