I saved this field for last! I really don't know what to say about me, because I don't really know what you want to know.

*SUPER-New!!**
-I quit coming to this site
-I came back!
-Some people missed me
-What the hell to the above statement
-I now also work for the Opiate Dependency Program
-People seem to think this means I sell drugs
-Those people are silly
-These point form updates are also silly, and I am really lazy and should just update my profile. Le Sigh. Fine. I will. Soon. I just re-read my whole profile and I think it's cute, like me! Changing it will be hard. It will lose some of the charm it has.

*New*
-It seems I am illiterate! I am currently fixing up my profile, as I actually messed some stuff up. Like it says I drink often, when it should say rarely. I wonder what else I missed...
-2 Weeks since I quit smoking! Go me!
-Oh, I put up a picture. Because I care.
-I sent my first message! Was it to you? Lucky girl!
-I felt stupid writing it. (Confused? See above!)
-People have been to my page?! I didn't even have a picture until now! Why were you here? Why didn't you say anything?

I am here because a friend of mine used this site looking for friends, and she found something more, so while skeptical that this will also happen for me, I am (evidently not so) secretly hoping it will.

That's my motivation, and here is some background: I have a very sordid, unhealthy past (I know, makes you want to snap me right up!) that I have put behind me about a year ago now. I am molding myself into the kind of person I would respect. One trait I value VERY highly is honesty. Which is why instead of telling you the multitude of things about me that are wonderful, I am telling you the a few things about me that aren't so sterling. This is deal breaking stuff for some people, so I am telling you up front that if you don't believe people can put the past in it's place, rise up and move forward, then I am not for you.

Now that that is out of the way, if you are still reading, you have a long ways to go! (haha.)

So in this part here where I am suppose to sell myself I am not sure what to say. I am an honest man who works hard and treats people with respect (like everyone else. Damn, this is hard!). I have a very good sense of humor (if a little black at times), and am empathic and caring. I am right in the middle of building my empire, and am also currently nesting.

People ask about the name. It started as an inside joke, but ended up being hauntingly accurate. I am here looking for my Bonnie. That one person that will always have your back, and will stand against the world if need be, with you, or for you.

I actually do realize that my profile, and this section in particular are an almost intelligible mess. I do intend to clean this up, but hey, at least I filled the whole thing out (and put thought into it) as soon as I signed up.

Also, no picture! But why you ask (or don't cause this is extremely long winded and you stopped reading)? I don't have a good one, plain and simple. I am decent looking, and have (much) older pictures that are pretty good, and recent photos that are absolutely horrible. So, not wanting an inaccurate strike against me, I chose not to post one. I will, when I find one that is recent and accurate, instead of one where I am doing something stupid (my friends favorite time to take pics of me!), or look bad. I am extremely un-photogenic. Lucky me on an online dating site! Suffice to say, that I am not unattractive, but no one will be asking me to model unless they are looking to take pictures of people being ridiculous.

I tend to dress biz-cas (unless I am at work, then it may be scrubs), and like the same.

If you want to know more, have it. I am not really shy, will answer honestly, and just tell you I won't answer that if you ask something I don't want to answer (I can't think of something I wouldn't right now, but it may happen). I don't know how many people I will contact out of the gate, if any. I am aware that I don't have picture, and these here are only words, so you have nothing to really go off of. Testing the waters.

Work, Education, more work to pay for more Education, stop when happy.

Fixing things, listening and trying to understand what people mean instead of what they say, a million other things with little to no practical use, lightening (or darkening) the mood (depending on what is needed), making others feel understood/safe/unique.

I have no idea! I don't remember what came to mind the first time I saw me. Tell ya what: You tell ME what you first notice about me, and I will put it in here.

**UPDATE!!!**
It's almost always my eyes or voice. I have been led to believe this is a good thing, so go me.

Books: I read. A lot. So picking a favorite book of all time would be near impossible.

So instead two of my favorite series are the Necroscope series by Brian Lumley, and The Game of Thrones (I don't think that's what the series is called though) by George R. R. Martin.

Movies: I LOVE movies. I typically had previously loved horror movies more than anything else, and while I still find a few endearing, my tastes have shifted a little.

Don't get me wrong, if a disaster flick, creature feature, anything with ghosts, aliens, angels, or devils comes out, I see it. And explosions. Love those.

Action, Martial Arts, anything post-apocalyptic, even documentaries or romances if they are good. I also have an embarrassing weakness for superhero movies (No! Your taste in movies sucks! - That was preemptive, just in case). I also watch any of the Pixar, and the like, movies that come out and generally enjoy them.

Now I find I mostly like, for lack of a better term, thought experiment movies. Like The Cube, The Exam, Pi, and One Point 0. Generally movies that give me something to think about after they are over. Loved Inception.

My fav's in no particular order are, Unbreakable, The Ring, The Incredibles, Event Horizon, Evil Dead 2, The Fountain, The Cube, The Lost Skeleton of Cadavra and Inception.

Shows: Tricky question to answer. So how about I just toss some out there. 30 Rock, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, Californication, Castle, Chuck, Dr. Who, Eureka, Harvey Birdman, Home Movies, House, Parks and Recreation, Penn and Teller, Supernatural, The Big Bang Theory, The Walking Dead, True Blood, V and Warehouse 13.

I also like things like Nova specials and other totally nerdy science-y stuff.

Fav's: Being Human, Community, Dexter, Fringe, Lie to Me, Mythbusters, and my Absolute Most Favorite - The Venture Bros. I will also watch anything by Joss Whedon.

I liked Lost, until the last episode, I liked Battlestar Galatica until the last 2 minuites, and I have a strange love for Wipeout.

Music: First and foremost Rockabilly/Psychobilly. I forgive you in advance if you don't know what that is. After that, European Metal and Industrial. Then more Metal or various types. Then any song that I like in any genera, which is quite a few, including Classical, Opera, County, and Rap, though not too many in those categories.

Fav's: Best Ever - Necromantix. Also, Alice Cooper, Amorphis, DethKlok (What can I say, they kill me), Mad Sin, Paradise Lost, Samael.

Food: Pizza. No, YOUR taste in food is lame! Preemptive strike again. Then Italian, and Indian.

Air, water, gravity (haha. I bet those are listed more often than anything else.)

Music, Movies, my Bass Guitar, the Internet (but oh how I loath you, you time wasting siren), Books, and People. I can freely admit I need people to talk to, to touch, to learn from, to experience. People above all. Except maybe Music.

People. How they think, what they mean instead of what they say, their actions, inactions, bias', beliefs, why some people do this while others do that, everything. I also think about the possibility I don't really get people.

Also, if we are being honest here, myself (in relation to the things I mentioned above), women (in general), and music.

Totally Lame! Work usually has me up at 4:30 in the morning, so when you are getting ready to kick the weekends ass, I am a little weary. I like to relax on Friday evenings. That doesn't mean stay home by the way, it just means that Friday may not be the best time for me to, say: Do Math, Be Suave, Listen Closely, Repel down a mountain face to rescue children stuck in a cave, Perform a Tracheotomy, or Make Sense. But whatever, if something interesting comes up, I am good to go.

I have recently become self conscious for no apparent reason. Also, I like comics. And am trying very, very hard to become a the person I want to be. Raising myself for a sordid past so to speak.

Holy hell. I think the question should be "Should you Message Me?"

Probably, cause at least I am interesting if nothing else (and yet I have plenty). But there are stipulations.

If you just want to get to know me, that is totally fine. I will talk to most anyone unless I find you needlessly confrontational, angry, or offensive. I am afraid that just isn't the type of person I need to be in contact with right now.

If you are interested in keeping in contact with me, meeting me, friend-wise or romantically, you must be mostly (like 90% and up) mentally healthy 100% self sufficient, have a healthy network of friends and confidants, and be a good, honest person with integrity. I really want to meet people I can respect.

I do however like a woman that knows how to dress and present herself well. Really like. A lot. I am not saying that if you are the jeans and concert shirt type, with face piercings, and green steaks in your hair I won't find you attractive, but the chances are slimmer than if you are the high heels, large hoop ear-rings, and little black dress type.

As a special note, your level of education, income (as long as you are 100% self sufficient), or Job Title, don't matter to me, and won't make you more, or less likable or respectable in my eyes. How you treat others, and if you are a happy, kind, pleasant individual are what really matter to me.