Right now I'm right behind the mid-twenties-breakdown and getting more and more confident about the existence of a future. I've gone through some stuff and grabbed what I could get (for good or worse). And I'm happy about each and every experience I could make, the ones that brought me up the skies and the ones that smashed me into the ground. For I believe that life is all about a good story to tell to yourself and everyone interested. So the more I can add to my personal fairytale, the better.
This view (connected with some rather constructivist attitude) gives me a great amount of calmness and serenity about the things to come. I'm aiming at harmony in general, not some love-peace-happiness obscenities but rather a proper shift between the things that make me happy and those which make me sad. I believe that every feeling, situation and perspective is ephemeral, existence is nothing but dynamics and progress. Therefore, whenever I'm down I am confident that it will get better and whenever I'm happy I am conscient about the limited time of this state.
I don't really care much about the past or the future, my place to be is the present.
This balance between the extreme poles of a scale, the thesis and the anti-thesis, can be widened out to most of my personality:
I can be very shy but also enourmously out-going
I can be deeply emotional but sometimes cold as a stone
I can be embracing life with happiness but can also want everything to just fade away...
The most important catalyst in my life is music. I love listening to it and creating it as well. Fortunately, there are lots of opportunities to live that hobby out in my near surrounding, as I am living together with some rather talented musicians.
As I am still evading full-time work as a teacher, I right now have a job as a child care worker in drug rehab which I pretty much enjoy despite (or maybe because) the sometimes tough setting