*****UPDATE Dated December 28******
I have finally reached that turning point in my life and I am proud to say that I'll be leaving LA within a couple months for Berlin to continue my passion. I am keeping my profile for now. I am not looking for a long term relationship.
♫ Straightedge, well-travelled, well-educated, and creative gentleman with a smattering of tortured artist and organic, natural living farmboy thrown in.
Studied at the prestigious University of Southern California, earning a degree in irrelevant, overpriced, academic bullsh** hahaha. Intellectualism can be fun and even sexy, but it won't improve the quality of your life if you can't enjoy the stillness of mind and fullness of heart that comes from watching the dark, tangled silhouettes of barren trees against the pale orange-blue sky of a crisp winter dusk. But, as far as intellectual discussions are concerned, my fave topics include: social behavior, ethics, advertising, cultural trends, patterns, psychology, language+culture, political science, economics, gender studies, anthropology, FOOD, design, subculture, blah blah, it's all good.
I was brought up as a disciple on an Eastern spiritual path. Deepening the spiritual component of life is very important to me. I meditate daily. Will I go to yoga with you? Anytime! I'm neither a bible-thumping judgemental nor a starry-eyed, spineless, tempeh munching pushover. I enjoy finding where different paths share common ground.
I have no shame when it comes to traditionally "girly" activities - crafting, gardening, tea rooms, color combining, food presentation (big time), patterns, fabrics, romance. But am I tougher than you physically and emotionally? Yes. I can draw a line anywhere, any time, for the sake of love. I will dispose of any insect in a 25 yard radius of you. Fuck, I will kill anyone that looks at you funny (that was a joke). I can fix a toilet, install anything, change the oil, run a tractor, have someone arrested, shovel manure, siphon gas, etc. You ain't gotta worry 'bout a thang, darlin' (insert spit sound here).
Annnnnnnd nobody is without their issues. But, I am lucky enough to be aware of them and able to clearly usher my partner through the thickets (cool, right?).
• I grew up with an alcoholic and eventually absent father, so I tend to expect a lot of myself and am still learning how to let others' praise actually sink in and not be disbelieved at the deepest level.
• Even though I can communicate about my emotions skillfully, before such communication takes place I tend to go inward and isolate when I need help or support, not wanting to "inconvenience" anybody. I feel like if I'm not doing things perfectly then I should be ashamed.
• I am an excellent conversationalist - except when in front of an attractive girl for the first time - I get a little self-conscious and kinda jealous of those alcohol-breathy frat boys who just don't give a f^&*. Hahah.