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Mar 20, 2006
6′ 3″ (1.91m)
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Catholicism, and very serious about it
Aquarius, and it’s fun to think about
Working on two-year college
Less than $20,000
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Has dogs and dislikes cats
English (Fluently), Spanish (Poorly)

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My self-summary
Theorem #1

As Descartes once stated, "I think, therefore I am."

I am the sum total of my parts.

I exist because I will it.

If I wish to cease this world, I can.

Mankind has a hole in it's being. A lack of sustenance.

This is evidenced by the constant need for fufillment and need for more, Greed, Lust, Jealousy, Politics(just kidding), etc.

Man fears the lack in himself.

This is evidenced by the Phobias that many have, such as the fears of abandonment, losing money/power, faliure, rejection and the dark.

The Datk is included in this list because darkness, nearly always, represents chaos and nothingness.

Why do we wish to exist?

To be.

To be happy.

These needs are wired into our being.

One cannot know if he is, or if he is happy, if he cannot define himself.

He will try to determine his identity based on worth.

We are made to run away from the pain, both from within and without.

Running, in creating distance between two things (namely the one running and his feelings) only creates more void, more lack.

Hence more pain.

Man looks for self-value to fill this void.

They fulfill this value in the perception of others.

Man is inclined to alienate others and use them to provide himself with a perceived value.

This is the source of instrumentality.

Instrumentality is the use of others as objects and tools rather than prople with the same struggles within their own hearts.

This can be shown by a simple thought experiment:

Imagine yourself, you like yourself to some extent becaouse you haven't killed yourself yet. You care about yourself to the point that you will work to make yourself happy.

now, Imagine your best friend or your family. If given a choice between guarenteeing your own pleasure or possibly providing them with a fleeting plesure, would you work and sacrifice for the possibility of their well being?

Next, imagine all of your friends, would you do the same?

Your Company?




Usually, the abilty of even comprehending who you might be helping and how ends with the first person outside yourself.

Man attempts to instrumentailise others preceptions of himself to provide himself with value.

Man's life then loses all purpose but to fulfill these perceptions of himself.

Inevitably, due to the voids and insrumentality in others, he will be hated and taken advantage of in the same and different ways.

Making him hate himself.

They then throw themselves into the one service that they use to receive value from others, wether it be leadership, military service, fatherhood, good employee-ness, etc.

Man then loses all self-value in the obsession with their service, believing that the only thing that gives him worth is the ability to preform this service.

Nearly every service-er can be replaced by nearly anyone else, and there is always someone better at it than that one already finding worth in this service.

They then lose what value they have in the search for more.

This causes further void.

Man then tries to fill this void with others, despite their fear of pain.

This attempt to attract others' attention to gain value is impossible.

Others will inevitably reduce one to an instrument to add to their own value.

Theorem #2

One is what they will it.

If one truly wishes to be stronger, faster or better, he will work at it.

He will train, he will make himself stronger or smarter or whatever it may be.

However, one is defined by the identifiers within and around this one.

These are the objects that are added to the sum total of one's self.

No one can understand others, or understand himself until they learn the objectivity of the world.

In a world with no bounds, in perfect subjectivity, only one can exist.

All others would be the will-puppets and creations/imaginings of the one observing.

Subjectivity would define nothing beyond what the one existent would will.

Because of the inherent void, the indecision of what is, what the one existents value and will may be, will cause the one existant to be unable to create anything.

In this void, the existent one will see that if they are the only existent one, They, and their sum total of created nothingness is nothing.

Their worth would be null and void.

In a purely subjective world, if the one existant had no self-worth, he would cease to exist.

Therefore, others must exist in order to perceive the sum of all the one's parts, so as to give the one existent self-worth.

The one existent must have others to perceive the parts that compose the sum of the one.

These Preceiving ones, if they were just the creations or imaginings of the one existant, he would know and in that case there would be no increase in self-worth.

In a purely subjective world, the one existent would inevitably see that their worth is null.

Then, this one would cease to exist.

Theorem #3

Since one must exist to witness this writing, they must exist.

The one who finds worth in a certain service must exist outside of one's self.

There must be others existent to perceive their sum total, their worth.

Hence the objective reality that is.

If many people exist separate in preception from the one existant, they must have their own set of preceptions and therefore beliefs.

However, between conflicting beliefs, there must be a correct one and a flawed one, due to the law of noncontradiction.

If one must be correct, and the other flawed, then there must be a way to measure them against an objective meter.

This presents the fact that the reality that they perceive is a part of a larger Truth.

The perceptions of any are the subjective realities that are constructed as a revision of the Truth.

This is evidenced by the different and conflicting generated perspectives of the ones existent.

The current self holds a perspective that may change.

Creating many subjective truths in one's mind.

For example, sunny days may make one feel good.

While rainy days make one feel gloomy.

If they are told, or decide that it is so, than it is.

Yet, the one can have fun on a rainy day, and a bad day that is sunny.

These personal subjective truths and beliefs are just that fragile.

These truths generate a sum total within the existents mind.

This sum total gives a certain worth of knowledge and being.

This personal worth that may be generated is as fragile as the decisions concerning the weather.

These subjective perceptions can change, and in doing so, change one's self-worth.

One can only see with the perspectives that one chooses to see through.

This can turn their eyes away from the objective truths that are.

Then, they find themselves stuck within the quandary of subjectiveness found in theorem #2.

One becomes accustomed to their perceptions of the truth, and the fact of accustomablity become part of their subjective reality.

They then create a revised reality within their own minds to protect their fragile ego.

This causes their realities to be distorted through the tiny lens that they choose to see the truth through.

Becoming so close-minded to protect their preceptions from contradiction in teir own mind.

One must judge based on the observed truths of one's self and the perceived truths of the others existent.

Theorem #4

This Truth is so simple that many overlook it in search of deeper truths.

By overlooking the fact that one needs to be open minded only after they secure a base belief that is logically formed, they become lost in others' preceptions.

In doing so they become lost in a sea of subjective truths that leave the one in the quandary from theorem #2.

Most are unaccustomed to being truly loved by others, due to the void and instrumentality in others.

The one would never learn to feel how others feel, and how to love in return.

And so, one is forced to hate the others around themselves, so as to prevent the perceived sum of their parts to be detracted from by receiving the negative perceptions of others.

In hating others, one presents a negative persona which has the effect of reducing others' preception the hater's own value, causing more self-hatred due to the void.

In hating one's self, no others can do anything but to hate the one, in their own defense from his own negative perceptions.

There are many attributes that many chose to focus on about one's self.

Usually, due to their self-hatred, they focus on the bad attributes.

However, this one's worth is determined by the sum, not just a piece of the whole.

The sum has many parts.

If one can come to love themselves, by focusing on the good attributes, and removing the bad attributes.

They could increase the value of themselves, making them able to exist, and to bring others to these truths.

However, in coming to love themselves, they will even more adamantly avoid pain.

This will lead them to still fear others, so as to defend their perceived worth.

Theorem #5

All things are the sum total of it's parts.

All things that act as identifiers of myself are part of my sum.

Therefore, things that I create are a part of my sum.

The same must hold true to the others that exist, whether they choose to perceive it or not.

Therefore, others are judged, in part, by their creations.

The arts are one way of creating. So are the sciences.

Larger concepts, such as humankind could be measured on this premise.

The sum total of all of humanities being is it's worth.

It is near impossible to calculate this worth, for the human race is full of differing perceptions of the whole organism.

In addition, non-living things can be valued based on their sum total.

As an example, a banana is composed of three parts; stem, peel and meat.

These three parts make that which is called a banana.

The meat contains a particular amount of chemicals and other nutrients that are beneficial to the human body.

This makes the banana good to a human.

The banana was grown off of a tree.

That tree, in creating the banana, has increased its sum total, and hence, it's value to the humans.

The tree was grown from another banana, probably by the hand of a human.

Both the father tree and the human have gained value through this act.

Theorem #6

All the parts of perceived realty form a web, ever moving back across time.

Even humankind can be viewed in this web, a sort of family tree.

Many things may be created by one father-thing.

Moving backwards in time, one sees that eventually, logically, due to the exponential growth of the creations in the universe, traveling back in time would lead to a set of each creating thing.

These all lead back to an inevitable beginning.

This beginning, being the sum of all it's created good, and its minuscule bad creations, would be very near perfect in our eyes.

However, due to our limited perceptions, we could not see all the parts that would lead to the sum of creation.

If we take all the created things, and sum our perceptions of them, we would have a near (if not) perfect value.

Following the recurrent creations that led to the ancestors of all things, something must have created these ancestors

This would be God.

This God would be defined as a self-made maker.

This God would have all the near-perfectness, or arguably prefectedness of the universe added to his value.

He would also have his own perspectives, and his own self-value.

The sum parts of this self-made maker would be perfect.

However, this would lead to yet another quandary like that of Theorem #2, seeing as how nearly every religeon that believes that Man is the image of God, then God would possibly have this flaw of personal void, causing the nothingness in theorem #2.

Therefore, for this conclusion to work properly, God would be the prefected image of the created man, removing the void, making the one Existant able to be without being precieved.

In not needing the preceptions of the created in order to exsist, this maker could create Man with free will and not fear being rendered null by their possible rebellion.

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