Cyndiana
33 Tyler, TX
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My self-summary
I am a 32 y/o woman from Tyler, Texas, USA.

I am a Christian, but have had great friendships with wiccans, atheists, and even a satanist or two...

My passion, however, is music, and my favorite band used to be Rammstein. This changed, however, when they decided their American fans weren't good enough. Fuckers. >_>

Other passions are gay cinema, gay culture in general, horror movies, writing, and food/cooking.

I am clever, flabulous, and insane
What I’m doing with my life
Trying to learn how to write a screenplay and working on a childrens' book. I'm also a karaoke diva!
I’m really good at
Writing. It's the only thing I've ever had a talent for, and it comes ridiculously easy to me. So much so, it took close friends YEARS to convince me I was any good at it. *blush*. I'm no Anne Rice or Mary Higgins Clark, but I'm pretty good. :P
The first things people usually notice about me
I'm fat. It's true! That's usually what decides for me who is or is not a good person to get involved with. If they can see past my size, and get to know me, they're ok in my book.

After that, they tend to notice my sense of humor. They either like it, or hate it. Most people like it, thankfully. :P

Then, people soon notice how deeply devoted and caring I can be. I am very empathic and my friends and loved ones are very, very dear to me.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
Books:


"Vampires in America Today" Katherine Ramsland,

"Beauty's Release" Anne Rice (under some weird penname I can't spell).

"Perfume" Patrick Süskind


Movies (Got all day?):



Hard Candy

Velvet Goldmine

A Clockwork Orange

Hedwig and the Angry Inch

Rocky Horror Picture Show

Jeffery

The Wedding Banquet

Love! Valor! Compassion!

Run, Lola, Run

Team America, World Police

Torch Song Trilogy

The Birdcage

House of 1000 Corpses

The Devil's Rejects

All of the Austin Powers movies.


Music:


System of a Down

Green Day

Turmion Katilot

Leningrad

Ilya (or San Ilya, depending on who you talk to)

Adam Joseph

Tom Goss

Johnny Dangerous

God-Des and She

The Cliks

Lady Gaga

Placebo

the Beatles


Foods:


Mexican

Italian

Barbeque

(And I'll try almost anything...I've very culinarily experimental)

The six things I could never do without
1. My friends

2. My computer

3. Cable (high speed) internet

4. Beloved pets.

5. Good, gory horror movies

6. And, of course, LOVE!
I spend a lot of time thinking about
Love...I'm a heartsick, lonely romantic. I still cling to the hope that my someone is out there, dreaming of me as I'm dreaming of them.


Sappy, I know, but that's me.

On a typical Friday night I am
Singing karaoke at the 11th Frame Club at Green Acres Bowling Alley.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
There is not enough space in this text window...I'm a very open person, so if you want to know it, ask it. I'd rather let someone know up front what they're getting into with me than to play coy and keep the freaky shit to myself, and spring it on them when they least expect it. :P

Also, I am extremely old-fashioned when it comes to love and relationships. I don't believe in having sex with someone I do not love and who I'm not sure loves me. On the downside, this ensures many lonely Friday nights :/ ...on the upside, this means that whenever I do end up with someone it will be meaningful. ^^

I am also bi-polar and suffer from social anxiety disorder. Fear not, I am on medication and am perfectly fine, but it is a part of who I am. Because of both disorders I am on Social Security disability. I know some people can't deal with all that, but the person I am looking for will love me regardless.
You should message me if
You think I'd be interesting to talk to. You should NOT message me if you only want cyber sex. I grew out of cyber sex once I started having REAL sex...And I figure others are like minded, so if you're hustling me for cyber, you must not be able to get the real thing...In which case, I feel for you.

You also should NOT message me if it's just to tell me how fat, pathetic and/or ugly I am. I get it...you're shallow. You have no life and feel better about yourself by putting others down. It's ok, it doesn't make you a loser...ok, yes it does, but only a loser with a little l, not a big L...You'll be fine.

I want someone to converse with, someone I can get to know and who wants to get to know me...if you don't want the same thing, fuck-off-thank-you-very-much.

I am looking for a serious, committed, MONOGAMOUS relationship...not a one-night stand, not a "friend with benefits". I can get either of those quite easily. I want someone to care about and who will care about me. If you aren't potentially looking for the same thing, please look elsewhere.
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