As I review this last year, I'm really tickled with this video i made. I have lost about 30 lbs since I made this. My baby brother shared his family with me. This really speaks to who I am today: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pTMI7N5l6vM&list=UUnZm_Kz_a7b1gD8p9RSTHdQ
Also, be warned, I still like sex. As I take better care of myself (diet and exercise) I find my libido is in a powerful cycle. I like this about me. I grew up in a home where I was convinced that there was something wrong with me for feeling this way. I've made peace with those demons.
The universe sent me an Angel once. She spoke the truth about herself in an uncompromising manner.
It came time for her to leave. She invited me to join her. I provided a long list of plausible reasons as to why I couldn't. Today I know the real reason. I didn't have the courage or reason to be rigorously honest. When I'm afraid today, I tell on it. Not always immediately but I always get around to it.
My Angel cried gently when she left without me.
I am reborn into the spirit of love when my pride and ego die.
After some time passed and I had a new understanding, I got in touch with her. She cried again but these were different tears. We stay in touch. She is with a wonderful man. I will love her forever.
I turned 62 last November. In the months that proceeded my birthday every morning was the same. The inner critic was always reminding me that my life just didn't seem to measure up. It was a depressing period for me.
In the last 6 months the universe has sent me many reminders that the only real problem I have centers itself between my own ears.
My Bibles of recent have been "The Power of Now" and "A New Earth" both by Eckhart Tolle.
This year has been different. I've been making conscious and deliberate choices to do things differently. It's working.
I know that my solution always begins with the truth. I get real about how I feel. Once I've spoken it or put it on paper, it looks different. It looks more like a new beginning rather than an affirmation of something negative.
I'm in the process of re-inventing myself for the 3rd time in my life. Does that mean I'm poor? Yes, by some standards I am. I frequently find solace in the notion that "it's more about the journey than the destination. Some days this is easier to embrace than other days. I still have have a significant attachment to my "own opinion".
I don't generally appear in videos that I produce but I recently started a new series that I feel very strongly about. It communicates who I am a lot better than the typewritten word. If you'd like to watch it,
Reflecting on those I've spent significant time with, past history tends to favor uninhibited outdoorsy women with robust, warm, gregarious personalities. Passionate, inspired people move me. What I see in your eyes speaks volumes to me. Unsolicited honesty, patience, and warmth are traits that I admire and
reflect back. I enjoy people who are highly communicative but not overbearing, **emotionally accessible** but not whimpy whiners, **genuine**, introspective but not lost in thought, outgoing, spontaneous yet responsible; and, since I'm
always on the "go", I tend to gravitate towards those who can keep up with me.
I make a living as a photographer, graphic artist, video and motion graphic editor. I love what I do. This season
I'll also photograph half a dozen weddings.
I winter in the SF Bay Area where my focus is on web-based commercials. I find the work extremely satisfying and rewarding.
These are my other venues:
http://myweddingpix.com/ MyWeddingPix.Com "Photography, Video & Digital
"Web-Based Commercials, Motion Graphics & Web Design"
GoGoldCountry.Com "Gold Country Events & Info."
http://soberrun.com/ SoberRun.Com "A Place to