Around the same age as I learned the record player I became enamored with Spider-man. I do not remember whether this came before or after a fascination with spiders. (I am particularly fond of jumping spiders, they're cute and lively. One day I was playing guitar and noticed one on my knee, "dancing" as it watched my fingers. I say "dancing" because the reductionist in me thinks that the behavior I observed was an effect of the spider's prey-targeting circuitry, though the mystic in me wonders if it were e.g. a sign that music is the primary path for me.) Anyway this fascination with spiders branched into a fascination with insects and other creatures and the workings of life in general. All that plus a latent fascination with video games is how I came to earn a degree in cognitive science focusing on artificial life.
"I have always felt dislocated within civilization. Whether the suburbs, the cities, or small towns, I have always felt suffocated, empty, and lost. Traveling from one location to the next, always over-idealizing the succeeding context. The grass always seemed greener. In this postmodern reality, dislocation is not the exception but the norm, and even the sought-after condition. We can never be whole as long as we live outside and above our surroundings, or for that matter, even view them as surroundings, and not as part of us."
Why did they get rid of "available" as a relationship status? That would be the most apt in my case. Of the current choices "single" seems closest to where I'm at.
By the match %ages here, women near my age who I have any more than a smattering of common ground with are rare. I find this both annoying and curious.