(prepare for a lot of text. One individual is not or should not be described in two or three sentences and some bulletpoints.)
Let us break down the borders of comfort that we've built. Let us cross these borders to seek the true meaning of things, to seek the truth about our own existence.
Let us find the beauty in atrocities.
Let us find the harmony in dissonance.
Let us find comfort in uneasiness.
Let us find humor in the macabre.
Let us find order in chaos.
Let us find comfort in discomfort.
Then we will not be bothered anymore.
We don't have to fool ourselves.
Most things we perceive are unchangeable.
But it is for us to decide how to deal with them.
Don't let other people dictate you what is wrong and what is supposed to make you feel uncomfortable.
It is your life, not theirs.
Congratulations, if you made it this far, you probably think I might be some sort of sick sect leader, or even worse. If so, feel free to click any button you like to leave this page.
Otherwise, if you still think of me as a human being, please go on! Most of the profiles on this site just try to display a distorted picture of their own being, in fear of revealing their weaknesses and imperfections, which might lead to the loss of potential visitors.
But isn't it the wrong idea to play a fictive role to be liked by strangers? I try to find people here who I can speak freely to and who like me for who and what I am, not for who and what they want be to be.
If users on here can't do that, it's totally fine.
But if there will just be one user that can, the result will be much more worth than any other fake bullshit.
You might already get a picture from the input above. I can try to make it a bit clearer at this point.
One way to describe a personality that is quite common across the internet is through the "Myers-Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI)".
There is a test on okCupid for that.
I just did it again to get the most actual result.
That test gives out a "INTJ".
I will try to comment on that as how far this result overlaps with my own perception.
More "I" (introvert) than "E" (extrovert).
People know me or get to know me might get a quite schizophrenic impression.
I don't really want to impress anyone, or really want to get lots of attention from others to make myself feel better. I don't want my mood to rely on others.
But because of that, I try to not really give a damn about what others think of me and as said above, I don't want to adjust my behavior to comfort others.
People that can deal with that are called my friends.
In this group of people, I can be quite extrovert, making jokes (a humoristic view on most things can help to deal with it more easily), starting a discussion or sometimes even taking the lead in situations where shit needs to be done.
But there are always moments, maybe even whole weeks i just want to stay in bed, shut off my phone and watch movies or play video games.
Sometimes, I even prefer ordering food online so I don't have to go grocery shopping out there.
So in total, I can rely to being labeled as "introvert".
More "N" (intuition) than "S" (sensing).
More "T" (thinking) than "F" (feeling).
That's an easy one.
Feelings are not rational.
Feelings are always subjective and therefore arbitrary.
You can't come to universal and absolute conclusions on an arbitrary basis.
For me, true reasoning and Thoughts have to be universal to function between individuals, otherwise the common ground of communication is missing.
Don't get me wrong.
I do not dislike feelings and are still able to feel.
There is art in form of music or animated pictures (film) that make me shiver, let me get goosebumps or can even make me cry (fuck this manly man bullshit).
I am capable of deep and passionate love (I guess) and can feel the vibe of strong emotional moments.
I just try to separate these feelings from general reasoning.
There is room for both reasoning and feelings.
There is always time for brain and heart.
Just don't let these mix up with no control.
More "J" (judging) than "P" (perception).