I am often the first to laugh at my own foolishness, and know that there is a bit of that, despite the grace I may display. I really love the flavor of refinement combined with a raw, untamed edge OR a more rugged exterior with high quality elegance and intelligence. I like this in my environment, my personal tastes, my friends and in my partner. The particular actual packaging is less important, really. SPARK is. A bit of flare to play with. What kind of fire you tend, what kind of fire we build together is what I am interested in. Emotional intelligence is very very sexy. (Do you know yourself? Do you know it is hard to know what is underneath the self that you know, do you want to know anyway?) Kindness, honesty and patience, in that order, can’t be cultivated enough, in my opinion. It feels imperative to build the type of relationship that we can both lean into and feel inspired and bouyed by; that we can be best friends that can’t quite get enough of each other. I imaging our hearts light, our life work prominent, our loving deep.
I have discovered that it takes time to know the nature of something. Myself included. Even with intense study. So, at first, I like to explore, take small sips, (try big gulps if I like it!) cultivate, interact, observe, build. I am very sensual, and curious, and passionate about many things, I do not tend to get bored, with life, or love. I have parts of me that can burst into a strong flame, quickly, but I prefer, for the sake of my heart or yours, to build slowly. All that being said, I am also moved by clear and strong intuition. If I get an internal “YES!” I tend to trust that and will follow that intuition, even without a clear understanding of where something is leading me and usually it works out. Perhaps I am a bit of a conundrum? Or maybe a puzzle that needs attention to find the clear patterns. I am also, however, very grounded. I consider how my actions effect the whole. It is a built in trait that I sometimes wish were not.
I am not this or that and I am also this AND that. I will perhaps stand out as more conservative among hippies, and more “free-living” among conservatives, more kind among the cynics, more edged among the those with rose colored glasses. I am not really middle of the road as I also have strong opinions, however, I do strive for “the middle path.” (If you get my reference) I like to see the big picture. I tend to be an often honored guest in many circles, but have yet to find that particular circle that feels just like home (even in those I have been the hub for) and I think I am alright with that. My closest friends are also bridgers, in this way and walk a varied path. (But if you have some sort of sweet community/family, that could also be nice too) Many flavors of folk are welcomed into my home and there is often laughter, music, a few different languages and skin tones, preferences, and very very good food. I like to remember as I walk through this world, that we are all actually looking for the same thing. If I had a super power it might be compassion. Astrologically, I am a fire sign with the blessing of a balance of earth and some Scorpio to add a nice bit of spice. My archetype might be some blend of librarian, artist, milk maid, wood sprite. Ha ha.
I tend to have a serious side with a focus on offering the best of me in service to this radically beautiful world. Sometimes, I forget to offer the best of me to me, but I am working on it and believe in it. I meditate, eat organically, (for both deliciousness and political/environmental reasons). I put my nose to tasks and get things done, sometimes at a blazing pace, sometimes more like the way seasons return again and again. I am not afraid of things I don’t know or understand and I strive to understand them. I would be over joyed to find a sweet love that has similar ways to them. Maybe a bit un-peg-able. An authentic nature loving, song singin', slow dancin' long kissin' mystic? Maybe even a bit strong flavored, but kind about it, who is skilled at listening to himself, me, and all that surrounds him and thinks farm/country livin’ with a little cutie sounds just great.
Whatcha think? Could it be you?