So this is not the transcript - which the above is - but it went 

Random Turkish guy; Hello

Me: Hello

RT: How are yo u?

Me: Fine thanks, how are you?

RT: I am interested in your profle

Me: Really? What interests you?

RT: Your hobbies

Me: which ones?

RT:I will like what you like...

I am not sure whether I am just suffering tonight from sort of cynicism overload or whether there is some sort of hidden magnet on my profile...

Random Tunisian (RT) hello

(random british girl=me) hello

RT how are you

me I'm fine thanks - but getting over an ex (-;

RT  getting over an ex i dont understand you

me Did you write these words??

RT i dont understand you what you mean

(Copied from his profile) You should not message me if you're trying to get over an ex, you don't know what you're looking for, or only found my profile because you're searching for guys over 6' tall

me This is what your profile says about you; if you don't know what you wrote in your own profile that is a little worrying

RT  ah ok

RT  no way

RT  i look for a single women only

me so you did write your own profile?

RT  ok i am soory i will change my profile

RT  :)

me Mmmm. looks a lot like you didn't really write it..

RT Mmmmmmmm maybe

:)

I have this feeling of total dislocation at the moment; like I'm living the wrong life. I've resolved to quit my job - which to one side of my brain feels like utter madness in a recession, and to another side, like a desperately needed freedom from commuting and beaurocratic nonsense and the start of a new adventure.

I've decided to spend my house deposit on six months travelling followed by a year back at university. What I'm having real difficulty deciding is what to study, and where. My gut instinct is to do what I've always wanted to: Philosophy, but there are courses in renewable energy, sustainable communities, and these would tag onto my existing career much better. But since I hate my career, I'm not sure that's a good idea..I'd love to live in another country studying, but again, can't decide which.

Maybe I'll ask the Magic 8 ball.

I picked up my first hitcher this evening on my way back from work and thoroughly enjoyed chatting to him for an hour. I drove past him to start with and then felt guilty, seen as I was going most of the way he had on his sign, and he looked like a nice chap. So I turned round and went back and got him. Then, sucker that I am, drove him all the way and was late home. The advantage of being late home was I got out of going running with my sister (-: 

Only down side was he smelled of old straw. 

Am thinking about hitching to Edinburgh myself to have a mini-adventure. 

So today I feel like a really need a hug, but that isn't an option due to recent events, so I thought maybe a biscuit (cookie to those americans out there) would do instead - but alas the biscuit jar was empty. So today seems to be about disappointment. And perhaps about planning the shopping better so that there are always emergency biscuits. I am still trying to come to terms with how I feel about being not engaged anymore, and indeed single, again. Mostly I just feel very sad, as I thought I had found Mr Right and was never going to have to look again. But there is a little relief in there as well. I sometimes worried about whether I could really love him for the next....years. And that we had nothing in common, and whether that would become important at some stage. And that our parents would meet at a wedding reception, and equally have nothing at all in common. And now I wonder if there ever really is someone who will be right, or if there are just people throughout our lives who are important for a time? Answers on a postcard.