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His journal posts
Feb 15, 2009
Stil have a job =).
Have had a girlfriend for the last 2 months =D.
Life is good =).
Jan 11, 2009
Dec 3, 2008
So I'm messing around on the Zune Marketplace and I see a couple of metal bands I've never heard of, after listening to them for a while I think I'm ready to commit to buying their CD's
Check them out.
5 Finger Death Punch
Just to name a few.
Dec 3, 2008
(SHOOTS OFF S.O.S. FLARE GUN) GET ME OUTTA HERE @_@!!!
But anyway...It's all good I guess, If life was easy it would get boring. Atleast I can fly for free (shrug) =P.
Dec 2, 2008
But what else is there?
I've noticed that when I am truely focused on getting something done, nothing can stop me. At the same time I really don't feel like the same person that I feel like outside of that focus point. It's a good thing but it still surprises me from time to time.
My weaknesses, I think I sacrifice too much. The majority of my down time is spent helping out other people with their work and in return, 3/4ths of those people won't pay me back unless told to do so by the PL. So in turn I give some and get none in return...And that doesn't sound right, in a dirty, gutter type way O.o. Anywho, I think I don't know when to stop and that can be a flaw that leads to me giving too much.
Another things I tend to do is juggle too much stuff at one time. I need to cut back on that because I can't be in 300 places at one time. Go do this, take that there, I need you here. It's stressful.
I think it's good to analyze myself and I'll probably end up doing it more and more so I'll be able to understand how I work more and more.
Dec 1, 2008
Woowwww, that's all I have to say.
Nov 19, 2008
I was thinking about City of Ink in ATL but I'd have to drive a while.
Can anyone suggest anothe place?
Nov 10, 2008
Nov 8, 2008
So when the plane comes in, like usual, I'm the first one inside to get the bags out. Then the guy that I didn't expect to do too much actually came up there with me to help out. We actually ended up talking and he was convincing me to find a better job than the one I have now, which I plan on doing, but hearing the motivational words from another person isn't a bad thing, it actually helps. I'll take everything I can get in the motivation department as of right now, my self esteem isn't a problem it's just finding a means to this end that is killing me. He also said that this job sticks people in a cycle that can't be escaped and as of late I have felt that cycle try and trap me, but I don't like it.
At the least the best thing I can do right now is stay positive until I can finally get rid of this weird insomnia.
I think I might actually be close to dealing with it. I was actually able to wake up at 9:00 today and that's a big accomplishment for me.
I only hope for better things, but in the end I've promised myself that I won't let anyone or anything beat me. As long as I believe and have my smile and take pride in whatever it is that I do I will always be happy in the end.
Nov 5, 2008
It's there every time I see my first Ex's pictures of her baby and it's there when someone mentions my 2nd ex's name. I got off the bus today and one of my co-workers mentioned that I should try and get with my Ex of 4 months. No one at my work place, save a few, know about the relationship I had with her. So the whole time I'm sitting here playing dumb with him and being reminded of what I don't have any more, it's eating me up on the inside. I don't even remember the ride home, I just remember coming inside and sitting down and logging onto my computer. I need to break the cycle, I need to be free. I'm tired of living in an endless routine of coming home tired and worn out on my days off.
I need to get away from the pain...But most importantly I would like someone I could trust, I could hold..and I guess in the end love. I'm not afraid to love. What I'm afraid of is not finding someone to give that love....
In the end though, I think I should just focus more on bettering myself and repairing the damage I have suffered. Because in the end all I have is God and myself.