...as you can see by my photos...maybe a little too much...

....because they are boring...be imaginative people:)
x

* That night under the tree by the lake...
* When you spoke Spanish to me
* When I made you climb through the window...;)
* When you wouldnt let me turn out the light...
* You asked me to dance and looked at me in awe on the dancefloor...

I miss you...

...oh yes...I start pole dancing classes tonight...
;)

....oh look what i found....written years ago...

Perception.

They say that the eyes
are the windows to the soul
When you look at me,
you strip my soul bare

You undress me with your eyes
then leave me standing there.
I'm naked, alone and vulnerable
to the world.

Who gave you permission to break down my defence?
Who told you that you could look at me that way?

Who said that you could see me for who I am...
...And not who I pretend to be...?

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I love you.

When I couldn't see,
you gave me sight.
When I was too weak,
You fought my fight.

You gave me wings,
when I couldn't fly,
You lifted me up
so I could touch the sky.

When I was mute,
you sang my song.
You turned me right,
when I turned wrong.

Drowning in my tears,
you helped me to breathe
My faith lost in my fears,
you helped me to believe.

My life lacked sparkle,
so you handed me a star
Now I've only got three words for you
....And you know what they are...

**************************

Telephone.

I know it's late
but I don't have a choice.
I'm sorry if I woke you
...But I need to hear your voice.

I cant sleep without you.
I want you next to me.
I want to listen to you breathe,
and know if you dream of me.

I want to wake up next to you
I want to spend the night,
To know the only thing, we have to do,
is hold each other tight.

I've never felt this way before
Hold me close and don't let me go,
Take my heart, my body, my everything
and wrap your arms around my soul.

*************************
Through the storm.

Through the storm I search for you,
Rain blinds me, I stumble and fall,
Scramble to my feet, I cry out your name,
wondering if you'll come when I call.

With nothing left to lose,
I'll try wishing on a star
You promised you'd always be there,
Now I don't know where you are.

Controlled by my fear
I've nowhere left to run,
Lost in the darkness,
Blinded by the sun.

Feeling so alone and cold,
I want you here to hold me
You swore you'd never, ever lie
Now I can't believe a word you told me.

After everything you did to me
Why do you still make me want you?
My head says you're something I really don't need
My heart won't believe that it's true.

Mascara rivers run down my face,
Crying black tears over you.
I don't think I can go home right now
I don't know what else to do.

I'm just going to keep on running,
I've reached the end of my tether,
Through wind and rain, until you feel my pain,
....and I reach calmer weather.

**************************

Missing you.

I've tried watching the tv but there's nothing on
Just a program about gardening and the news.
It couldn't take my mind off you.

I've tried listening to the radio
All it seemed to do was play our song,
I turned it off, it hurt too much to listen.

I rushed to answer the phone
It wasn't you
It reminded me how much I miss hearing your voice.

Do you ever think about me?
Do you know how much you hurt me?
Do you even care...?

I wish that I was over you.
I wish that I didn't want to kiss you.
I wish you loved me the way you said you did.

I sit alone in my room and write a poem about how lonely I feel.
Lying in a bed that seems so empty without you in it.

I miss you.


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I finish my temping assignment on friday and then I will be even more broke than I am now, what shall I do?

* If you weigh less than me...
* Plain-ness...sorry, sexual attraction is all important
* Bad teeth
* Misogny
* If youre very religious...
* Stupidity
* If you dont like going down...
* Bad kissers...
* Vegans
* Anime obsessed
* Emotional retards
* Modelizers...
* Unemployed
* Recreational drugs...*yawn*
* Wanna-be gangsters
* Chavs

Im sure I can think of more...

*If the whole point of being a lesbian is that you're attracted to women and not men why do many of them go out with women that look like men...?

*What's the point of Paris Hilton...? She's a hideous character....I hate spoilt people, you know the type 'daddy I want a pony' type...the world doesn't owe you anything, just cos daddy has more money than sense, for gods sake try actually working for something not just expecting everything to be given to you on a silver plate.Grrr!

* I can't be doing with stupid people...I just don't have the patience

*Emos...eyeliner, hairspray, fishnets...and that's just the boys...Boys that look like girls and girls that look like boys, disturb me a little bit, unless of course they are really hot, for which they can then be forgiven

* Girls that constantly diet and count calories in everything, get a grip, lifes too short, be women shaped for god sake!

*How come in america you can go into a shop and buy a gun but its an offense for girls to sunbathe topless? since when have breasts been offensive weapons?...or ever offensive at all? you yanks have it all wrong...

*The statutory age in England is 16...however you cant buy porn til youre 18...so you can do it at 16 but you cant watch it for another 2 years...how is that logical?

*I hold porn responsible for perpetuating the myth that spunk tastes nice...it doesnt, it's vile.

Ok, so im talking about crushes on people who may not be conventionally attractive, or way outside your age range or just plain weird...or even that youre embarassed to tell anyone about...come on everyone, post yours here!....Il go first..

*Bruce Willis
*Ray Winstone
*Antony Head (giles from buffy)
*Simon Cowell
*Horatio from CSI Miami

*Reminiscing...
*Getting lost in a book
*Kisses in the rain...pressed up against a wall...ones that take your breath away...
*Debating...
*Flirting...
*Sexual Tension...
*Walking barefoot on grass in the summer...
*The smell of coffee but not the taste...
*Foreplay...
*Eye contact...
*Good hair days...
*Having crushes on people...
*Bruce Willis...
*Felt tip/marker pens and fresh white paper...
*The smell of a new book....
*Im a sucker for a pretty face...
*Pretty underwear...
*Water fights...
*Ice cream...