I tend to forge my own path in life and have gotten lost and scared plenty of times in the jungle. But I feel the mainstream has little to offer except comfort. Not to knock comfort (I love a roof over my head, don't get me wrong), but too much and I stagnate. So I keep myself on my toes, and keep heading out into the unknown.
I am also lighthearted! I laugh a lot! If you make me laugh you may very well win me over. But I need you to have the willingness to communicate and be vulnerable as well. Fun is so important, but the safety of knowing you can be vulnerable with someone and they with you is what it's all about.
It's so beautiful to grow in awareness with someone. I think this is what intimacy is. I am wanting to create that with someone. I am really good at looking at the bigger picture, and am always willing to be shown my own blind spots. I need you to be able to look at yours too, when gently pointed towards them.
I filled out 1000+ questions months ago, so there may be some contradictions in my profile as I've become more aware of who I am, what kind of person I want to meet, what kind of relationship I want to create with that someone. I have found that awareness brings all sorts of healing and I cultivate my awareness, transforming quickly and deliberately, seeking more unity, less fragmentation, in myself, my soul, my life. Can I use the word awareness again, one more time?
Some Interesting Things About Me:
1) I am excellent at 55 mph plant identification
2) I keep a pitchfork in my car at all times
3) I daydream about the end of the Automotive Era, where I-35 is a huge open market and we are all riding our bicycles.
4) My daughter and I like to run around outside in the rain.
5) I learned how to cook in France when I was 19. I make a kick ass ratatouille.
6) I believe in reincarnation.
7) If I didn't live in Texas, I would live somewhere with lots of wild mushrooms, where the trees were so old and tall you felt like you were in a cathedral when you walked in the forest.
8) I appreciate sensual pleasures:
--goat cheese ripened to gooey deliciousness smeared on a warm baguette
--the smell of the desert when it rains
--the feel of cool cotton sheets
--the shock of plunging into cold Texas water on a sizzling hot day
--making love in a tent with the stars above
--the sight of squirrels chasing each other all over the pecan trees, and the sound of their claws on the bark
--the squishy feel of stepping into a swamp by mistake [yes I have done this!]
--the sound of babbling water
--the perfume of huisache blooms wafting in the breeze
--light touch on skin
If you like my list, message me your own list :-)
I have strong political convictions (left-wing leanings, pro-choice, etc), but I can usually see and understand other perspectives or points of view. That said, at this stage in my life, for a true match, I prefer that our values be in alignment.
I have always loved exploring other languages and cultures; I learned French and visited and lived in cities all over Europe in my twenties. Now in my 40s I lean more towards spending time in a cabin in the woods or by a river when I get a vacation. Hot springs, hiking, swimming in Texas rivers, geeking out exploring all the plants.
I seek out Peak Experiences. Sweet prolonged moments of intimacy. Being vulnerable while looking in someone's eyes. Magical losing-myself moments in nature. A wave of ecstasy riding my bike. Laughing uproariously with friends. Playing endless games of Uno with my daughter.