OkCupid's really going down the toilet. How about a "B-List OkCupid" movement?

The first thing I need to say is that I really am mainly here for the tests and perhaps hoping to find a new friend or two. I mean it when I say my promises are forever, and I know the meaning of "forever"... The fact that she left 3.5 years ago doesn't change how I feel and nothing ever will. (Fair warning: You will most likely get the whole messed up story if you talk to me, even if you don't ask.)

That said, my account became quite pointless after I noticed that she deleted hers. I liked the fact that she was still my top match from Romania even after all this time (also took it as confirming their algorithm), but as it is... Wiped that huge profile I used to have and I'll rewrite it if I'll ever feel up to it.
Started over with the questions too and decided to stop being fair with their algorithm. Until now I was really picking what I'd want a "match" to answer and setting the importance accordingly, but I'm not in any way looking for that and they won't let me pick answers and importance separately for the friend rating (it's not even clear exactly how that's calculated). So now I'm checking what I'd want a good friend to pick and select the importance accordingly. That said, take the "match" to mean "friend" and ignore the "friend" rating.

That I'm really withdrawn, and snappish if approached. Which, depending on their view of things, they can either correctly identify as shyness (or social anxiety) or mistake for arrogance (or plain evilness).
That's if I can hold it together somehow, because otherwise if I end up physically around people I don't already feel close to they're likely to notice that I'm just having a panic attack.

Books: Mainly fantasy, especially high fantasy. Some SF also works, but I'm quite picky.
Excepting the obvious Lord of the Rings, I really liked Anne Bishop's Black Jewels Trilogy, Gene Wolfe's Book of the Short Sun, most of Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles and some of L. E. Modesitt, Jr.'s SF books (but I didn't read any of his series yet).

Movies: I don't watch many movies, but... Mostly the same genres as the books, plus some good ones set in the middle ages or ancient times and a few silly comedies.
The Lord of the Rings (all 3) is by far at the top of my list, then Matrix (especially 2 and 3). I keep listing Braveheart when I'm being asked for favorite movies, but there are several medieval/ancient ones which would also deserve being listed. As for comedies, I fondly remember Robin Hood: Men in Tights, the Ace Ventura series and Monty Python and the Holy Grail. Oh, and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind might deserve a separate mention, since it doesn't fit in any of those categories.

TV series: I'm only adding this category here for Babylon 5. If you ask me, that was (and still is) the best TV series ever made, period.

Music: The more melodic kinds of metal (keep growling away from me). Symphonic metal comes first (preferably symphonic-power, not the overly classical Therion-like kind), then power if it's low on guitar solos (and preferably with clear female vocals), then the softer kinds of gothic and doom (especially when the lyrics are particularly deep or sad). Some folk-metal also sounds pretty nice.
I have to list Nightwish (both old and new, as long as Anette doesn't try to sing Tarja's songs), Antichrisis (have mixed feelings about the sound, but I really relate to the lyrics) and Edenbridge. The rest tend to vary every week or three.

Food: Uh... Pizza? Maybe that, because otherwise I can't really say I have favorite foods. I might say I like some foods due to, shall we say, their sentimental value, since I link them to Andra for one reason or another, but otherwise... Quite a long list of what I don't like, on the other hand.

Leaving the obvious (such as oxygen, water, etc.) aside... First would be Andra, and the fact that I'm forced to do without her for 3.5 years now is why I've been dead in every way but the strictly physical since then. Then, in no particular order, daydreaming, thinking, a good computer and Internet access. The sixth would normally be books, but I seem to be doing without reading for painfully long stretches of time for the past three years, unfortunately.

Doing whatever I'm doing any other night.

Hm... When I was little I wanted to cut down all the trees, because I thought trees create wind and high winds scared me. It's something that still makes me feel pretty bad.
But really, I have nothing to hide, just ask...

For a few things that some might consider private, read this. #2 no longer applies since I spoke to her again for a while.

You find yourself in this. But since that's impossible, if you want to...