Chapter 1 A Fight for Survival
I was born with a birth defect called Spinabifida. This means that my backbone did not fully form. Since my backbone was not formed my spinal cord was in a small bubble at the base of my back. Some of my nerves never "fired" correctly and left me with some different disabilities all of them are physical not mental. These do not slow me down in anyway and I refuse to have pity or anyone feeling sorry for me in my life. Needless to say the first part of my life was a difficult time but I survived.
Chapter 2 Bullied and How I Survived
Yes growing up in school was a struggle every single day of my life. I was bullied, I was kicked around, and made fun of from the very first day. When I reached High School in didn't get better in fact it only got worse. During this time in my life I contemplated suicide almost on a daily basis. However...I survived.
Chapter 3 Discovery..The Female.
WOW. Yes that about sums up that discovery. I had a difficult time with females at first. Of course with my disability I had to find the right woman. Once I settled into my type and what I thought I wanted things got easier. I was a teenager and full of "life" and I took advantage of every chance I got at "life" at it was the most fun I have had in my life.
Chapter 4 Adulthood and After School
I never went to college as I had family issues at home that I had to take care of. I dropped out of school and received my GED so that I could work full time to help my father around the house. School wasn't as important as work was so that's what I did. I have absolutely no regrets about how things played out during this time. I have confidence in myself that I am of average intelligence even though some would say I am more intelligent than I let on. I became more "street" smart than "book" smart. Of course this was also the time I was in search of that one woman that I could be with that would balance me out and keep me sane. I did not find her at this point in my life.
Chapter 5 I Found Her....Tragedy...Rock Bottom
I met a wonderful woman online from the south. Growing up in the Northeast to say we had different ideas on life would be an understatement. We did not agree on anything at all and fought constantly. There was something about her that kept me around for 6 years. She balanced me out. I was unable to see how much I loved her. In early 2012 my mother that I had not seen in over a year called me to let me know that she had ALS. My father at the time was also battling Liver Cancer. In late August I got the call that my mother had passed. IT took a few weeks to setup all the arrangements for her burial in MA as she passed while living here in FL. So the day after I went to my mothers funeral I was told that my father had 3-6 weeks to live. He passed away in late Oct. I can honestly say I do not remember much for the next year or so. I know my girl was with me and kept me alive and stopped me from doing something to myself on more than one occasion. By 2014 I was at rock bottom and she couldn't handle my depression and abuse any longer. This was my rock bottom
Chapter 6 A New Days has Come
By late 2014/early 2015 I decided to pack up and move to FL to live with the only close family I had left. My brother took me in and has allowed me the ability to get my feet under me. He has given me the ability to have a car and a roof over my head. My brother and I are very close and he understands what I need. So I am looking for a job down here and really besides my brother I know no one. I love to watch Patriots Football and hit the RC-Car track with my brother and just have a great time laughing and racing.
This is the chapter of my life that I am currently on. I am hoping to fill it with fun and happy times. I hope to find a wealth of friends and if I get lucky enough the one true woman that can find my soul. Maybe this has scared most of you away but for those that have struggled on and found the end of my story I truly hope you will drop me a line and just say hi if nothing else.
Hope you liked my little story. Now would you like to be in the next chapter??