My annual update in the works again.

Let's see if I can be less vague than usual (unlikely).

I hate being called a boy but I dislike being called a girl also. So what does that make me? An oddball, surely.
Genderqueer is a good word to describe me, there is something from both genders I like to have and something I wish to get rid of.
Now yes, I have a dream of being completely genderless but as most of us know that is completely impossible in this world of ours. You will be labeled and seen as one or the other by most people, that can not be helped.

But my gender is just a part of me. A very important part of my life, but still just a part.

I have been depressed for the last 10 or so years for quite a few reasons that I have no desire to list here. But that is a very important fact to know about me as the last ten years of depression have made me a bit mentally unstable and I feel that is something everyone should know about me before anything else.

But on to other things.

I can safely say that I am a kinky bastard in many ways and glad of it. What that actually means you can just ask.
I am also polyamorous and I appreciate my freedom even when I am in a relationship. I need space, you hear? Space!

Scared yet, poor thing?

I spend lot of my time dreaming of things that I am unlikely to get and playing games, alone or with others. So I suppose that makes me a nerd aswell.
I love reading, staying in shape, movies, anime, manga and so on.
And I hate drinking and drunk people in general. Smoking is also a big yuck for me.

But in all honesty I hate listing things that I like or dislike so I'll just end it here.

Just ask something if you wish and I might even answer.

Struggling with my gender identity. It's driving me mad. Mad I tell you!

It completely dominates my life and makes everything so much harder. How can you get to know others when you do not even know yourself?

I'm still great at confusing people and being anti-social. Oh, and I'm also good at being obsessed with various things.

First thing they notice? Most likely my rather androgyne approach to my looks and my collar (never leave home without a collar, never) which has one of my two names on it.

Gah. I love fantasy, scifi, horror and weird stuff in general.

Well not when it comes to food, I have no desire to be horrified by food. But make me something tasty but healthy and I might even smile.

I am addicted to many things, and I desire more than I should. Naughty me.

My future, my gender and certain important people who have entered my life.

Sober and at home! As I already said I dislike drinking and drunk people are boo!
And as I am rather anti-social I hate going to places unless I have some good company with me.

(you might also find me baking in the middle of a friday night)

Hard to think of anything...

I've thought about suicide way too many times. I wonder when I actually have the guts to go through with it?
I really have no secrets...

Message me if you feel like and you love gender confused people.

Suomeksi kirjottaisin enemmän, mutta kun ei vaan nyt jaksa. Mutta puhun kyllä mielläni suomeksi jos joku sillä kielellä minulle viestittää. :)