My Name Now...
"My name now is Tydyn Rain St. Clair, a name I quite like, but that does not hint at the multidimensional complexity of my being, invisible to the objective eye.
I live my life driven by this colony of passions and loves that give my existence meaning and fulfillment.
I yearn to express the totality of my being in life, yet the more I express, the more I feel that must be made physical.
It seems impossible; the reservoir of my life is limitless, but cries for for actuality nonetheless. My life is complete, yet never complete.
I learn, I grow, I develop; and in the infinite center of my being...I know...
I know that this divine discontent is native to all beings, and is Eternal.
My name now is Tydyn Rain St. Clair, a name I quite like..."
This was a "poem" that I wrote many years ago, that to this day still holds great meaning for me, and expresses very important aspects of who I am.
Who am I? What am I? So many dimensions and worlds, so many times and places...so many expressions of my deeper identity dynamically unfolding and enfolding through the self that I know. I am a nomadic global citizen (even though I often tend to stay in a location for quite some time). I am a fluid chameleon, an immortal nexus...
In any dimension or domain of life in which I am operating or expressing myself I am a healer, an opener, a transformer, an awakener, a catalyst, an integrator, a teacher, and a student. I perceive wholes and I make wholes.
I am a heart-centered creature. Connections, interaction, sharing, warmth, openness, affection, intimacy, touch, and relationships, are very important to me. It's an open energy flow thing. If this area of my life is not flowing well, I don't tend to do so well.
In terms of relationship dynamics I have experienced fulfillment in both monogamy and polyamory, in different configurations, and I can say honestly that I truly appreciate the special beauty of both.
In truth I would love to be able to combine those beautiful and amazing aspects from each lovestyle. I could label myself with either moniker (though polyamory tends to win out in this regard), but I am not fond of self-limiting identifications. The type of polyamory that resonates most deeply with me is a very tribal, inclusive version, where everyone is at the bare minimum very close friends, and at best, lovers - basically a poly-tantric family or tribe. I tend to vibe or resonate very, very well with bisexual women who revel in connecting and sharing with beautiful goddesses as much as I do. Edit: While the essence of this is still true, I realize that my heart yearns to find my mate and life partner. I'm still trying to reconcile this deep desire and the open, polyamorous way I tend to flow with women, as well as my work/vocation with women.
I love to be naked, especially when it's warm or hot. I far prefer swimming naked. This is important to me. If you are not comfortable in your skin, and do not actually really like being without clothing at least 50-75% of the time, indoors and outdoors, alone, with me, or with our friends, then we probably wouldn't vibe very well together. I could call myself a naturist or nudist (and I have), but again, I'm not crazy about labels. Edit: Sadly my present environment rarely allows me to be without clothing. I try to get out to my beloved Eden Hot Springs as often as possible.
I follow the tantric path. I am quiveringly alive with the vital/creative/erotic energy of Life coursing through my being. I am Divinity incarnate in human form, uniting Heaven and Earth, Spirit and Matter, reveling in the sheer inexpressible beauty and bliss of existence. I share this with all I touch. Edit: While this is me at my best, I must admit that as of late, I'm not there anywhere near as much as I'd like. It's pretty spotty at the moment.
Read my horribly outdated my blog at http://eros-awakening.blogspot.com
Find me on Facebook at http://www.facebook.com/immortal.nexus
My Facebook group for the intentional eco-village community that I want to create at https://www.facebook.com/groups/INPTLT/
The Prezi presentation for the intentional eco-village community that I want to create, that fleshes things out a bit more at http://prezi.com/qazwf0nlan5x/eros-awakening-intentional-eco-village-community/