I am harmless, low-key, and geeky.
My Self-Summary
(Slightly edited Feb. 13th, 2009)
First impressions are often deceiving, and unless you have a very
good people-sense, you'll probably feel the same with me. Just
because I'm pretty meek, people tend to overlook that I have
opinions, too. Sometimes strange and unusual ones. Since I care a
lot about others' feelings, I'm hardly outspoken. Blunt honesty is
not my thing - the harsh, unveiled truth is only for those who can
handle it. But don't get me wrong, I don't lie to friends.
I'm not the kind of guy who is into parties and such. I prefer
quieter activities, and I don't drink alcohol anyway.
I generally respect people's privacy, but expect them to respect
mine as well. Getting to know me may require a bit of
patience.
However, I can still be fun to talk to, I'm open-minded enough to
discuss virtually any given subject, and where I have nothing to
say, I'm at least a good listener.
I actually have some sense of humour, often expressed by
deliberately misunderstanding things, i.e. assuming a literal
meaning when something was obviously not meant literally.
I'm sensitive to other people's feelings. I go out of my way to
avoid hurting other people, or to make them feel better.
I'm what people would call a "bad-weather-friend", i.e. someone to
turn to when things go wrong, someone to offer some kind words, a
shoulder to cry on and maybe even advice.
I don't criticize people. I may say that I disagree with their
opinion, though.
I'm friendly towards everybody who doesn't give me a reason to act
otherwise, though I don't make friends easily.
I'm a bit of a geek, probably.
I measure myself and others by different standards, in terms of
that I'm a lot stricter with myself. There are many things I could
not forgive myself, but can forgive others easily. As unlikely as
it may sound with my test results and all, I'm not easily
offended.
I don't exactly have a positive outlook on life or the world in
general. Guess I'm somewhat disillusioned. I'm still a dreamer,
though. It all depends on the situation, and on the people around
me. I can be cynical on occasion but usually I don't feel a need to
be. In contrast to that, I often appear more innocent (or even
naive) than I actually am. I'm good at pretending where
necessary.
Please be warned about the following things:
First: I'm not really interested in sex. If that's a dealbreaker
for you, we might probably still be friends.
Second: I work a lot, as I need to. I apologize in advance for not
being available all the time.
Third: I'm hopelessly chaotic. I usually find what I need, though,
but a neat-freak wouldn't stand my company for long.
What I’m doing with my life
Working. Slaving away while wasting the little left of my time
pointlessly, with things like taking tests here and such. And no, I
do not consider that really worthwhile.
I’m really good at
Technical stuff. Fixing other people's computers and such.
Daydreaming, phantasizing. Listening to other people. Making
compromises. Accepting other people's opinions as perfectly valid
even if opposed to my own as long as they don't try to shove them
down my throat. Talking nonsense.
Despite my initial shyness, I'm usually a good conversationalist.
The first things people usually notice about me
Most people probably won't notice me at all. I'm pretty ordinary -
at least in appearance. Apart from that, I'm quite shy. I'm not
sexy. Not at all. I'm, despite all modesty, kind and friendly,
though, and far more easygoing and tolerant than I might appear at
first.
My favorite books, movies, music, and food
Books (just to list a few, in no particular order, and I probably
keep forgetting the most important ones): Demian by Hermann Hesse,
The Bridge of Birds by Barry Hughart, Reaper Man by Terry
Pratchett, Close to the Machine by Ellen Ullman. Though the last
one is non-fiction, I tend to prefer fantasy / science-fiction.
Harry Potter, of course, before I forget to mention that.
Movies: Spirited Away, Waking Life, Strange Days, The Matrix (part
one), Dreamscape, The Game, Night Watch (trashy, but fun...)
I rarely watch TV. If I do, it's probably some sci-fi series, like
any Star Trek, Babylon 5 or Andromeda.
Music: An eclectic selection from various genres as well as for
various reasons, like: Nightwish (and Within Temptation, too),
Blind Guardian (not that much of a devoted fan, though), The
Cranberries, Depeche Mode (as well as Camouflage and Mesh),
Supertramp, Alphaville, REM, Linkin Park, X-Perience, Mike
Oldfield. Occasionally listening to: The Cure, David Bowie, Good
Charlotte, Moby, Wolfsheim, Placebo, Bad Religion, Roxette...
whatever just incidentially fits my personal definition of "good
music". I'm somewhat picky despite a bascially broad taste, in
terms that I might really like some songs by one artist or group,
while I could hardly care less for some others. Meaningful lyrics
appeal to me, but I don't underestimate a catchy tune.
Foods: Either plain and simple, pretty conventional home-cooked
meals or Asian as well as Italian food. Usually with little or no
meat, please. I'm not exactly a vegetarian, but I don't like eating
meat too much. Every now and then a bit of it is okay, but I'm not
into steaks and such, sorry.
The six things I could never do without
First, the basics. You know, from air, food, etc. to physical and
mental health. Second, freedom. Third, friends (or at least nice
people). Fourth, something to read, mostly books. Fifth, means of
creative expression, like but not limited to writing and such.
Sixth, the internet, probably.
I spend a lot of time thinking about
Life and death, society, psychological and philosophical issues as
well as random and mundane things... when I'm not just daydreaming.
On a typical Friday night I am
At home, in front of a computer sreeen (chatting, taking tests,
roleplaying or reading webcomics), or out somewhere, working. Maybe
reading a book.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit here
Uh, don't know... things like "I used to be into fetish stuff" and
such?
You should message me if
You think we could be friends? Even if not, if you like someone to
talk to, are curious to find out whether I'm completely boring or
just convincingly pretending to be, you're lonely, isolated and in
need of emotional support... whatever, I'm listening. By the way, I
don't mind meeting online acquaintances in person. (Yeah, as if
anyone would actually want to meet me...)