'When seeker and source are the same, there can be no other destination.'
'If not your strength, my weakness.'
'The world may not owe you a living - but civilization certainly does.'
My life has become largely about inclusion, faith and belief if only because I enjoyed so little of it until the last decade or so, as a child of divorce and abuse ultimately overcoming a considerable amount of negative reinforcement, but I'm not completely out of those woods yet either - I try to live by the so-called 'Golden Rule' and extend to others that which I hope for myself, speak to the inherent divinity and best in people - shine a light on the God/Goddess in all of us, as it were.....I aspire to be a healer with my words, provide a haven from unfair expectations and my life as an example of a different, slightly kinder one - want it to have been a nobler pursuit when all is said and done (like Edgar Cayce, would never feel good about prospering materially from these aspirations and some on this site do know of my sincerity firsthand). I've come to recognize that how one's beliefs affect the world at large, how much they free and sanctify it to deepen, expand our experience of material existence - in effect create new collective neural pathways, is more important than the proverbial 'truth'. Conversely, I also recognize the value of 'common sense', which is no longer immediately synonymous with 'conventional wisdom'. I firmly believe in tacit knowledge and morphogenesis; have envisioned something called The Human Internet Radio Project - and consequently do not measure people I meet by their degree or title; not really a reflection of their true worth. There are many different, equally valid paths to wisdom and success.....
Should you compare profiles, this site will indicate that I am much less ambitious than most - not true; I do work very hard (and haven't any use for an MBA) but, as the Nineties saying goes, I work SMARTER and succeed somewhat in making the best of things without compromising my values. I take strength from striking a healthier balance, won't ever take cues from Pavlov (or GQ) nor jump through hoops and, quick as I may be to pay genuine compliments, will not merely feed rapacious egos. I saw the 'American Dream' for what it truly is early on as it took both my father and, to a lesser extent, brother from this world; never intrinsically cared about degrees, houses, vehicles anyway aside from practical considerations (I haven't the slightest 'need for speed' - my mind already races at the speed of light! But not every waking minute or anything, though.....I am, however, an admitted clotheshorse - no slave to fashion at all though in ANY respect - know what I like, and I do find much meaning in those possessions that further defined me, such as books and music; have something of a Native American outlook) - however impressive any workmanship or craft - but may be willing to invest in a home, make a few meaningful sacrifices when the time and person is right. No, some of my ambitions are just very different from theirs and gives the lie to how valid these percentage comparisons actually are.....
.....unbeknownst to me until a few months ago, Albert Schweitzer, in his book The Search for the Historical Jesus, expresses a philosophy to live as though we were already IN Heaven, and I do believe that a part of us all is even now, if not readily apparent - I've visited it, known Namaste for a tantalizingly brief moment more than once, and in some of the connections I make as an intuitive. My personal expression of this desire is to make simpler others' lives horrendously complicated by the aforementioned expectations, help them really reconnect with the universe in ways more intimate, show them how much power we all have to facilitate the miracles in other's lives merely by recognizing, speaking to higher expressions of themselves (while very supportive of a 'DIY' ethic, I'm not at all down with 'anything goes', especially where music is concerned - although an admittedly subjective thing, all expression is NOT created equal) and striving to liberate them from a fear of being the people they want, never letting be compromised the natural trails they might blaze out of this wilderness for the rest of us, being removed as they are from well-worn societal paths. While I've become very independent, I'm also a very social creature and so would truly hate living 'off the grid', have many friends of various ages - for which I am extremely grateful, even if I've sometimes struggled to demonstrate my gratitude, but my appreciation of the people around me is hard to miss and is evidenced by my generosity of spirit.
Like most men, I do appreciate beautiful women but that is only one attribute of a person's overall attractiveness; there have been many beautiful women I've known, but only a few that are still regular parts of my life. I do have a demonstrated weakness for women of Irish descent (may be the Gaelic - Highland Scot and Galician Spanish - on either side of my family) and the 'girl-next-door' look; people don't necessarily have to DRESS but THINK adventurously. I also very much appreciate intellectual curiosity and emotional intelligence, as well as a sense of humor (giggles are very welcome). While in some ways I am something of a simple man and appreciate, um, simpler pleasures (as the same profile comparison may or not reveal, why yes, I DO want sex - but I want love much more and an equal partner 35-45; still willing to explore a few years on either side of that divide - in crime or otherwise; in all seriousness, when I love, it's without reservation). Friends or lovers, I'm looking to meet more kindred, playful ('playful' DOESN'T mean as if to compete in the X-Games, either; 'low-impact' is the operative phrase) spirits with unmistakable light in their eyes, those more or less content with their lives and who they are, who know that nothing else matters more than the double-layered cake of companionship and sacred connectivity - the rest is mere icing. Also, you won't ever confuse me with a outdoorsman, sun worshipper, beach bum or foodie but, beach and mountains alike, do enjoy being out and active from time to time, indulging in long walks or hikes and bike rides with only a passing concern for the clock. More about food later. I've come to realize I possess the Buddhist 'global eye' and think wayyyyyyyy outside of the tech-driven 21st-century box (I'm hardly a Luddite, but none of Kurtzweil's 'singularity' for me, thank you very much!) That said, I find associated rituals tedious - save for using the same cereal spoon - and would likelier realize Nirvana by bowling a 300 - OK, another 200:) or, as Neil Finn once put it, "I'd much rather have a trampoline in the front room than an isolation tank". In general, I believe that far too much emphasis is devoted to the word 'spiritual's last 3, and not enough to its first 2, syllables.
Despite all the sadness I've known, resolve and gravitas I exhibit (yes, I AM quite serious, sometimes very intense and a bit strident, it's true; do actually have a withering wit and can be a goof with the best of 'em, but I haven't felt like laughing a lot, at myself or otherwise, lately) this has been an extraordinary if not carefree life, rich with much exquisite music and great knowledge that I was in full pursuit of almost from the beginning on an informal basis - mostly self-taught in so many subjects. While I'm not especially athletic, I do enjoy hockey very much, as well as baseball, football and college basketball - been a fan of the New York Islanders for almost 35 years; the New York Giants and Patriots, almost 40; the Red Sox and Mets; roughly the same. I've paid a high price for my integrity but, I never had any desire whatsoever to be anyone other than me - which is fortunate, because I'm just no GOOD at being anyone else! I grew up in an era before having a Bachelor's became seemingly prerequisite to be a contributing member of society, before gyms and health clubs became essential for many - this is not to say I'm not in shape, though; I work out at home and am actually in the best health of my life, more or less.
I am supportive, passionate, and intuitive