Every thing else is just who I am and many things about me.~
I am every thing, I am sadness, I am happiness, I am anger, I am madness, I am insanity, I am ultra mindedness, I am you, I am me, I am we, I can see all the possibilities of all worlds as the universes collide simultaneously onto my mind, I am many, I am one, I am nothing but I must be something for who will pour the tea?~ I might or might not be what you want me to be or what you don't want me to be, I am what I choose to be.~
No alcohol, no smoking, no drugs, and no sex without love.~ These all can be dangerous, poisonous even, and used to distract the self from dealing with personal problems.~
Commitment: Never give up and put all effort into everything, Honesty: Be honest with the self and with others with no holding back but also considering other people and choosing words carefully, and Responsibility: Be responsible for the self including emotions, actions, non-actions, etc., being a better person, friend, lover, etc. by caring for the self but still being open to help from others, and not claiming the responsibility is for others to bear.~
Appreciate Everything: To be grateful for everything, including the understanding that without sadness happiness would not be known, is to see everything with a wider vision and perhaps a more joyful outlook.~ Get Fit: Explore what is possible with great effort physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and the self may thrive.~ Stay Healthy: Body, mind, heart, soul, these are all parts of the self, listen to them, care for them and the self may prosper.~
I am going to celebrate everyday of my life!~ ^_^
My love is eternal, my friendship everlasting.~
Life is ridiculous, I will enjoy every moment of it, and I hope to die with a smile on my face!~ ^_^
I'm like a river in the wind, I'm always changing, always moving, always dancing, always singing, always free, for me there is always something wonderful in this life to smile about, I love everyone, I value freedom, I respect everything, and I advise you to make every moment count!~
Natural Human body with out clothing? beautiful~, sexual activities? awesome!~, sex with me?~ now hold on, that's not something I do casually to me sex is a very personal intimate thing with love, into Cosplay?~ sign me up!~, an alien or other such creature from another planet or other place?~ awesome and attractive!~, into romance things with happy endings?~ adorable~ I love that stuff, the only things not ok with me are extreme serious violence, intolerance, cruelty, and unwillingness to try new things.~
I’m basically a crazy mix of everything.~ I am kind, a wild animal, country man, mad scientist, etc..~ Cool and collected to hot and passionate~ Even I don’t know what will I turn into at a snap’s notice and I love it!~ ;) I practically gush when it comes to matters of love, am a spontaneous, fun-loving, strange, weird, gentle, kind, loving, and dreaming person.~
I love things with stains, stitches, and rips in them it makes them feel worn-in, used, and lived-in like they have a history!~
This all feels way to structured and sensible when I am anything but!~ I would rather strike up a random conversation then have no idea what to say next, than come off as structured and sane!~ o.O but then again it depends on my mood, I wrote this a while ago and now I'm looking back on it it seems so structured and stable!!~ so I'm going to add random little things in-between the paragraphs!~ ;p ^.^ Hi, I'm Mike but you can call me Bliss.~
My parents named me Christopher Michael Gallardo Jr. and I chose the name Starlight Bliss Rainbow.~ I believe you can respect the name your parents gave you, but when you get to a certain point in your life you can choose your own name like in many Native American cultures.~
I'm flighty in the literal sense, meaning I would be gliding if I had wings!~ ^.^, free-spirited, magical I really do believe in magic and find wonder in everything in life!~, very optimistic and positive, and am very sensitive/caring/loving though don't be fooled by my appearance I am one tough little nut (both mentally and physically).~ I love to play video games, dance, music, read, eat, and cook to!
I'm really creative at adding more and more chapters (paragraphs) to my online book (my profile) as you can see!~ ^.^
I am afraid some times to jump into any thing, but I do any ways as I am a crazy mix of cautious and reckless insanity! I love weird, fantastic, things! I love anime, cartoons, weird tv shows, and fantasy movies/shows/games.~
I follow my heart and listen to my feelings, so if I do something that doesn't make any sense it's because I'm following my feelings.~ :)
I will be your light.~
Some times I wake up and I'm sad and there's no reason that I know of behind it. Some times I don't even want to get out of bed. Some times I just break-down and cry in the shower for a long time.
Things that are usually fun no longer make me happy, I start to see there is no point to any thing anymore, there is no reason for any thing, if there's any thing I don't like about my current life that's all there is, I forget the joy of just being alive, I forget the wonders of this world, I forget I have a family that cares about me and loves me, I forget there are great and wonderful people in this world, I forget there are people here who are nice to me and who care about me.
As a teenager I tried to kill myself 3 times and each time I would have succeeded if the circumstances out of my control had been different. I am grateful that they weren't and I am alive today.
I don't want to kill myself any more, but there have been times when I've taken very risky odds such as eating Poison Oak.
I think that's why I am the way that I am now and that I chose the name Starlight: because I choose to be. I want to be the starlight in people's lives, I want to be their light that they can see in the darkness, I want to bring them hope, I want to show them how much joy they can feel by seeing all the joy and wonder in life, I want to encourage them to hope, to dream, and to imagine and that all their hopes and dreams can become true if they believe in themselves the way that I believe in them,
I want to show them that there is some one here who cares about them and that's me, I want to show them that they are never alone, I want to show them that even when every one else abandons you: I will never abandon you, I will never give up on you, I will never wash my hands of you, I will be there for you through it all, I will cry with you, I will hold you and tell you every thing's going to be all right, because I think at some point in every one's lives they need some one like that to be there for them and I want to be that person.
I think that people see me and they don't think about what it takes to be kind, loving, loyal, and caring. I think they might look at me and think, "This guy is so happy-go-lucky, nothing bothers him.", but they would be wrong.
I am Human: I laugh, I cry, and I bleed to. I am not always happy, I am not always sad, I am not always angry, I am different at different times. There's a price, a toll that being compassionate, caring, and giving my all to every one takes from me. I believe love is infinite, but Humans don't seem to be.
There are times when I don't want to give any more, I want to receive what I've been giving, I don't want to hate them, I don't want to love them, I don't want to pretend to be happy for them any more, I don't want to feel any thing for them any more, I don't want to care about them any more, I don't want to be any thing for them any more, I don't want to feel any thing any more.
I become sick and disgusted with Humanity. I see them as selfish, greedy, and cruel. I forget there are Humans out there who are not like that. They demand so much and they give so little. I long for the company of my family who love me and give to me unconditionally. I long for the company of non-Humans, because they are so simple: I give them and they give back: stroke a Cat gently and it will stroke you gently with its' body. I wonder why Humans won't be more like that, I know that they can be. But I know the reason why they're not, it's fear: they're afraid to be hurt, maybe because they've been hurt before. I know exactly how that feels.
I am thankful that these times do not last very long. I begin to remember what it feels like again to care for people and to be there for them. I remember the joy I feel for all and the wonder I find in all of this world.
For me, working to get money to buy things to live is not being independent.~ I believe strongly that being able to completely take care of myself is being truly independent.~ This is extremely important to me and being able to survive any where starting with just my completely naked self is my goal.~ I want this stronger base to start from and then work my way up to more advanced technology.~
Friends, Pets, and Children
I really want to create and raise children one day: the thought alone makes my heart swell with joy!~ ^_^ I just love children so much, because they tend to be honest and some of them don't mind hugging and will cling on to me like a small monkey and I love that!~ :) How ever, I want to be the kind of person that can go out into the wild with my bare hands and not just live but thrive before I become a father ideally.~
I don't believe in telling your kids what to believe, instead you let them find out what they believe, what they like, and how they want to live their lives.~ Instead you love them and you nurture them trying to guide them to teach them that all life has value that is determined by each person from the most giant of trees to the smallest of ants, the danger of some emotions like how they can some times be poison, that violence and hate often form into a never-ending cycle that benefits no one, and that bigotry and intolerance just hold us back from enjoying life!~ :)
I do not like it when people try to force their will on other people.~ To me all creatures are people and individually are persons.~ All is equal and has neither more nor less value or meaning, only the meaning or value you give, not "you" as a "Human being", but "you" as who ever and what ever you are.~
This is why I dislike how many people think of and treat "pets".~ Would I mind the idea of a creature coming to me and us developing a bond of friendship? No, I would not mind that.~ I treat my friends with respect, I do not put them in cages nor leashes, I do not place myself in a hierarchy above them under any circumstances, and any one may be my friend Human or otherwise.~
Precious children dancing in the fields of pixies through nurturing and love they may bloom like flowers, through neglect and forget they may turn sour, who can say who can be? The duality of everything in existence it not be. So simple as 'either' 'or', no, a tidal wave of life crescendos into a symphony of possibility.~ Possibilities beating into the veins of the heart of nature.~
Children can be protected and nurtured, but eventually all children, regardless of what kind of creature they are, grow up. All creatures, especially when they reach adulthood, may come and go as they please and make their own decisions, regardless of what kind of creature they are.~
As much as I love creatures like dogs and cats, I can not bring myself to "keep them" as adults as every part of me is screaming not to.~ I will raise creatures to adults, but I will raise them to be more independent of me as they get older until they are completely able to take care of themselves as adults as I believe this is what being a parent who truly cares about their child's happiness will do.~
I will never tell them where they can or can't go and I will never treat them like property without any rights of their own .~ For just because they are different than me, does not make me better than them.~ I think we could all learn a lesson from that.~
Labels, Sexuality, and Gender
I am me and I like what I like, if you want to know more about me then please ask. I do not place labels on anything. Whether you place labels on people or not, things will probably at times become complicated. I would prefer to learn about an individual and their preferences rather than to assume to know everything about them based on the labels they claim to be.
I'm not any label, my sexuality is purposely undefined.~ I find who someone is attractive as a whole, what ever characteristics they may have are unique beautiful details that I love and appreciate about them.~ ^_^
I don't believe in the concept of "gender", "sex" is some thing physical and there are more than just "two" sexes, my sex is male as far as I can tell and I am not sure if I can produce children as I have never tested it, but not all characteristics are exclusive to different sexes such as nipples that can produce milk in any sex.~ I treat people how they want to be treated and how I feel about them, regardless of any rules or expectations any society has for them.~
My sexual drive is very strong, I am a very physically in-tune person, and I can be sexually aroused by almost any thing (except for things like vomit, feces, cutting, killing, etc.), but I also will not be sexually intimate with some one without love because I do not "separate" parts of myself: every thing that I am and do is connected, I do not hold back, and I am always open to possibilities so no love, no sex.~ ^_^
Equality and Respect
Everything and everyone are completely equal and everything is diverse and beautiful in its' own way and before we decide on how to deal with others (whether they be of our own species or not) we could maybe consider things from their point of view.~
What I'm Attracted To
Let me get this straight: How old you are, how much you weigh, where you live, what language you speak, what other people think about you, what skin color you are, what species you are, or what you look like, what ever you are is ok with me. In fact, I find all these things fascinating. but what truly matters to me is the person, who and what you are are all a part of you I care for people because of all of who they are not just one part. Any aspects of a person I appreciate, love, and find beautiful, wonderful, and fascinating!~ ^_^
Love is free and it just happens.~ It's not "supposed to" "make sense" and "happen once you get to know each other enough".~ There is no "too soon" or logic to it, it just happens and it's crazy.~ Love is crazy.~
If you want to talk me, then go ahead any time.~ If you feel any thing, you can tell me about it.~ There is no 'wrong time' for me: truly any time any where in front of any one talk to me tell me how you're feeling pour your heart and soul out to me it's ok, I will wrap you in my arms if you want me to and love you forever even if we've just met.~ :) I'm not going to tell you to not be afraid, because it's OK to be afraid and to have emotion!~ Being afraid is often mixed together with excitement and both are a major part of life!~
I don't understand and comprehend Friendship as some thing to be maintained and in regular contact with. Do you ask the stream to stay to be your friend? Do you ask the wind not to dance away so that you may be friends? The stream and the wind may come and go as they please and I may or may not ever see them again but we will always be friends.
I believe love is infinite it can be shared with everyone and there are some people in love who want to share their lives together. Anything can happen at anytime, when it happens it happens I will respond to it when it does.~.~
I love everyone and everything in their own unique beautiful ways and everything is just beautiful and wonderful!~
What's wonderful about love is that it can be so terrifying and wonderful at the same time.~
I'm a very nurturing and caring person, I like to cuddle, hug, and am very touchy-feely. I love to hug trees!~ :D I'm a sensitive person, love bright colors, and everything groovey feeling weird.~ I believe in love and if you want to kiss me go ahead, but you better be prepared for the consequences!~ :)
Hearts on wings of serenades of love.~
Emotions are always involved with me, everything always means something. Every touch, every kiss, every spark, every caress, every breath, every look, every smell, every taste, every embrace is charged and filled with emotion, feeling, and love.~
I just look at it this way love is love, no love is the same it is that simple.~ To me love is something wonderful you feel, where you go from there is up to you. I believe you can begin to love someone at any moment even if you're not aware of it, even before, during, or after you've already met. I will love everyone, I don't think you need a reason to love and I am going to love everyone regardless of what they have done or what kind of person they are!
No matter what, no matter how many years go by, no matter how long we go without seeing each other, no matter what happens, once I love someone I will always love them and I will always have room for them in my life no matter what for I see no reason just because you love someone to keep from loving others.~
I will never be "your's" and you will never be "mine", we are not possessions, we always free to be as we choose, we decide our lives and what love means to us.~
Go out there and love.~ Listen, I want you to know that I will love you if I feel it and once I do I will love you forever no matter what: I don't believe in the concept of ex-lovers for me personally and I will always love you and welcome you back into my life if you want to, but please don't be afraid to go out there and love.
If you feel something for someone, go ahead and explore those feelings: just because you love someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving everyone else and it doesn't mean you're not allowed to love anyone else, for every love is different and no love is the same as any other love and no love is greater or lesser than any other love for love can not be measured and every love is beautiful, unique, and wonderful.~
They assume once someone loves someone they can’t love the other person it’s not even a possibility, but if you do away with that mindset then them all being together could be a real possibility.~
The idea of having no long-term goals is exciting to me, the unpredictability and wonderfulness of everything sounds awesomely adventurous.~ Keep in mind though, I can easily change any thing and nothing is a permanent plan.~ More like a spur of the moment whim.~ I could desire something in this moment, but I wouldn't mind if it never happened.~ I have no regrets, I am happy in this moment.~
This planet that we call Earth is a living breathing creature that we ride upon the back of, moving, growing, and changing. Size and consciousness is relative. Can you capture the wind in a bottle only for yourself? Can you steal the rays of the sun so that none but you may ever feel their warm caress? Can you stand like an ant on a dirt hill and claim that all you see before you is for you and for no others ever? Can you contain all the force of a river and declare yourself its' master?
Not for long. Wind will die in a bottle or escape, the rays of the sun will burn through, and water will only be delayed. Humans are the most amusing, like a child playing in the sand they create and shape everything their hearts desire and claim it as their own and no others' forever, only to see it crumble and slip in-between their fingers returning to what all once was.
I want to dance in forests!~ I want to taste the rain!~ Talk to plants, hug trees, kiss the air, I want to rip off all my clothes and run through the forests!~ I want to never wear shoes again, grow out all of my fur and claws and run on all fours!~ If you share my love for all of nature and passion for everything natural, then join me!~
Dancing along to the song of the forest and the beauty of life in the ocean of nature.~
I'm a peaceful person by nature. I love all things big, small, and even rocks and trees! I think of other animals as our equals, just as plants and rocks and everything are for everything has a soul, a heart, and is capable of having any thing else. Many if not all value freedom, and don't like to be caged, leashed or otherwise to do so is equal to slavery.~
I absolutely LOVE nature and everything about it! I could stare at a tree blowing in the wind with the sun shining on it for hours, or a pond of water that ripples with the sun creating fantastic lights and shapes for hours. I love to go camping.~
Me personally, I believe in the possibility of anything.~ I mean for that to be as vague and as exact sounding as it does.~ That anything can happen at any moment, and that the words: 'should' 'reality' 'sanity' and 'normal' are limiting in our ability to think of what could be possible.~
Things are only drugs if you make them drugs, something is not a drug in and of itself. If you come to rely and depend upon it and become addicted to it, THEN it becomes a drug. Anything can be a drug, even people.
Please don't do any thing to purposely damage and poison your own body, if you become a part of my life then it's only going to make me feel worse because I care about you.~ Smoking any thing cuts off oxygen to your brain suffocating your brain killing brain cells and the smoke you inhale travels to your lungs burning them damaging them.~
Alcohol is actually considered by your own body to be a poison and your body will try to clear it from your system: drinking alcohol trying to get a 'buzz' or 'drunk' or 'feel happy' is actually just you trying to drink alcohol faster than your body can heal itself from.~ Ironically in small amounts alcohol may actually benefit you, especially red wine with your heart health.~ However, alcohol can be highly addictive to many people and often there is a "slippery-slope" meaning if you start drinking small amounts before you know what you are doing you could be drinking dangerously large amounts.~
In too large amounts you are damaging your body with every drink of alcohol more than you are benefiting from it and eventually your liver will die from this.~ So please if you do drink alcohol, be careful and try to moderate yourself.~ I personally don't drink any alcohol at all, because I see no point in doing so.~ There are plenty of other ways to enjoy life than poisoning yourself and damaging your own body on purpose, please avoid doing these kinds of things to yourself.~
I'm a lovely, crazy romantic person who would love to run on the beach barefoot and lay about on the beach with sunlight streaming over us as we watch and listen to the waves crash on the shore.
I spend a lot of time daydreaming about love, romance, tingly, fuzzy, warm wonderful feelings-kind-of-moments, those sort of things!~
I also spend a lot of time daydreaming about all kinds of weird mind-blowing, beyond your imagination kind of things often with romance throw into them.~
Sometimes I just sit back and dream up a whole world where I live in just for a little bit~
I love to dance in the rain! I believe in not limiting ourselves, instead of asking why? ask why not?! I have a crazy imagination that I absolutely love, I love being crazy and unconventional. I can get along with pretty much everybody.
I'm a very friendly person and I will help you because I feel like it. I am very in tune with many things, I can see details and notice things more than many people, I can see colors more vibrantly than most people, I can sense emotions sometimes, and understand unspoken thoughts at times.~
My whole life I sometimes have dreams when I am sleeping and sometimes these dreams are visions that come true.~ As I grow my senses become stronger and I begin to dream more and more while I am awake while my visions still become true and stronger.~
Every day, I’m scared of everything and at times I'm also excited to. I’m afraid to take another step, to be me is interesting and at times annoying. When I get nervous I tend to imagine scary things all around me, it gets worse the more nervous I am. Sometimes I feel like if don’t do some things, horrible things will happen: like touch that fork one more time, or with one step I just might step into a world of horribleness that might be right in front of me, or open and close that mustard cap one more time.
When I’m really nervous my mind will imagine a bunch of horrible things at once and I sometimes feel overwhelmed because I some times forget that I have the power to make my own reality but usually I remember, I take in and out deep breaths, and I remember. I like it when I am calmer and I am working to be better and I am working on this to lead to more healthy and better ways to deal with stress.~ :)
My mind has given me many insights and ways to see all worlds that I love but my mind is filled with so many possibilities sometimes that it's hard for me to control and I can become overwhelmed sometimes.~
This might appear to be behavior some would say is close to OCD or Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, but many people don't seem to understand because they seem to don't WANT to understand.~
I like being an honest person much of time, I am capable of lying and I have lied before, but when I do lie I really don't like the feeling I get as a result.~ However not telling the truth is not lying, stating something and claiming that it is true when one is certain that it is not is lying.~ These are simply truths based off of the definitions of these words.~ I am not a person who manipulates people frequently and plays 'mind-games' or at least I do not think that I do.~
I am a direct person: if I sense in some way that someone is upset I ask what is bothering them, if something that seems obvious to me is happening even if no one is saying anything about it I speak about it, I confront problems, I ask questions, and I put the effort into trying to solve problems even if they are difficult.~
I say sometimes, "Apathy is the worst disease." or "I care." I don't like it when people say, "I don't care." or "It doesn't matter." I care and everything matters to me.~
Sarcasm and humor are interesting things to me, I enjoy them, but in a non harsh way.~ I don't like being harsh to someone and laughing about it: that is cruel to me.~ I don't always understand sarcasm or metaphors, but I am learning.~ I often let people know if I am joking or being sarcastic.~
I say what's on my mind, even it's something simple: like I'll say, "Hi!~" and wave to you even if you're right in front of me and if I like something about you I'll tell you in some way.~ Subtly is nice, but I don't think I often recognize when someone is using it and I much rather prefer to be direct and honest.~
I'm fluent in English as it was the language I was raised speaking.
I speak a little bit of Spanish as many of my family speak it and I grew up with people around me speaking it, but I don't know much of it except how to insult some one 10 times with different words. I took German in high school, but never finished the class.
I watch a lot of anime and some times I watch anime in its' original language of Japanese with English subtitles, so I learned some Japanese from doing that.~ I also play many video games and one series I love is Assassin's Creed, so I started picking up some Italian from Assassin's Creed II. I also learned Parkour from watching and playing Assassin's Creed I through Brotherhood as they use real motion captured animations for all the games!~ ^_^
In college I took two classes in French and Spanish, but learning languages formally is some times harder than learning it informally, especially if you've overworked yourself by choosing to take too many classes at once.~ XD
I hope to learn about many languages and cultures in the future!~ :D
I would rather ride a bicycle, walk, run, swim, climb, jump, sail, anything other than drive a car or anything that runs or uses gasoline, coal or anything that pollutes the environment, plus such things tend to be overly expensive!~
I like to recycle, I instinctively pick up litter whenever where-ever I go, and I love cloth and mesh shopping bags! I also love learning about anything and everything!
I LOVE HAIR. I have even done research on hair just for fun!~ ^_^ Did you know that hair can grow to your shoulders in about 2 years, your waist in 5 years, and I was thinking by that logic to your feet in 10 years!~ ^_^ Isn't it GREAT?!~ I hope to grow out all my fur from my head and face forming a 'mane' down to the floor in the future.~ I love everything about hair, hair is so fun and wild, beautiful, awesome, and natural!~ (This is one of the reasons I love that song “Hair” by the Cowsills (one of my favorite songs).)
I love everything HAIR, I LOVE HAIRY women, I LOVE HAIRY men, I LOVE HAIRY CHEWBACCA, I even LOVE AFROS!~ and YES I am hairy like Chewbacca like a Wookie, I am furry ALL over and it is BEAUTIFUL, I LOVE MYSELF, I AM AN AWESOME SEXY TAN HAIRY MAN!~ You might want to all try loving yourselves, it’s great!~
I admire that concept of a hippie that is always calm, peaceful, loving, wearing rose-tinted glasses, and flowers in their hair~
People I Like
I like people who are always open to all possibilities, are honest, love to laugh, never separate parts of themselves like their emotions, and don't believe in the concept of shame.~
I like how every person is unique and how they age is part of their uniqueness.~
You can find me on other websites all by the name of ColorsWolf or EnigmaWolf.~
See my blog on Tumblr for a much deeper look into myself visually, sound-wise, etc. all uncensored!~ You can find explosions of color there, awesome pictures of things I like, my own personally constructed musical playlists, intellectual musings, and much more!~ If you really want to get to know me more, then visit my Tumblr Blog.~ My OkCupid Profile is the 'book' about me and my Tumblr Blog is the living breathing look into my mind.~
ColorsWolf's Tumblr Blog
I'm on Polyamory.com, it's a free forum website all about talking about polyamory and related things. You can find more of my collection of pictures on there. Here's a link to my profile on there, but you have to be a member to see it, registration is free.~
ColorsWolf's Polyamory Profile
Here is my profile on Skyrim Nexus where I upload my game creation content for the computer game The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim. I'm known as EnigmaWolf on there as I have had the account for much longer than others, before I started using the name ColorsWolf, check it out if you're into that kind of thing:
EnigmaWolf's Skyrim Nexus Game Content Creator Profile