Master of none
Cry all the time
Cause I'm not having fun
Sad inside and terrified of something making me sadder.
Super creative if I'll ever get around to doing it.
Passionate when open-hearted.
Slow-paced, guarded, and unconfident.
I'm a pleaser by nature.
I often misrepresent myself in person and will probably sell myself short.
I'm manic-depressive but I try to keep it to myself.
At my worst I can be passive-aggressive and even unapologetic. I haven't been in that state-of-mind in years, and I'm always trying to be conscientious about preventing or making up for it.
Love some creepy ASMR videos.
I'm quite a genuine person, passive, but I think too much and this sometimes leads to passionate tirades. I'm a terrible liar. Unless I'm playing a boardgame that requires me to, then I'm a devious madman. People generally trust me, and I never want to betray that trust.
I'm ambidextrously left-handed.... my favorite things: cold feels, cold colors, rain, coffee, artstuff, so much music, femininity/androgyny.
One day I will reign as international massage champion, but for now I'm still pretty good. Also good at visual arts, and sometimes performing. I covet music, and daydream about creating it but NEVER LIVE MY DREAMS.
I have a strange infatuation with deep sea divers, the outfit and the concept of deep sea exploration. I am in awe at giant squids: they terrify but also mystify me.
Um, I use ellipses a lot... (<- see?) probably more than is grammatically acceptable by other people...
I know my profile is loooooong... it's probably worse to mention I've abbreviated it... a lot.
Note: I try to keep things updated, but I'm always finding errors in how I previously worded myself. Feel free to ask me about anything in my "questions" or "profile" that seems vague, contradicting, or off-putting. Also, I don't mind talking about an opposing perspective: it's a great way to broaden our empathy.
I also don't really believe the binary gender model is at all necessary. If you play by those rules, cool, but I like to have fun across the gender spectrum. I mostly have a masculine demeanor and appearance, but I do enjoy ladying up on occasion. Profit: fun.
No preferred pronouns; I mean, "he" is fine, but if someone says "she" I don't wince. Sometimes I'll smurk. I just use "they" when speaking of anyone else... neutrality is easier for everybody, I think.
I identify as polyamorous. And I'll be honest, I'm not in a place to invest my self to a whole level. I suppose what I mean is, I have a lot of automated defenses when it comes to exposing my feelings... am almost always guarded, not that I can't or don't still dearly love and care for the people close to me and want to have meaningful relationships with them.
I am NOT a possessive or jealous person, nor am I okay with unhealthy amounts of those feelings. I know those feelings happen, but everyone can manage it on their own like adults who are accountable for our own emotions.
I tend to pick up other people's senses of humor... like a squirly changeling man. I take after my dad in being an oversized child, and will be until I am one day a dead child... probably from all that wrastlin'. I wish more people were playful. And hugs. There needs to be more hugs, don't fear the hugs.
As you could guess, I do love working and watching after kids. I've been babysitting my 1 and 3 year old nephew and niece, respectively. They are my favoritest thing ever. Objectively speaking, they're better than unicorns. If you want a conversation starter with me, just ask me about them, because I can type out a whole other profile's worth.
I love to see passion and sincere expression in somebody. My passion has burned at different fluxes through life, unfortunately low most of these last years, so I want to be around those who can spark it. I want to be around minds in search for better understanding. I feel that when someone believes they have come to understand all that there is to know, they've only settled for ignorance. I wish myself and everyone to always remain open to the fluidity of humanity and our surroundings.
I'm really fucking feverish about egalitarianism. Topics include animal rights, LGBT rights, gender equality.... Just equality in general. I hate hierarchies, corporate ladders, and anything that demands one human being or animal is less than another.
At the top of meaningful topics, child development and security. Especially child safety. Which I know is true for most, but this evokes a lot of passion... and possibly anger out of me. There is nothing more desirable to the limit of my emotion than rescuing another's childhood. I've considered making a career tangent to help child victims, but I'm not entirely sure that's a healthy line of work for me to be in just yet.
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