i moved here from little rock, ar. no particular reason - i'm just terribly indecisive & so when i finally had a decent opportunity to get the hell out of little rock i took it. unfortunately, i'm now in the middle of nowhere. i don't know how to live like this - driving past cows every day is creeping me out.

i don't know anyone in the charlotte area. at this point i'm desperately seeking local friends. not so desperate as to lower my standards but desperate enough to consider actually getting past my shyness and messaging some people on here.

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i don't often respond to people on here. and i feel badly sometimes, because some of you seem very interesting/appealing in some way. the trouble is that i tend to get no messages or many in the same period which is inevitably a time when i do not have the energy/interest necessary to sort through and respond. so general apology in advance (unless you've already sent me an unanswered message - then it's more of an after-the-fact apology): sorry i am not likely to respond to your message - it probably isn't personal. also, i have a tendency to be overly picky over the internet. if you are in some way imperfect for me (which i'm pretty sure EVERYONE is) then i'm likely to use this site to focus on those imperfections rather than the ways we might work. so yeah, basically i'm a failure at this site & you shouldn't waste your time any further.

wow. i'm harsh.

i am a totally commitment phobic person that wants to be in love.

since i dropped out of law school i really have no idea. trying to damage my son as little as possible.

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basically i'm desperately seeking employment & friendship. if you have either to offer i'd like to hear about it. unless you suck.

ok, so i'm employed, but miserably so. thus, i continue to seek employment.

standardized tests. (and that gets you far in life, let me tell you.)

i am the palest person alive.

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i've had people argue this with me (on this site & in real life) - here's the thing i have a lot of pink in my coloring (especially my face) which is sort of my saving grace. but see, without it, or if you like compare arm color alone, i beat everyone. everyone. yes, even you. many have challenged, and yet, i always pale in comparison.

BOOKS: everything by Vonnegut, Catch-22 -Heller, Anna Karenina -Tolstoy, DaVinci Code -Brown, Women -Bukowski, Operating Instructions -Lamott, and i am not sure about the rest- i don't read as much as i used to or as i'd like to and i mostly like or dislike books and rarely label favorites. have been really loving Somerset Maugham lately. But currently, I'm finally reading War and Peace.

MOVIES & MUSIC: i mostly don't pick favorites. i either like or dislike and have a hard time remembering names. ask and i'll tell you if i like it or not. (also - i mostly like.)

FOOD: i LOVE food. sweet, spicy, salty, savory, all of it. but i'm a bit picky - i eat birds but no cows or pigs or fish or rabbits or deer or sheep or anything cute. (i hate/have a fear of birds so i eat them.) also - i like my poptarts & popcorn slightly burnt.

friends. food. sex. internet. phone. sleep.

sex.

also, i spend a lot of time day dreaming about how this or that would make life so much better. i really hate that about myself. i spend much more time imagining how life could be better than actually proactively doing something to improve my life.

since moving - i do nothing. trying to change that. wanna hang out?

i'm not a very private person. ask and i'll (probably) answer.

you think we would get along.

DO NOT im or message me if you are looking for me to have cybersex with you or any such related thing. i do not want to talk dirty to strangers over the internet. i do not have a webcam and i do not want to see yours. thanks.