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So I have no idea what a 1000 characters looks like so I figured I would see if I could really write something that was that long without trying.

So school is going ok, I have really good grades in all of my classes. I dont think I can take much more of work unless I can start working register. I want to work mornings.

I would like to start doing more with my music industry stuff but I am so goddamn poor.

here are some lyrics

Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all your so called problems
Better put 'em in quotations

Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you'd be better off instead

If you could only
Say what you need to say

Have no fear
For giving in
Have no fear
For giving over
You better know that in the end
It's better to say too much
Then never to say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open

Here are some of my fav lyrics.


I am driving up 85
in the kind of morning
that lasts all afternoon
im just stuck inside the gloom

Four more exits to my apartment
but I am tempted to keep the car in drive
and leave it all behind

Cause I wonder sometimes
about the outcome
of a still verdictless life

Am i living it right
am i living it right
am i living it right
why why georgia, why

I rent a room and i fill the spaces with
wood in places to make it feel like home
but all i feel's alone

It might be a quarter life crisis
just a stirrin in my soul

either way
i wonder sometime about the outcome
of a still verdictless life

am i living it right
am i living it right
am i living it right
why why georgia why

so what so i've got a smile on
but its hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
dont believe me
dont believe me
when i say ive got it down

everybody is just a stranger but
that's the danger in
going my own way
i guess it's a price i have to pay
still "everything happens for a reason"
is no reason not to ask myself

If I am living it right
Am I living it right
Am I living it right
why tell me why
why why georgia why


and


Too many shadows in my room
Too many hours in this midnight
Too many corners in my mind
So much to do to set my heart right
Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair

Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new luck upon me
Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair

And now i'm walking in the park
All of the birds they dance below me
Maybe when things turn green again
It will be good to say you know me

Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
Oh i'm never really ready, yeah, oh, i'm never really ready
I'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there
I'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there
I'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there
I'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there
I'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there
I'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there

I was watching American Idol try outs today . . . and a thought popped in my head . . . "I can sing better then half of the people there".

and upon that epiphone i decided that the next time they have try-outs i am trying out. I have wanted to do this for a while and just never have. I think it could be a fun experience and what the hell i might just make it.

I was thinking i would sing the song "a change is gonna come". I have that style of voice where its slightly pop-ish and slightly soul though im not super good at either. i can do runs and i have a good range in the sense that i can sing lower then most girls i know.

who knows what will come of this.

If you have any suggestions on songs let me know :)