I recently started seeing a polyamorous woman, and I guess I'm technically polyamorous myself. I'm also kinda with a woman in the Baltimore, MD. area for the last 3 years. (11/21/2013)
I was told I should change this because I sound whiney. I don't care! Its how I felt at the time, and I still feel this way. I'm not going to hide my feelings to get friends. First what kind of friends am I getting if I have to pretend? And why do I want to bother if I can't be myself? If you don't like me the way I am, its your loss, not mine. I don't need 'friends' who can't deal with the way I really am. I make a great friend. I won't expect you to change at all. I may expect you to explain and justify the way you are, but that's just because I care enough to understand.
I'm just me. I'm tired of others trying to define me. I am what I am, regardless of what others think. Opinions don't change what I am. I try to live up to my nature. Its not always easy. I try to be a good friend, but some think I'm no good at it, even though I've always been there when they ask me to. What more can you do? I hate losing friends, but it 'takes 2 to tango'. I can't make things ok. Some say I don't listen, but if getting them to talk means pulling teeth, is it my fault? I don't know. It hurts to lose a friend that meant so much, over something so minuscule. I don't know what to do, but it doesn't really matter I guess. Sorry, kinda depressed atm. Losing good friends isn't easy. better yet, I wonder if we were ever friends to begin with? Who knows?
My Wife left me (11/06/2011), and its turned my life upside down. I miss her and my daughters so much. I never knew what Hell was like till now. *sigh* I would do anything to have them back. For the few months after she left I cried more than I ever had in my life. But after almost 2 years now, I'm doing a lot better. I'm not even all that upset over the whole situation anymore. I'm still not happy with it. *sigh* But life goes on. I have a new job I really like (8/27/2013) and life is looking up. :)