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My self-summary Propose an edit

I am a fun-loathing, uptight person. If you have a parade, I will rain on it. Heh. Thought I would give that bit a try.

I am an ex-Navy Nuke. I am a history buff. I love SF. (SciFi) I moved to California so I could run away from the deafening din of my family and clear my head. I love comics. (The 4 color kind) I enjoy comedy. What the hell IS a self summary? I think of myself as fairly romantic... yet I battle this site all the time with the "less desiring of love"... I am not less desiring, I just feel I am unlikely to find it/unworthy of it. It might be that I am more concerned with LOVING someone than actually being loved. Oh great... now it tells me I am less compassionate... I suppose from a standpoint of issues and common sense, yes, I am... but in person I can be such a bleeding heart that I want to kick my ass. I give up on these ratings. What do they mean anyway? If you just ask me how I feel about something in a disconnected way, I am going to take the logical and sensible solution. If I am somehow connected to it through people I know or whatever, I am much more forgiving. I prefer rainy weather, but was drawn to Los Angeles over Seattle. I sometimes can't believe that I am 23.

What I'm doing with my life Propose an edit

I am not happy with myself or where I am, but am excited about where I am going. I am moving to Ireland soon. I am hoping to jet a job in writing. In the meantime, I am just trying to experience life a little bit. I am really looking for someone... I am sick of being alone... desperate for someone who clicks with me. Or I was... the thing about finding a person you really like... if they are not "the cure" that makes your life whole (which is a dangerous thing to look for in a person,) they are most certainly the poison that will corrupt everything you have worked for and dreamed about. I just seriously doubt I will find someone compatible with me who would be as committed to a relationship as I (might?) be. Then again... that is an oxymoron, since if they were not as committed as me, they couldn't be compatible.. could they? Hell.... it is all a big mystery to me... one I am feeling less inclined towards solving. Gosh that sounds awful.

I intend to get my duel citizenship and move to Ireland eventually. Probably after I change my name and figure out what I want to DO with my life. I love the weather, the attitude, and the life there. I suppose, if you are interested in me, we would eventually have to confront that in some manner.

I have decided once and for all to be a writer. I will still do other things, especially if I have to, just to get by... but it's a writers life for me.

I'm really good at Propose an edit

Thinking about things. Fairly lucky in finance. I write some pretty good essay's when it is called for. I am considering creating a system of debate and sort of form of essay writing that is non-euclidian for left handers and artistic leaning folk. The Romans perfected the Ordered way to debate... it's high time we gave Chaos a chance.

I do a bit of drawing/art from time to time. I like to mess around with a piano/keyboard, but have no formal training.

I type rather fast, I suppose, which is good since my handwriting is atrocious.

The first thing(s) people usually notice about me Propose an edit

I am pretty tall. I wear glasses. I have rosy cheeks. You might notice my side burns.

People usually get along with me, at least until I slip up and reveal harsh veiws on reality. Seriously though... that only really happens with close friends... and I have no real way of knowing how that strikes them. In conversation, if you hit the wrong topics, I suppose I can be patronizing or something mean. I don't know... I am not a snob or anything, but I am very passionate about things, unfortunately, historically passionate politics has been ruined with idiocy. (What? Run-on sentence?) You should probably avoid political topics unless you are thick-skinned, I know I will. Also, unless you are rather clever, I doubt you can trick me into it. Boy that sounds like a challange.

My favorite books, movies, music, and food Propose an edit

Wheel Of Time Series by Robert Jordan
I suppose I would have said "1984", but I get the feeling that most people who put that up didn't REALLY like the book, they just want to look smart.
I would have said "Clockwork Orange" but if you saw the movie, then I sound like a jerk picking that. Read the unabridged version, you lemmings.
I might have said "Brave New World", but if you had read the book you would understandably wonder what kind of person I was. You really could go a couple of ways with that.
Of course with all these Negative/Utopia's on the list... I might just be a conpiracy theory nut... but believe me, I tried to read "Catcher in the Rye". What a snooze fest. I never finished it.
I really like Kafka right now. I really... relate to him on many levels.

The Dark Knight, Batman Begins

Eclectic taste in music. Really, we have to play by ear, but if it's "pop" or "now" I probably won't want to listen to it. I do love 80's music a bit. Not exclusively, but it holds a special place in my heart.

Pepperoni Pizza. Slurpees.

The six things I could never do without Propose an edit

Air [78.08% nitrogen, 20.95% oxygen, 0.93% argon, 0.038% carbon dioxide, trace amounts of other gases, and a variable amount (average around 1%) of water vapor)]

Water (One of my favorites.)

Food (Pizza, in particular, pepperoni, if you please... Siamese if you don't please.)

Gravity (It's a Scientific Law, which is more than I can say for Evolution)

Reasonable amount of atmospheric pressure. Too little and I might spring a leak and go brain dead, too much and I will be CRUSHED like so many grapes under a wine dancers feet. It truely is, a delicate thing.

Hope and God.

I suppose a seventh... or subcatagory of Hope even... would be death.

I spend a lot of time thinking about Propose an edit

Ideas for games. Ideas for products. Ideas for books I might write. I often dream of the what the future holds and possible destinies. How much more ocean there would be if a colossal cyclops ate the entire continent of Africa. Don't laugh. I have seen it happen before. So if you think you can scam me, I will bring your world crashing down around you.

On a typical Friday night I am Propose an edit

Alone. Might have dragged myself to a movie. Might be drowning my sorrows with various alcohol. Might be in chatrooms saying anything at any given moment. Probably moping or some silly angsty thing that makes me want to kick sand in my own face. Messing around with social networking sites. If I am real lucky, I will have gotten called into work, so I don't have to deal with myself.

At this point, I don't care or go out anymore. I really can't see why I would want to meet a girl out here in California. I stay in, work out, and focus on my plans.

The most private thing I'm willing to admit here Propose an edit

When I used "Wild" to decribe me..... I didn't mean like a party animal, although I can drink myself to stupor on occasion. I mean like easily spooked. Imagine a small cat hissing at an over-friendly toddler, or a buck running off in between the trees after a close encounter with a hunter's buckshot, or confused timber wolf-pup that has recently escaped from an animal testing facility. Yes.... that last one works the best (although I have no implicit problem with animal testing.) I am feeling alone, afraid, and confused. I doubt anyone can pull me out of the darkness, but that doesn't stop my howling. Does anyone hear me? Howl back if you do... perhaps we look at the same moon longingly.

Well I am almost out of my long-time personal dark spot, but getting out of it is leaving me less interested in talking to girls, and even less interested in making new friends. Most dudes disgust me with their views on life and behavior... but girls are not much better most of the time either. I have seen many a good people dragged down by selfish banshees... it just seems like getting involved with a girl is a good way to eventually get tossed back in the dark corner, when she leaves me for some less intellectually challanging jerk. I will admit, in my mind, she is probably leaving me because I screwed up. It isn't fair to me to think like that, I have never been in a relationship before... but frick if that thought doesn't scare me.

In any case, you should just disregard what I said, since it scares me so much, I would strive to never let that happen.

I suppose, I am not looking for a girl, but a Woman. An adult female who is equally as energetic and as mature as me. If not more so. However, it would seem rather unfair to expect more out of another person... I just need a girl who is bright enough to reflect my thoughts back to me, give me a new angle or perspective... that shouldn't be too hard, we have different brain chemistry. As long as you can speak in a manner that doesn't immeadiately scream "Ignorant" or "Pleabian", I am sure you can keep up. This may sound mean, but I am coming to realize that I not only HAVE standards, but I want it to be CLEAR to people.... Otherwise this whole profile is a waste of time.

You should message me if Propose an edit

If you had made it this far and don't think I could be as mean as things I have written have made me look. I don't take them down, they are true, but not to a terrible extent. I am a very gentle person, I just needed to say some things to scare away girls who might take advantage of me.

If you think we might have a chance at romance. If you want to show me what it's like to be on the otherside of the fence, rather than looking over for once. Or if you just feel like it. I mean hell, what do you have to lose? (don't think about that too hard, I know I do.)

Or if you think we can be friends, I suppose. If you like showing people around Los Angeles, that would be cool. I have been to Compton, but not Hollywood. Lots of possibilities really.

Or if you wonder why I get twice as many adjectives as everyone else.

If you hold any inkling of wanting to know me, you are gonna have to message me first at this point. For several reasons...

1) I am preparing to leave L.A. This could take a couple of monthes, but it is mainly due to the fact that there is nothing here for me. I don't have a reason to stay, I am not looking for one, but I wouldn't mind one chirping up before it is too late.

2) I am done trying to talk to girls. I am awful at approaching them. Altogether, it is much easier for me to talk to them if they are interested in me enough to engage me. Otherwise, anything I manage to come up with is contrived. I can see how this can be flipped around, but I don't care. Chivalry is dead. The way the world is, I am more likely to be insulted or attacked for even trying the traditional approach. And the modern approach to "picking up" girls sickens me. I am trapped by fear of a negative response to a positive approach and simply wanting to be able to live with myself.

3) I don't really take stalker status seriously? How is that a useful method of discerning another's intentions? Even if they stalk my profile everyday, how do I know that they are not just showing thier co-workers how goofy I look? It is just as plausible as anything else. Except the Spanish Inquisition. Nobody expects that.

P.S. Don't message me if you just want to link me to erotic/scam sites. I didn't join okcupid to accrue spam. I want to talk to a real girl face to face. Is that so much to ask? Sigh. I would imagine so. My dilemma is mine alone... whatever I felt, another person could never have solved that.

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