I met my first and only "real" boyfriend on this exact website in January. We had our first date on February 15th. We broke up this past Friday (June 20th). My heart is in pieces. I lived with him and his dying grandmother pretty much the majority of the time. She passed away, we grew distant, and our paths were no longer going the same way. While I can't stop thinking about the place I almost met my future husband, I need to allow myself to heal. Not to mention I may be moving to California within a couple of months. I am a changed woman. I am currently in the process of breaking myself down so I can build back up. I'm still in mourning. I don't know why I am telling you this here. Maybe on the off chance I wind up marrying one of you, perhaps. Maybe because I feel so isolated at the moment. Perhaps because this is actually a very fun place to make new friends. Anyway, feel free to talk to me. I don't know if I'll ever go back on here again, but we all have those moments of weakness and loneliness.
If you want to know the truth, I'm pretty damn awesome. Sometimes I think I scare people off by being such an exemplary human being. People aren't really ready for that kind of commitment.
Lately my focus has been working out, becoming a better me, and I'm pretty damn content with that.
I grew up in Southern California 'til I was about 13 when a series of life-changing events sent me to southwest Missouri. At first I hated it here, but it really has become a second home.
All throughout middle and high school I found a real home in band, choir, color guard, theatre, and creative writing. I have stories and music in my head all day e'ry day, sometimes I can't help but sing parts of it out loud.
I left almost my entire family in California, so I had to make a new one. My friends mean the world to me, there's nothing I won't do for someone I know I love.
I love camping, canoeing, kayaking, hiking, playing in the snow, dancing, yoga, camping, traveling, camping, bonfires, dressing up, camping, making shit and reading shit and singing shit and fixing shit. Also camping.
Probably my favorite thing is settling down after a good, long, productive day and just cuddling, chilling by a fire or in a truck bed with a zillion blankets. Actually I've never done the latter with anyone but we seriously need to make that the new cool thing.
Thrift stores are probably the best things in the whole world. Don't take me to one if you want attention and can't handle excitement.
I have tattoos and peircings. Nothing too flashy yet; treble clef on my hand in white ink, tribal phoenix on my neck, lyrics on my forearm, tongue pierced, ears pierced multiple times, nose pierced. I'm past due for new ink but I like to wait for fate to let me know when it's time.
I have nothing against religion, but I don't associate myself with one. I follow my own religion. Mostly I aim to be a good person and spread smiles and common sense.
I'm not cheap. I may still be working on my self-confidence, but I am actually a very good lover. I am a very good friend. I am a very good employee. I am high-quality. You won't be sorry you met me. :]
Number 1: Pardon my crudeness, but I can get penis whenever I want. I'm here for friends, or I am here for a RELATIONSHIP.
Number 2: If I don't reply in a timely manner I am probably on the course of dating someone, I am working a ton and am exhausted, or I simply need to be single for a minute. I don't really take relationships lightly, I'm open with everything else. If I've worked up the balls to let you to take me on a date, and that date goes well enough that we have more planned, I am not going to be fiddling on a dating site looking at other guys.
Number 3: I am curvy. Not fat, not skinny. I work out, I eat healthfully, I don't tan. When I'm hungry, I eat. When I'm mad or lazy, I work out. I am a human being, not a mannequin. I'm awesome and I hate endings so don't start something you can't finish.
Number 4: I've been through a few things. They don't shape me, but they did make me stronger. It's not baggage, it's a plot twist. I am not perfect, but I am one of the most loving, caring, genuine, hard-working people you will meet. I've come to the conclusion that people like me are truly hard to find. I do not throw people away. I do not trust easily. I do not let people in on a whim. I am a fantastic person with the right treatment. From now on I am going to love myself the way I want someone else to. :]