I want someone I can feel comfortable around. Someone I can really be myself with. I want to be able to say all the wacky, weird, unconventional shit that is on my mind. I don't want to have to worry about what the other person might think of me every second of everyday. I'm not looking for Mr. Perfect, I do not want him. I'd like a guy that sleeps through his alarm sometimes....spills things....is clumsy....forgets to shave...occasionally burns food...bumps into me sometimes when we are walking...wants to hold my hand sometimes...loves animals...gets frustrated....gets mad when he's trying to put something together (like furniture)...takes up most of the bed...refuses to ask for directions...I want someone not afraid to not be perfect. I want someone with flaws. . I'm an oddball and you should be too. I want someone who doesn't care that I don't wear make up 24/7 or everytime I leave the house. You shouldnt care that I wear hoodies most of the time, cause I don't care if that's what you are into. I want to be able to be ME and no one else. I feel like I have a lot to give, but I'm not willing to waste anymore of it on bullshit. If at all possible.
I quit smoking cigarettes Feb.3rd of this year. I know the struggle. I felt just as fucked up about quitting cigs as I felt about breaking up with someone. It felt like I was ending a 10 year relationship. But I did it. And I'm proud. The craving never quite leaves 100% though, I still take it day by day.
If you work a million hours a week,(80+) you do not have time for someone extra in your life, and we probably won't go anywhere outside of friends.
Don't mistake this as a list of "requirements" or anything like that. I am just very well aware of what I want and I'm done settling for less than that.