To me, the meaning and charm of life is the chance for possibilities to exist, and the expression of beauty. The most difficult and transformative part is learning to cope.
I'm somewhat of an optimist, although much of that comes from realizing how much we can survive and grow from.
If you write stories or play music, talk to me--I'd love to discuss and maybe even collaborate.
I've learned that creativity is a needed part of my life, for my own mental health. When I make art, a part of me feels a little like I'm communing with the cosmos, and if I neglect that need for too long, it leads to an existential despair.
When making art, it's a give-and-take process; where I'm at in a project informs how I approach the rest of it. I feel like most of life is that way, but practicing any creative art will teach you that. I like limiting my options through structured work (e.g., the villanelle or fugue) because it both challenges and directs me.
I think what people do and say informs the rest of who they are as a persona. As consequence, I listen very closely to myself and others. I also like looking through people's profiles: it's a little like people-watching (I mean that in as not a creepy way as possible!).
I've learned that I'm not my thoughts, I'm what's left when my mind is no longer thinking--just the thing directing mental perception. Saying this probably commits me to an awkward position as far as the contemporary views on mind go, but I think there's still some sense to it.
I love everybody and everything, and really appreciate all of them, even if at times they make me sort of sad. This isn't to say that I am in love with everybody; this is an agape sort of relation, not an eros kind of thing, if you will. There isn't enough love and honesty in the world, so I guess I try to make up for it some.
I think that you understand people best through inquiry, so I'll play some "would you rather questions" with myself:
1. Would I rather be a dream or a fantasy?
I'd rather be a dream because dreams are honest, even when they're deceptive. They are unique, and even when they're terrifying, they're something beautiful, and more like life than waking moments.
2. Would I rather be a chair or a table?
I say chair, because while they can function as a table if you really need them to, they're moreso intended to support people, not things. Likewise, I see people as important, and stuff as merely transient matter.
3. Would I rather, when I die, reincarnate into a new form of life, be stranded as a ghost, or enter into something like heaven?
I think I'd rather be a ghost because I like my mind, my individuality. However, I think the truth of this is that I will cease to exist in this form, and be reabsorbed into a singular perception and experiences of itself and everything; I am a wave, and I will slowly fall back to the same level as the rest of the sea and become part of the ocean again.
4. Would I rather be a magnet that pushes things away or one that pulls things close (physics aside)?
One that pushes things away. I like space.
Either way, hopefully this gave you a bit of insight into my character. I may or may not expand on this later (as of 6/14/09).