I censor myself selectively.

I'm a self proclaimed muse, writer, documentarist, video game lover, and artist. Aspirations in journalism with over 10 years experience, personal and professionally.

Emphasis in video games, pop culture entertainment, and well.. more.
Information Junkie of all types, not just digital, since 1982.

I'm the girl that sits at the kids table not just because I'm tiny enough to fit in there, but because frankly they're more of an interesting crowd most of the time. I'm almost never serious but always serious, seriously.

I am in love with 4 things...
Technology, art, the ocean, and the idea of a brilliant, talented, amazingly delectable man whom admittedly doesn't deserve my affections existing in somewhere beyond a fantasy.

but that's every girl's real dream right?

The hopeless romantic in me (two words often paired with reason)would like to say that I'm an all around good catch
[...But you'll never catch me]
I'm a classy dame who's very low maintenance, is someone you can not only bring out with the boys (and who can hold her own) but you can also bring home to mom without worry, a passionate and endearing lover, friend, and will take care with things that go pitter patter.

I'm just as dark as I am whimsical- the rabbit hole runs deep with shadow as well as light. Where the light is brightest, the shadow run deepest. I am extremely selective of whom I pull in with me.

I'm sweet and innocent and pure.. but no one seems to believe it.
Please do not make me puke a rainbow instantaneously. I will get bored and disappear just as quickly as a shooting star in the night sky.

I believe you're cuter when you don't try, which is why I'm just me. Brutal and honest. Take it or leave it.

I write too much and yet not enough.
I live to write and write to live.

I have been painstakingly honest about my life in my scrawlings and I've learned on more than one occasion that despite this warning it can be intimidating. I live a very real story of a little girl in a big city fighting for her dreams... I am openly a cliche. However I will be upfront that I am also very genuine and nitty gritty. Wear caution if you don't want to get your hands dirty. Part of the wonder of life is finding beauty in every imperfection as well as perfection. Trust me though, it will be worth it. The real destination is the journey itself.

"A few sentences on a page cannot possibly be enough justification to fully chronicle me. I am who I am. I don't chase magic because I am magic... and only the stars can come close to defining me."-Js.

When I'm not on the internet, or behind some sort of video game or other tech gadget, you will find me:
at coffee shops sipping on Chai,
dancing in the moonlight (hopefully on the beach with a tutu),
tapdancing while singing in the rain,
practicing yoga,
or off on some random adventure on my scooter with my notebook, a pen, and a camcorder... likely dreaming dreaming dreaming.. of a happily ever after.

and dats a me.. a Jena.

Reveling in the spaces in between. Living happily evers. Kissing frogs.. kissing princes & princesses.
Savoring every moment as if it were both my first and last.
And documenting it as much as I can (sans names), though not often enough.
Because life was meant for living.

Besides filling all these boxes in, crossing my t's and dotting my lower case j's, I find I'm pretty good (not just really good) at speulunking and purposely forgoing using spell check on random silly words that most people don't remember how to spell anyway.

I have a natural ability to play "the bartender" role. People tell me their secrets and I keep them under lock and key. When alcohol is involved this is even worse of course- though if you tell me you have some fetish with sexual perverse acts involving tennis rackets and/or you're not the crazy gypsy I occasionally have coffee with on Thursdays/don't live in West Hollywood-- I still won't likely tell anyone you know, but I may tell someone I know and lol at you.

For some reason, my mere existence can light up a room- scientists have actually installed chips in me in order to try and figure out as to why. (I think it's just so they can watch me shower)

In all seriousness, besides being able to essentially manufacture smiles,
As an artist, I'd like to think I'm really good at my writing and my photography- though I'm humble enough to know that there is always room for improvement.

I can hold a conversation for hours about anything and nothing provided I'm not the only one carrying the torch.

I'm incredibly perceptive and frequently find myself in interview mode. I will pay attention to the details and read between the lines. I'm an information junkie. I love to find out what makes people tick. I'll be your audience if you'll trade off with me.

I will be your muse if that is what you wish.

In a very monochrome reality I'm black and white yet full of color. I have a very eclectic sense of style. I think it carries over in most every avenue about me- from the figurative to the literal. The clash and mixmatch of old fashioned values with a modernist twist. I'm a full sensory experience.

Books: Lolita Catcher in the Rye Choke Invisible Monsters Anything by Poe and Vonnegut,
Detective Comics Batwoman Tank Girl Optic Nerve The Walking Dead JellyfistScott Pilgrim JTHM Lenore I prefer comic books on Indie labels rather than mainstream. I'm trying to ween myself into more mainstream books however. Batman over Superman any day.

Food:
Yakiniku , Indian, Sushi, Dim sum, Mongolian BBQ, (essentially all things Asian and exotic are great for me- while I admit I'm a picky eater to a degree I'm open to most new things with the exception of kimchee & pickled stuff and dorian ) Malasadas (if you know where you can find these in LA by all means please message me immediately), Cupcakes (I bake once a week at least now), Seafood, Tacos, Hawaiian plate lunches, and at the risk of sounding like an overweight glutton bacon- I had bacon wrapped scallops one night out too long ago (yakiniku) and it was simply... delectamable.

Movies:
High Fidelity, Spaceballs, Breakfast at Tiffanys, Heathers, Amélie,Evil Dead 2, Army of DarknessLife with Brian, Gattaca, Beginning of the End, Dr Horribles Sing Along Blog, Funny Face, Charade, Sabrina, Wargames, Young Frankenstein, Ferris Bueller's Day off, Real Genius, November, Dream for an Insomniac, Requiem for a Dream, A Pyromaniac's Love Story, Friday the 13th, (insert random B Horror Movie here), Unbreakable, The Fifth Element, The Italian Job, Resident Evil, Batman Returns, The Naked Gun Burton Films with the exception of Charlie & the Chocolate Factory (Im biased towards the original with Gene Wilder), Clockwork Orange The Birds & anything Hitchcock or Kubrick actually, Memento, The Butterfly Effect

TV:
Madmen It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia Monty Python's Flying Circus Police Squad Twin Peaks House Law & Order: SVU Robot Chicken Futurama Happy Tree Friends

Music:
Its all over the place. To get a little idea of what's on the other side of the looking glass you can check out this semi inaccurate sampling here: I have music on nearly constantly. I consider my tastes to be pretty well rounded but I aspire to be more of a music snob. Currently I'm on an indie lo-fi binge. Please share music with me even if it's bad... I want to hear all of it.

inspiration to create, passion/a goal to strive for, laughter, my camcorder, the ocean, & my scooter.

Update: I am currently sans both scooter and camcorder. It sucks but I'm learning I could actually do without these if need be. (I'm looking for new ones of both of course because... well I'm kind of an addict to them though;)

my scooter Postcards.Roller Derby. Comic Books. Writing. Audrey Hepburn Why my friends have referred to me as a modern day Holly Golightly/Audrey numerous times.
San Diego.The ocean. Technology The future. Dancing.
Converting my scooter into an even nerdier radder 2.0 version & giggling about it deviously.
Fashion. Where the next random adventure will take me. Travel (and really why I keep turning down the ability to do it in lieu of being responsible.) Great music. How to get to my dream career. The seemingly never ending #GTD. Friends. 3 very important little people. Pastries. Video games. Getting my books published. The litany of books I want to read. Finishing writing my books. Pinup fashions. Motorcycles
Etcetera etcetera. And all the spaces in between.

im so happy its finally baseball season again.

& the love of my life- my nerd motorbike...
Shadow

In a nutshell, I spend a lot of time thinking about things to think about.

I don't have a general routine any night, let alone on a Friday night. My calendar is generally open until nearly the day of- unless it requires travel; and even then, it's rarely planned too far in advance. My nights vary from outings with friends, travel, concerts, video games and.. well quite a bit more. I am fortunate to live pretty vicariously- but am just as responsible as I am irresponsible. Crazy huh?

I'm the most public private person you will likely ever meet. Sometimes what you read isn't what you think- others, it's exactly what you think. I censor myself selectively and am a bit of a wordsmith. I'm not vague, I'm claustrophobic.

*You feel you can dazzle me.
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*You enjoyed what you read in this long winded self summary yet feel compelled to know more.
*You are a positive and optimistic person. You don't have to be super successful career wise, but you have to be happy, have goals, ambitions, and passions.

*You're looking for someone awesome to hang out with in Los Angeles (and occasionally random trips to San Diego)- museums, roller derby, art galleries, burlesque shows, dancing (not clubs), hiking, concerts, musicals, fooding, etc.

*You are intellectually stimulating and can hold your end of the conversation. (Being attractive outwardly means little to nothing with me if you can't keep up with me on charm and rapier wit.) Bonus points if you are also capable of being content with moments of silence & you are an effective nonverbal communicator.

*You're spontaneous and creative.

*You can correctly refer to me as my real first name (this is a test.)

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*You are not older than 35 (unless you are John Cusack at which point you are encouraged to message me all you like), married (again, Mr Cusack...), or a couple looking for a 3rd party. I know what I want and what I don't. No amount of winking or coaxing is going to change my mind on this, so please do not bother.
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*You do not write in CAPS AND THINK DIZ IS DA WAY TO PROPERLY TALK.
*You know where Jimmy Hoffa is and/or have a quirky story to where he may be... bonus points if it involves zombies, aliens, a kitchen sink, a sewer, the Ninja Turtles, the cloning of rabid badgers and any of the above combined but not anything I had listed.
*You want to ride bikes together, know some awesome places to ride around, and/or are a mechanic or otherwise want to show me something rad about my bike.
*You want to show me some really great music/movies/book quotes/books/art/ etc.
*You have no expectations and just want to let things happen.
*You are not only after sex.
*You are not going to crucify me for every belief I have, question my judgment, and know how to properly treat someone with common respect and decency. (This *should* be a no brainer, however it seems mythological sometimes.)
*You want to tell me about your crazy shenanigans- I swear I won't tell anyone... you know at least.

and preferably
You are one of the following:

Fellow insomniacs. Artists. Muses. People to inspire. HIL-AR-IOUS people. Hot chefs to cook for me (pstt--I'll bake). People that can hold a conversation for hours. Hot girls with substance. Hot guys with substance. Spontaneous people. People who love to travel. People that hate to travel and/or want to donate their air miles ^_~Someone to hold me but not hold me down. Someone to dance with on a crowded sidewalk in broad daylight. Gritty genuine people.
People who dare to be themselves. Walking contradictions. Slaves to fashion. Slaves to passion. People who live every experience as if it were an adventure. People that can make me laugh.. make me think... people that push my limits.

So if you want to go on an artistic adventure.. can get consumed by words and find oasis in the ocean and caffeine... if you want to have some fun getting lost on purpose.
Please...message me.