The concept of a self summary, at least for me, is a bit of a challenge. especially when it finally comes down to writing it out for another person to read and judge.
Who am I? And how do I do this honestly? Honestly, I don't know.
I would say that to some people I'm shy, to some people I'm not at all, in fact to some people I couldn't be farther from shy. Sometimes I'm quick witted and on point, and sometimes I can't think of what I want to say.
Generally I am more of an introverted type, but then I play in a band, so here I am kind of obligating myself socially even when my default way of being seeks no attention whatsoever. I just more than a default, I suppose.
I have strong beliefs about relationships, and I find myself never settling for less. Which means I also find my self alone, a lot. haha! I would rather that than continue seeing a person that I know isn't what I truly want. This being said, I do also love connection - I am a giver, a lover, and a damn good lover at that, and that has gotten me into trouble in the past. leading people on, letting myself be led on. I suppose we all experience these things in our lives some time or other, it's how we learn how to treat ourselves better and ipso facto treating others better as a result.
I believe that the true essence in an intimate relationship is sexual, and the quality of a relationship can always be boiled down to how well the two people match up chemically, and sexually.
I do not believe that a relationship should become stale and habitual, and devoid of sexual fervor, because it is in these moments that two people ascend to a completely empathetic, and open place that they can take in aspects of life that are otherwise missed while we are busy putting up social and personal defenses to protect ourselves from the psychosocial debris coming at us at all times.
This is not to say that my head is made of meat and all I want is the pussy. That couldn't be further from the truth. I could never love, and be with a person that I do not respect, admire, look up to, understand, find intelligent, funny, and so much more, but I could also never be with someone that I did not believe to be the most beautiful, sexy, delicious.
as for my more earth based self
My interests fluctuate, but generally I like the wild, I like everything to do with music (playing, learning, listening), I like funny things, I like deep things, I like off the wall things, I like, I like learning new things, I like sacred things, I like profane things, I like helping, and I like eating.