I give my time to everyone. I don't care if you're 0 or 101. I don't care how you look, what you have or what you wear. If you're a good person, I'll give you my time. I like meeting new people. That's how I learn. If you meet me you'll probably like me. I have this ability to get along with nearly everyone.
At the same time, there's a good chance you won't like me until you get to know me. I don't give a shit what you think of me and therefore, I'm always the same sarcastic person. If you don't get my sarcasm or dry humor, I'm going to come off as rude and arrogant. Oh well.
I could sit here and type for hours, trying to explain my likes and my dislikes, but for good or bad, you still wouldn't know who I am. My favorite materialistic possessions will let you into a piece of my life, but what makes me 'me' is all in my head. That's just how I am. Fortunately or unfortunately, depending on how you look at it. I let very, very few people ride the rollercoaster that is my mind. For some reason that scares me. If you know me, then I'm open. If I'm open, I'm vulnerable. When all of those roads meet, it all comes out at one place. That place is called insecurity.
Trust. I can't say that I trust no one because that's not true. I definitely don't trust easily either. I'm different with every person. Some people I trust with time, and others I trust at day 1 until you shatter it. I don't bestow my trust in enough people for this to even be an issue. If I can't do something, I don't trust you enough to do it for me so I just hold it in until I can. You can tell me anything and I will take it to my grave. I don't care if the world trusts me, or if 1 person trusts me. I know I'm trustworthy, and that's all I need.
What you see is what you get. I'm the most honest person you'll ever meet. I'm not big on telling people what they want to hear just for the sake of looking good or making friends. I have plenty of friends so I've obviously done something right in my life. To be honest, my friends aren't a huge part of my life. For one reason or another, I don't make the effort to build friendships with anyone. If you make the effort, then we'll be fine. I don't depend on friendships to get through life. I have somewhat of trust issues. I've been screwed over a few times but that isn't why I have those issues. I'm not sure what it is yet. There's a lot of things I do, and feel, that I don't have answers to yet. I have a lot of growing to do yet, and I'm man enough to admit it.
I happen to believe you must build a friendship before a relationship. If you take the time to establish a friendship, your relationship will end up much stronger in my opinion. Sure you might want to toss a label on, but sometimes it's better to just wait it out (after all they do say good things come to those who wait). I never understood how people can instantly jump into a relationship, and almost instantaneously tell each other they love each other. That isn't love. I for one prefer to not say such a thing until I actually feel that way in my heart, and I prefer it to be the same in return. I don't think most people understand the difference between, lust, infatuation, and love now a days. That to me is pretty disappointing.
Now to the quick, my Ultimate Girl/Soulmate/Partner/Witness for the Defense would be:
-Great Kisser (speaks volumes)
-Can have a intellectual conversation at least once in a while, after all looks fade. Stupid is forever unfortunately.
-Not friends with every single ex you ever had
-Enjoys laughing and can take a joke
-Isn't afraid to be herself
-Doesn't take life too seriously, but knows when to be serious
-Can be a lady on the streets, and a freak in the sheets :)
-Understands the necessity behind always having "More Cowbell"
-Eyes that can't hide a smile