Rebellious performing artist and myth-maker. A poet, dreamer, romantic, iconoclastic intellectual, and excitable idealist.
I’m fond of genuinely nice people who aren’t prone to bitterness, jealousy or spite. My purpose in life is to make the magic come alive.
I am that same kid in his play room, lost in his imagination, where all his toys are alive and immersed in a unfurling story where the creator and audience become one and the same. And having seen the divine therein, has no intention of ever returning to the place others call reality.
Or to quote Heraclitus; we are most nearly ourselves when we achieve the seriousness of the child at play.
My background is one that merges the very privileged with the acutely painful. I desire a slow-paced life in the heart of beautiful natural surroundings, far away from the hectic pulse of human hysteria and competitive status-seeking.
Better to be the fool who loves too much than the monster who loves too little.
Ok, so I recently downsized my previously massive profile (on the suggestion of a friend) in an attempt to not scare off the tl;dr crowd or the people who can’t handle *all of me in one go before they even know me* (I can be rather like staring at the sun), but it’s resulted in me getting a lot of messages from people who are unprepared for what they’re getting themselves in for, and I also feel like I’m being dishonest by omitting parts of myself.
So, with that in mind, some further reading:
I’m warm, like a friendly dog, and exuberant – often to the point of mania. I lust for life, I lust for the stars. Intense enthusiasm, playfulness, wonderment, and a traffic jam of thousands of racing thoughts characterise my everyday life. Some of those thoughts are surreal and mad, others are genius, I boldly walk through the line that Oscar Levant erased. I want to experience everything, and I want to live forever. Even in my calmer moods I’m likely to sound like I’m high on life or jugging dozens of crazy schemes or ideas. I’m also ridiculously honest and open, like loose-cannon honest and open, but at the same time I can keep a secret and have never broken a promise in my life.
I relish luxury, comfort, beauty, politeness, courage, and progress. I have little time for futilitarians. I am a perennial optimist who advocates making the world a better place. Dare to dream. I take a deep personal interest in people, and I like it when people take a deep personal interest in me. Superficial banter bores me.
I drop in and out of temperaments and in and out personas. Sometimes I’m wildly charismatic and stunningly confident, other times I’m chewing over anxieties and demons, and will retreat into my shell. One-on-one and in-person, you’ll find the real me, a relatively humble introvert. In group situations you’ll find a raconteur who looks to give the audience a memorable evening and keep them talking for weeks or months afterwards. Some people like both, others only like the ‘real me’.
If you intrepidly state your opinions, you’ll be perceived as arrogant. If you remain reticent, you have to live with the knowledge that you’re a hypocritical coward. I felt the latter option was more sinister. Caught between a rock and a hard place, I take the liberty of gate-crashing the minds of almost everyone I meet.
Once you’ve earned my trust, I am extremely loyal and loving. By contrast, I am excessively cagey around people who I think don’t like me. And in my low moods, I’m hypersensitive to stress, and a little paranoid.
I often enjoy subtly winding people up without them knowing. I find ludicrous exaggeration hilarious. When playing a role, I never break character – and I’m content with being misunderstood in the name of art. As my best friend said “I was just thinking I’ve never met anyone as actively *living* creativity as you, you just go off like a nuclear reactor all the time”.
I’m mildly bipolar and fully a polarizing figure, many people either love me or hate me. It used to be about 50/50. These days it’s more like 90% love, 10% hate. That’s progress. My empathy and emotional intelligence has increased dramatically since the headstrong days of my late teens and early 20’s. I remain profoundly individualistic though.
So yeah, you’ve probably gathered by now that I’m quite the head case, but the harmless kind. Love and empathy are my premier values and I spend much of my time agonising over how to make people happier.
If you’re one of those people who doesn’t like people to be “full on” then you should probably avoid me, I am pure unhindered energy, and an unconventional ever-evolving challenge.
Most of the time (these days) I really don’t like text-based communication, so ask me for my skype or phone number as soon as you feel comfortable, and I’ll almost certainly give it to you.
I have a preference for charismatic geeky girls, and/or intellectuals, that said, being the megalomaniac that I am, I quickly adore anyone who seems to like me.
Guys message me too – I like making new friends. Only two guys have ever messaged me on this site, and they both became good friends who are a part of my life to this day. If you’re male, statistically you have a 100% success rate of becoming my friend. I am of course, straight though, but girls, if you’re looking for friendship, likewise, message me – even if I’m hot for you and it isn’t reciprocated, I’ll happily ignore that to make new friends. Love transcends sex. Friendship transcends everything.
If you’ve read this far; you’re epic, give yourself a hug.
And yeaaaaah… that pretty much scratches the surface of the iceberg that is me. Want to know more? I’m an open book. An open book that is liable to cause your head to explode, in a colourful way. <3