I'll shake you up, I'll tear you down, do my worst and give you chills."- SJ Tucker
There is a shortage out there. We haven't enough words in the world to describe every concept in the complex manner that people think of it it in. I want to say that I'm free spirited, but who would truly understand what that phrase means to me.
Besides... words are simply lies. Sounds that come from our throats, shaped by tongues, teeth and lips. They mean nothing unless they match the intention and thought behind them.
"You wanna know more, more, more about me...
Gotta know reverse psychology.
I'm the reason why you can't get to sleep.
I'm the girl you never get, just quite what you see. - Skye Sweetnam
I find myself following the Gemini nature, being a walking contradiction. While I'm out/easy going, I can just as easily withdraw and become shy. I do embrace my zodiac, having found that many things of the Gemini things fit my own personality. The number one (as I like to think) is being easy to like, and good company. But this is just as easily contradicted by my love of delving deep into intellectual conversation, analyzing people and the dynamics that swarm around them. It often uncovers uncomfortable truths, and in this sense it can sometimes make people avoid me. it makes me avoid others at times for the same reason. I play the Fool card more often than not, and don't like when people reveal to me my own foolishness. But this also is what give me the willingness to ask questions that others avoid. So I suppose it is all worth it in the end.
"There is no one soul that will swallow me whole
and let me out shining and beautiful, no.
In love there is loss of control
but like the rivers I roll,
are you in for a ride?"-SJ Tucker
So, since it's best to be completely open, I need to shift how this is. To let you all know, I am Poly. For those of you who don't know what that is, please, look it up. Here have a link.
I currently am involved with my primary partner (who frustratingly doesn't have a profile, but is likely not going to make one. gr). If you cannot handle that I am able to have more than one loving relationship in an open style as this, please, don't try to pursue me. I'll make friends with anybody, but if you're looking for more in a monogamous style, I'm not the girl for you. I value trust and honesty and have managed to find it in this part of the world.
"Storytellers never die." - SJ Tucker
I love to feel the wind in my face, and feel a deep connection with the earth and nature. The rain cleanses, and the wind scrubs us dry. Sunlight is a gentle caress of love, and breezes whisper secrets in my ears. So far, my greatest love has been one with the earth, with her creatures and animals and trees. I have yet to meet somebody who I connect with on a level that is so deep and intense that I am able to lose myself with them and find myself all over again. Being deeply spiritual, I feel drawn towards those that are also spiritual and can connect on that level as well.
"Time to do the work while my bones and blood are wild
with lessons learned and secrets shared ." -SJ Tucker
I write almost constantly, either just my thoughts or the stories that come into my head. Being an author has been my dream since I was very young. I constantly carry a notebook and several pens simply to be able to write down ideas, funny things people say, thoughts that I have or really anything that comes to mind. I hope one day to be able to simply work as a hobby and not because I need to. I want to spread color and light into everybody's world, and provide to somebody else what so many authors provided to me: a safe haven away from this world and in another... My inspiration is what drives me on, and I feel that I can change the world, if I can only get heard.
"Just when you think
you got me figured out
the season's already changing..." -Meredith Brooks