Hello Internets! I've been off and on this site for about two years now. I met my first and only (real) boyfriend via this site, so don't give up hope! (Although admittedly I'm still debating whether that was a good thing... it gave me experience, anyway!) I can be loud, quiet, funny, deep, beautiful, Netflixy (a dirty bum), and all the ways in-between. But I won't belittle myself by describing me in a way that bores the reader. You're welcome. It doesn't fit me anyway.
I love to write, as you will soon find out. Don't worry, I still have a lot more to say and think, but I generally take a while to open up to the good parts about myself. Then I go through quiet/talkative stages, depending on the weather/my mood.
I'm a detailed person. Detailed, not complicated. It has been a heavy year. After a friend's funeral (December '14) I realized I really can't waste my life, I need to be living it. I want to travel the world, but at the moment I'm using the money I put away at my last job (okay, getting paid unemployment) and taking some time to focus on writing and working out. I'm pretty open to life changes that could take me to higher places. I'm also open to growing my garden where I am. There are very few places I wouldn't go for a great adventure.
Currently I'm enjoying being layed off from my position as lead cook for one of Branson's most popular shows and donating my body go science (clinical studies/plasma... lab rat? science prostetite?...) every now and then. (Threateningly sophisticated, I know.) I plan on finding a non-cooking job when I get to where I'm going, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't love food, both eating and cooking.
Although I'm still enjoying the single life, I do miss the idea of having a partner in crime. I'm pretty commitmenty. I dig the idea of working out together, Netflixing an entire show while we eat all the Nutella and ice cream in our sweats, camping, matching outfits, seeing kids movies in the theatre, crying during Titanic and The Notebook, and blanket forts. Dear Odin, the blanket forts.... Maybe one day I'll find someone to go on adventures with, backpacking and hiking and rock climbing and maybe, just maybe, who will join me in hot yoga. I get excited about having someone to share dinner and holidays with the way some people get excited about maybe hooking up with someone at the bar. Call me old-fashioned.
I may not have what you would call an athletic body type, but I freaking love working out and eating. And the outdoors and all things fun. I love anything to do with getting my blood pumping (except running...). I love camping, canoeing, kayaking, hiking, writing, playing in the snow, dancing, yoga, camping, finding a cozy spot and reading/writing for hours, traveling, camping, bonfires, dressing up, camping, making shit and reading shit and singing shit and fixing shit. Also camping. Probably my favorite thing is settling down after a good, long, productive day and just cuddling, chilling by a fire or in a truck bed. Blankets, candles, music, and a truck bed is a pretty quick way to get to my heart. (You better make sure you're ready for that. That's an "In Case Of Emergency" date, when you're in the dog house or you really want to make me a happy panda.)
Thrift stores are probably the best things in the whole world. Don't take me to one if you want me to pay attention to you, or if you're on a tight schedule.
I have a few small tattoos and peircings. I like to wait for fate to let me know when it's time for more ink, but something is usually in my idea folder in my brain.
I don't take religion too seriously, although Buddhism and Wicca feel most right to me. I say I'm Wiccan most of the time but that's just one of the big ones I believe in. (If that scares you, go educate yourself.) I follow my own religion. Mostly I aim to be a good person.
Number 1: Pardon my crudeness, but I can get physical love whenever I want. And I don't just want that. I'm here for friends. If we are lucky enough to make it to a relationship then that's great. But I'm really not that concerned. I'm more focused on building a meaningful life full of meaningful relationships (including and not limited to friends). Okay, honestly, I'm more focused on reading and working out....
Number 2: If I don't reply in a timely manner I am probably busy with work or life. (Don't do that annoying thing where you send five increasingly-self-depreciating messages that are intended to make me feel bad for you.) I don't go on here a whole lot but I promise to respond if I think we have potential as people or whatever.
Number 3: I am curvy. Not fat, not skinny. I work out when I can, I eat mostly healthfully, I don't really do the tan thing (unless I have lines, which I HATE and have to remedy one way or another). When I'm hungry, I eat. When I can, I work out, sauna, do sweat healthy things.
Number 4: I've been through a few things. They do shape me, but in a good way; they make me stronger. It's not baggage, it's leveling up. I am not perfect, but I am one of the most loving, genuine, hard-working people you will meet. I'm learning how to value myself as I want others to. I do not throw people away. I do not trust easily. I do not let people in on a whim. I am a fantastic person with the right treatment.
I'm an old soul that remembers wounds well. Keep that in mind when you feel like dropping some shallow, boring message. Show your depth. Tell me something real that will make me want you as a friend. I'm real.
Having said alllll of this, I will give you a tool; a piece of knowledge that will either make you the villain or the hero. I am secretly the most mushy-hearted person you may ever meet. It only takes a few taps of the hammer in the right spots to crack the code. But you have to be sure you're prepared for that.
Also, if you willingly play with my hair for longer than a half an hour, if you love giving platonic massages, and if you love petting soft skin, I am clay in your hands.
Also.2, the older I get to more I realize that the people who are actually going to stick around for ever are patient with me. They took time to get to know me. They know we have decades ahead of us, so they don't rush anything. People who want me for a short amount of time move fast. Valuable lesson for you young grasshoppers.