ok fine...i never actually comprehended how immensely alone i feel -_-
but...i'm not happy with who i am right now so i'm pretty sure i won't find someone i'll be happy with. gotta love yourself before you can love another right? yup....riding solo for a bit longer -_-

um...it says i'm on all the time but i'm really not. i usually leave my computer on full of tabs and go off to do other things. feed my ADDness lols!

to the ppl that keep reporting my pictures....you know its possible to be friends with ugly ppl too. o.o if you can't even be friends with the aesthetically impaired and base your friends on looks alone then you don't deserve to be a human...

i'm interchangeable and forever changing...
SALUTATIONS!!!
i really only want friends at this point of any gender.

you should read my journals ^_^

a few things i go by:
put yourself in other's shoes
know both sides before drawing a final conclusion
whatever floats your boat ^_^
i know when to be considerate and when to be a bastard.

i do have social problems as i am a recluse and sadly don't have many friends. i probably do need an outgoing person around to push me out the house and force me to have fun outside my comfortable hermit dwellings...usually i'm distrusting because i have been used before and generally the aquaintances that i do know only talk to me when they find me useful. i'm dominantly right brained and i think that causes me to think differently or have different thought patterns.

religiously, i say i'm agnostic because i can be a highly spiritual person. i'm very open minded and find good things in all religions and refuse to limit myself to one. you can say i pick and choose ideals from here and there.
mostly, it doesn't matter who you are or what you believe, if you're nice to me and respect my beliefs i'll do the same for you ^_^ so why can't we all get along? love everyone!

i admit i get a kick out of offending ppl, in fact i think i have offended some of you on here by not putting clear pictures of myself ^_^ so i'm sorry if i offended you sorta >.> you can just assume that i am quite ugly ^_^ i also never learned how to wear makeup so i don't wear any >.> and since all pretty girls wear makeup that must make me extra ugly! HAR HAR HAR!
i rates mahself a 5.5/10 lololol!

generally i am a very nice person and have decent enough values to qualify me as a decent human being....as long as i don't act upon my thoughts >.>

i do have high integrity. i believe its wrong to lie or even hide the truth, keeping the truth from someone won't keep them from being hurt, i've been hurt very badly from these two things and i can't stress it enough. tell the goddamn truth no matter how much it hurts because the longer you let it fester the worse the truth will become.

NOTE: i do love cats but i'm allergic to them >.> um...i'm also allergic to most toothpastes and mouthwashes <.< so if you give me a gift dont get me these things...or you could get me a hypoallergenic cat. i want a siberian kitty ^_^
um...i also found out i'm allergic to some shampoos and conditioners....like head and shoulders can fuck up my scalp and the ones they give out at the dragoncon hyatt hotel fucked up my scalp...

i am naturally petite but i'm a lazy arse so i have some chubs on mah belly. BELLY CHUBS!!! RAWR!!!!!

i am trying to conform myself to become more nonsexual and boring! tis true mhm o.o now i like my eggs scrambled and my ice cream vanilla. mhm mhm...no more sunny side/over easy for me >.>

yes i love manga, anime, some asian dramas and movies, japanese foods, music, culture, yeah japan seems interesting. i don't have anime wall scrolls all over my walls and shout random japanese words/phrases that i barely understand or go "i know japanese VERY well because i watch a lot of anime ^_^" mhm....right....>.>

AHHHH must stop using computer...it is making me blind ><

YAY i found out i was accepted to gsu! but it wasn't that much of a surprise i did get some pretty good grades >.> (made the dean's list twice) thinking about majoring in photography or film....or both but i don't really think they have it so i guess i'll go with some art thing.... i'm an artist what can i say, that's all i know how to do and its what i enjoy...
hopefully this will be the final time i go back to college and actually finish it. i'm going to try and get it over with, i just feel i have to and if i don't do it this time another chance won't come...even if i don't find what i want to do or what to major in, it'll at least be a step towards kicking my lazy ass off the computer and do some nonbumming stuff like working towards being able to live by myself o.o i've been hearing a bunch about uga from several people....and the ppl from there on okc seem cool.....i really wanna go there >.> maybe i can transfer there after i get a degree at ga state! and when i get money! shouldn't be too long since i have several credits over and done with already...

i would like to go on more adventures too, went hiking that was fun and peaceful ^_^ and i wanna start working out so i feel healthier... and its been a while since i've gone fishing i wanna try that again. i wanna try bungee jumping too, and water skiing and maybe wake boarding, some day sky diving, and i need to learn how to swim >.>

one day i want to travel the world. don't know what i'll be doing while traveling exactly but i want to at least be able to see different parts of the world up close and personal, it's like a dream of mine. i'm so jealous of the people on the travel channel who travel the world because it's their job. i'd like to have a job like that as well ^_^.

my life may be kinda sucky now but it will improve! hopefully soon but i can't control the outcome of everything o.o.....but at the very least it WILL be better! gotta live with some hope...

I AM SEMI LEFT HANDED YAY! been workin on it...yeah gotta work on the guns >.>

being on the computer for most of the time that i am awake.
i like to knit but i'm just ok at it o.o
i like photography, take lots of great pictures
i'm good at singing but too shy to sing in front of anyone
hm...i guess most everything else i am fail >.> but will steadily improve at them!

"holy fuck how long is your fuckin hair? O.O"
"how tall are you? O.o"
"WHAT? YOU'RE THAT OLD?"
-yes i'm basically legal jailbait so we can get that out of the way
-_-
"OMG you're sooo friggen cute i wants to poke you!!!"
-well FUCK YOU FUCKIN BITCH >< I NO CUTES!!!!!

music main:
http://www.playlist.com/playlist/17527694603
http://www.playlist.com/playlist/17628493835/standalone
the solemn playlist: http://www.playlist.com/playlist/18283507211/standalone
also: go to youtube search for "oldies" click playlist and pick one of the oldies playlists...
oh and oldschool rock like queen
and i need to make a metal playlist....

though i'm sure you're bound to hate something on there due to my eclectic and varied tastes. unfortunately that is only a tidbit of music i enjoy... stupid 200 song limit >< some of that i think you can tell i like because i've listened to them since i was a youngin. don't deny these embarrassing things ppl! you know there are some songs you've heard long ago that make you go "why the fuck do i like this? its utter shit!" now.
and i like music with good lyrics. sometimes you don't necessarily like the song but you can't deny the words speak volumes.

basically with movies and music; i like mainstream stuff, i like obscure stuff, i even like stuff from other cultures, and i like stuff that nobody else knows xept for me i really don't give a shit.

there are things from every genre and culture i enjoy. and please don't hate someone just because they like a certain band or movie that you hate -_-

i generally like all kinds of food from here and there and will literally try ANYTHING.....ok there is a line but its very very far away. like i'll refuse a handfull of things andrew zimmern has tried but everything else sure! just stick it in my mouth! speaking of andrew zimmern i have a theory that he lacks some tastebuds....
szechuan is THE SHIT!! seriously. name the few epic chinese foods you've had. they're probably szechuan. KUNG POW!!!
oh and alton brown is GOD!...when it comes to food cookin/preparation stuffs

the ability to sing...and everything else.

thinking of ways to make as much money as possible with as little effort as possible =D

and moving out of this house as soon as possible -_-
i would like to learn to play the guitar ^_^

sometimes my pants are really loose because i never get clothing that fits me...and i have a fear that one day my pants will just fall off >.> i should fix them -_- belts are too annoying. they nip at my pudge and the need for the unclasping mechanism takes too much time away from those very needy piss times...

why there are so many "unique eclectic individuals" that all look and act the same. maybe i just need something different...

and ideas that flow from my mind, i try to jot them down. whether it be some creative creation or thoughts...
and sometimes i see something i want but can't get i just think "fine i'll just make it myself"
i want to try building furniture....i can use my mom's power tools!

i think most of you are ugly....no shit dudes

i've been asked more than once if maybe i'm just a lesbian o.O don't really know what that implies....

um....i have small boobs? O.o
i'm serious, my first bf's manboobs were larger than mine actually >.>

i'm pretty sure mentally i am half female and half male. i just like the balance of both and i feel uncomfortable when i'm too much like one gender...

i think taylor swift is kinda hot >.> don't actually dig her music but she's nice to look at o.o i like her elflike eyes...
oh and giada mmm....i think i only watch the food network cuz of her, i wonder how she is in bed she looks like the freaky type...

foods is my LIFE!! cuz without it i would starve to death >.>
when i hungry...i will steals your foods!!! RAWR!

fish tacos reminds me of the punani >.> you should look up what punani means o.o

i tend to have an attraction towards really tall skinny guys, i don't know why but somehow they make me feel taller? O.o and i think alexander skarsgard is HOT O.O i also like longer hair on guys...

my best friend is this really creepy dude >.>.......

wanna hang or talk. introduce me to new fun places to hang!
(no i dont mean for public sex -_-)

you wants to feed me good foods ^_^

hm...if you've read this far i think i wrote a whole bunch of nothing....i'm sorry you've read all this crap >.>

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if you're a grammar/spelling/punctuation nut please don't come to me to gripe your compulsions at. i makes mah own words so bleee at yous! FUCK YO GRAMMA! i get mine from lolcats \m/