I'm kind, thoughtful, and love hugs! I love to cuddle, talk for hours, play board games, the occasional RPG. Bowling, karaoke, dancing, bonfires, all thing that I love.
I want human connections of all kinds! Friends, play partners, lovers, and camping buddies. I'm not looking for another everyday commitment type of relationship, but I am looking for someone I can grow close with.
I am complicated. I can't always neatly label myself and I like it that way. I feel I'm different with different people and situations.
Sometimes I'm shy, sometimes confident, sometimes loud and obnoxious.
I'm turn the radio up all the way and sing your heart out girl. I love music. The only genre I can say I DISLIKE is polka. Want to relate to me? Share your favorite music with me, tell me why you love it. I have a song for every mood and feeling. If I know you I more than likely have a song I associate with you or how I feel about you.
I'm not classy, not even a little. I can be polite and courteous but if I'm all polite and courteous around you I'm not comfortable yet. I love cuss words and I have noticed that I use them a whole lot more than I probably should. I can censor myself around Grandmas and little humans:) (see: can be polite and courteous) I'm most comfortable around a bond fire with a glass of cheap wine in my hand laughing with the people I have the pleasure to call friends.
I like to be the center of attention sometimes, other times I want to be the wallflower. It usually depends on how smart I'm feeling in the room. If I perceive that most of the people in the room are more educated than me I'm more prone to shyness. It's a problem I'm working on, because I like to be around intelligent people. They are so much more interesting. I can't change my past and find myself with an college education that makes me feel validated as 'smart', but I can continue my curious exploration of life. I try to learn something new everyday. Want to teach me something? Let's talk:)
I like to get dirty in more ways than one. I'm the girl who sets up camp and doesn't cry about broken nails and dirt. Bugs? Come on they are bugs...not giant man eating bugs. Give me a break. I enjoy hard work and lazy days equally. I will be the first to volunteer if there is physical labor needed for friends and family alike. I like to feel useful and help people in binds. I'm no good for financial support, but physical support? I got you.
I'm forgetful, random and silly. Sometimes I don't make sense. Slow me down and ask me where I'm coming from and usually it will come out clearer. I shift topics in ways that make sense to me, but somehow don't translate to others sometimes. I've tried to explain by brain as like a bubble chart where everything is connected and orbiting and coming into consciousness in a strange shifty pattern. Brains are weird and wonderful.
I fall in love everyday. I've learned not to loose myself in the process. I found the word love to be lacking for the myriad of variations it can take form in. I love my family, I love my friends, I love my husband, I love my girlfriend, I love my play partner, I love his family, my pets, random strangers who share a smile with me. I love them all in different ways and for different reasons. Some of them would be surprised at how much I think of them in my endlessly thinking brain. Things I admire, things I can do to touch their lives. I just want to touch as many lives as I can with my love before I end my time here.
I both love and hate labels. I think we need them to help describe all the complicated things we can be. But I think that clinging to tightly can be really detrimental to personal growth. I was boy crazy for my grade school and early high school years. After meeting my then girlfriend I quickly assumed the label 'lesbian' even though it was quite obvious I never was. I assumed because I had fallen in love with a girl that I HAD to be a lesbian. Fast forward a decade and that girl turns out to not be a girl at all and I'm married to him and I'm finding out gender isn't the set in stone black and white thing I thought it was. Not to mention all those years of suppressing my attractions to men made me just a wee bit crazy when I finally admitted them. Now I'm solidly under the 'hearts not parts' category. I'm not attracted to genitals I'm attracted to personalities no matter where they fall on the gender spectrum. I do find myself most attracted to those in the middle, I don't want Barbie or G.I Joe. The extremes seem to annoy me. I don't have a 'type'. I find intelligence and personality sexy. I don't seek the same traits in all of my lovers, I seek diversity and experience.