I am ambitious, persevering, and a dying romantic

Kill. Kill. Kill. Murder, Death, Kill. Death Fucking Blooms...

I don't really know what sorry means, I've been sorry my whole life... 'I'm sorry I was born' is what my mother told me... I don't really know what sorry means... I've been sorry my whole life.

I work, I sing, I visit and laugh... but I don't get to love too often. I dance more alone than around others... because I'm not dancing to impress yet... but to express that those that I do dance for are special enough to warrant the act.

I am high grade potential yet to be unleashed... Just simply trying to find the keys to unlock all of my correct doors.

For the occultist/New Age(old school really) subscribers:

Currently dabbling in gemology.

Western Astrology:
Sun: Taurus
Moon: Capricorn
Ascendant: Aquarius
Mercury: Aries
Venus: Aries
Mars: Gemini
Jupiter: Aquarius
Saturn: Scorpio

Dominants: Fixed, Eastern Hemisphere, Cadent houses, Water/Earth (Air just behind), Saturnian (then Plutonian & Sun after sizable gap), Scorpian (then Aquarian/Taurus after a moderate gap). Houses: 3,10,12.

Chinese Astrology:
Wood Ox, Yin Energy/Personality.

Numerology:
Life Path = 1
Destiny Number = 3
Desires = 9

I do not subscribe to Vedic beliefs because there's no way that I can embrace being a fire sign moon.

(note: All of the above are just used as guidance because they are systems that have resonated/made sense with me. I am not devout, but will defend the systems I hold faith in with rationale & logic... not violence: unfortunately not like most of the predominant religious institutions in this world).

CynthVoX (vocal portfolio project).

Current Defining Song:
Klaxons: It's Not Over Yet (Cover of Not Over Yet by Grace)

Current Work Playlist:
Mr. Bungle: Pink Cigarette & Retrovertigo
Nothingface: Breathe Out, Villains, The Sick, Everlasting Godstopper, Blue Skin.
Dirty Little Rabbits: Same Mistakes, Happy
Filter: No Love
Paradise Lost: Symbol of life
Pantera: Mouth for War
Smashing Pumpkins: Bodies, Eye
Trent Reznor: Perfect Drug

Slave to my big evil company, Looking to change jobs (design to planning) because of my current degree acquisition (BS in International Business... because business is a lot of BS-ing and finding suckers to buy... I mean... ethical trades and transactions), music, friends, chasing after dreams and reaching toward goals, trying to conquer a portion of the world... the usual stuff.

Hopped onto the workout band wagon: Kettlebells and old school era calisthenics/bodyweight resistance exercise. Doing the PSMF + IF combo come 2012.

Oh yeah... trying to find the balance that I believe ties all things together.

Vocal Impersonations, live purrformance, music/lyrics, learning new things, and videogames (because the Japanese placed chips in my fingertips at birth to PWN all over you... and your pretty bespectacled laden face)

Empathy.

-The tattoo on my arm... it's Cyrillic for "toothpaste confetti"

-Dimples and smile.... its a bunch of bullshit... but I won't put it past myself to exploit these minor cursed blessings for my own meddling.

-Labret piercing... because i'm usually playing with it.

-Piercings... these industrial piercings UGH!... "My vajayjay is painin' "

-Purrsonality wise, I have this innate disarming charm... people feel comfortable with telling me their dirt; and so, I am usually able to decide whether or not I'll be investing more time into people from our earliest conversations.

-I also have a tendency to come off as "gay" or homosexxxual to some, a lot of parents actually. No offense really taken, I'm not your average butch "Guy's guy," and i'll glady be fucking your daughter, mom, or troubled girlfriend/wife whilst you think we are clothes shopping, doing nails, or watching Lifetime ^_~

-I can be very quiet in big crowds and seem stuck up... but in a smaller group I can light up the whole atmosphere; I have low tolerance for mindless/frivolous hijinx unless I am aware of their intention/nature (meaning that I am usually being a judgmental prick if I'm in a big crowd and you see me: standoffish, thinking you're a waste of space as you beer bong, dry hump random people, or secretly hope to get date raped because you forgot or do not know what love feels like)... Aside from that: I am also capable of breaking the ice and will even approach really attractive women for the sheer novelty of proving my hunch that they are really insecure fakes.

Books/Series I have read:
-Robert Anson Heinlein: Stranger in a Strange Land, Starship Troopers, The Number of The Beast, Orphans of the Sky, The Green Hills of Earth, Revolt in 2100.

J.K. Rowling: Harry Potter series up to "The Order of The Phoenix"*

Sue Grafton: Her "[letter of alphabet" is for "..." series of mystery/suspense novels.

Neil Strauss, aka "Style": The Game: Penetrating the Secret Society of Pickup Artists.

Encyclopedia Brown, Goosebumps, Scary Stories, To Kill a Mockingbird, Of Mice and Men, Brave New World, Native Son, Romeo and Juliet, The Count of Monte Cristo, The Red Badge of Courage, The Hobbit, The Lord of The Rings series, The Lion, The Witch, and the Wardrobe, The Secret Garden, Pineapple Place, The Joyluck Club, The Year of the Boar and Jackie Robinson, All is Quiet on the Western Front, Lord of the Flies, some Marvel novels with stories on Spiderman, Ironman, and maybe the Fantastic Four? Animorphs ("Die you Andalite Scum!" "OH NOZ! Yeerk Empire FTW!"), Island of Blue Dolphins, She's Come Undone*, The Farthest Away Mountain*, The House on Mango Street, The Outsiders, Knots on a Counting Rope, The BFG, Matilda, James and the Giant Peach,

"To Be Continued" when I remember what I have read...
*Read because I felt something for someone at the time...

And yes, in some cases... I do believe that comics count (Captain America is my superhero).

CARTOONS: Teen Titans, Rocko's Modern Life, Beavis and Butthead, SouthPark, Metalocalypse, Jackie Chan Adventures, Doug (Nickelodeon), Hey Arnold (earlier seasons), Swat Cats, Mighty Max, Justice League Unlimited, MyWayEntertainment, Centurions, G-Force, Aeon Flux, Sonic the Hedgehog cartoons,

Shows/channels: WonderShowzen, Scrubs, Discovery, Food Network, Ghost Hunters, Travel Channel, Sci-Fi, Tosh.0, Deadliest Warrior, Pee-Wee's Playhouse, Always Sunny in Philadelphia (ah AH ah... FIGHTER OF THE NIGHTMAN...), UCB, Chappelle's Show,

Anime:

Games: Bomberman, Marvel Ultimate Alliance series, Viva Pin~ata series, Fairytale fights, Dance Central, Hitman series, Crimson Skies, Scott Pilgrim Vs. The World, Co-op same game screen games (not big into online multi-player so much anymore),

Movies: Comedy, Horror (because it's usually funny), chick flicks (I can watch these from time to time), Action, Mystery/Suspense/Thriller, Adventure/Fantasy, Ethnic Exploitation, Pr0n. Foreign flicks (w/subtitles... but original language in audio... overdubs are cheesy).Kids movies. (Note: if you don't like boys that shed tears... then we can't hang... I get choked up over the human element).

Important: Say what you will about most stuff i'm into... but if you aren't down with Paul Reubens... aka Pee-Wee Herman... then I don't think we are going to get really far... I'm just saying that I would bloody bash the shit out of someone for talking mad smack about da man... ya dig? I just am not on the same page with the child porn thing... I hope it's a hoax... but most eccentrics do have some major skeletons in their closets..

Music:

The States of America: Shadows Fall, Kamelot, Lamb Of God, Michael Jackson, Sleepytime Gorilla Museum, Stolen Babies, Nevermore, Lorenguard, Megadeth, Metallica (old-skool), ICP (funny & underrated), Vanilla Ice (rap metal stuff), Coal Chamber, Korn, The Agony Scene, All that Remains, Killswitch Engage, Dirty Little Rabbits, Slipknot, Mushroomhead, Mudvayne (albums before Hell Yeah era), Nothingface, The Smashing Pumpkins, Static-X, King Missile, Filter, Johnny Mathis, Cher, Deadsy, Hatebreed, Devildriver, Astronaut Wife, Lollipop Lust Kill, Mastodon, Pantera, Sponge,Stone Temple Pilots, Cracker, Soundgarden, Nirvana (not too much), Helmet, Clutch, GWAR, Crystal Method, Afrika Bombata, Gogol Bordello,Pitch Black Forecast, Bury Your Dead (w/ Mat Bruso), Anthrax, As I Lay Dying,

Norway:

Sweden:

Finland: H.I.M. (not a huge fan... just some songs), Nightwish, Norther, Poisonblack, Sentenced, Sinamore, Sonata Arctica,

Russian: Korol I Shut, Tenkorr, Lyapis, Stigmata, Achtung! Babies, Tatu, Melancholy, Breakwar, Amatory, Biopsihoz, Slezi,

Japanese: Dir En Grey, Gackuto Camui, Malice Mizer, Moi Dix Mois, X Japan, Utada Hikaru, Arai Akino

Spanish: Molotov

Puerto Rican: Puya

German: Rammstein, Blut Engel, Unheligh, Das Ich, ASP, Unheilig, Tvangeste

Taiwan: ChThoniC

Everywhere else (no particular order): Ackercocke, Amorphis, Anathema, Annihilator, Opeth, DeathStars, In Flames, Soilwork, Scar Symmetry, Cradle of Filth, Dimmu Borgir, Angra, Sonata Arctica, Laibach, CROTCHDUSTER, Atmosphere, pimpdaddy welfare, Bentframe, Kidneythieves, Garbage, Jerk, Held Under (RIP), Cannibal Corpse, only one song from "The Lost Prophets", Bullet for my Valentine (some), Hammerfall, Iron Maiden, Power Symphony, Within Temptation, Nightwish, Dragonforce, Orgy, Peter Gabriel, Type O Negative, Avenged Sevenfold (some), Alexisonfire, Strapping Young Lad, Fear Factory, Skinny Puppy, Abstract Reality, The Clash, Adam and the Ants, Faith No More, Amon Amarth, Weird Al Yankovic, Michael Jackson, Sleepytime Gorilla Museum, Stolen Babies, Virgin Black, The Birthday Massacre, VNV Nation, Covenant, Dj Tiesto, Scooter, Ministry, Filter, Cold, Megadeth, Metallica, Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Ween, King Missle, Pantera, Bleed the Sky, ZeroMancer, Smashing Pumpkins, Zwan, Toad the Wet Sprocket, The Cure, Depeche Mode, Helloween, Stratovarius, Sentenced, Mortiis, Emperor, Samael, Nevermore, Kalmah, Evergrey, Dream Theater, Karnivool, Poema Arcanus, Moonspell, Kenna, Radiohead, Muse, Savage Garden, Combichrist, Testament, Jakalope, Linkin Park (first two albums), Arch Enemy (Gossow Era), Dream Evil, Judas Priest, A Failed Escape, The 12 O'Clock Flashers, Deftones, White Zombie, Paradise Lost, Tristania, Nine Inch Nails, Lollipop Lust Kill, Aqua, Toybox, Evil's Toy, T.O.Y., Firewind, EdGuy, Metal Church, Behemoth, Aphex Twin,

"To Be Continued..." (will be segmenting groups into their respective countries on and off)

Music, food, water, fulfillment, ambition, a muse (friends, family, "someone out there for me.... more like someones....")

I love my friends and my family (most of the time) and am very loyal and would take action against those who should dishonor them in anyway.

P.S....

I love This Girl to death and would commit genocide on a whole nation state if it would make her happy... should she ever feel low. ^_^

"...he won't stop there... Kingpin doesn't just kill you, he kills your whole family."

World Domination

Update: And whether this life in our generation... is really worth living. If I am wasting my life at the moment... or am I working along a path that will lead me to accomplish my many far fetched, yet ever so possible goals...

And what my purpose in life will inevitably be. And if i'm destined for monogamy and a family. Or if "love" is really a curse and will continue to lash out at me anytime I drop my guard...
Of course there is always the polyamory fun train, but realistically you have to be able to absorb the drama or rather just find those who are as they say they are and avoid it... at least there's easy escape with this route, juxtaposed to monogamy.

Polygamy sounds like an eternal migraine.

How I should exist: to be cold, calculating, ruthless, merciless, and cut throat... alongside caring, inviting, charming, and nurturing of those who deserve it.

What will it take to cut my heart out of the equation once more so that I may function as a rational/logical and embrace realism... with optimism toward limitless possibilities, and yet a grasp on what I have to work with. "Scalpel anyone?"... *snare snare hi-hat*

Karaoke, flirting, & wondering if getting my degree will really be of help to getting me where I want to be and go. More than likely not, but at least I'm doing something productive.... productive for the bullshit implicit functionalist society that envelops itself in individualistic gossamer. The government is a killjoy... and needs revamped.

Potentially hanging out with one of these people... just depends on the week or the occasion. But I acknowledge these characters as my homies.

]Oa/\/])a~sama
]3unnySeX
SadiCat
Broseph
Asian_brotha_from_different_mum

And then there are the occasional once every 3 months or more people but still in contact like §phen

Or Doing something... probably whacking it... I don't know.

or

Hampton Anime meetup group.

I also like to shop on here (profile shop) a lot. Just look at all the pretty faces that I'll maybe never meet and realize that there are still pretty things in this world that I'd like to be involved with...

^_^

I rule...

I am 70% nerdier than all people... w00t...find your nerd caliber here!!!

NerdTests.com says I'm a Kinda Dorky Nerd. What are you? Click here!

I have this thing for cute girls in braces, pigtails, glasses, uniform, freckles, and maybe even a pocket protector with pens in it. An abacus, slide rule, or belted calculator may be considered bonus. Chopsticks in the hair also considered "bonus."

Nerd/Geek wear on cute girls ... who'd have thought?

On a more important and substantial note:
I am a small bit of a lot of things I hate/dislike about the world & people... I am working on it... like everyone else... My friends can vouch for me ^_*

Meatotomy is as traumatizing to me as the crowning of the baby's head scene in the movie "Knocked Up."

Anything else... you and I will have to go some rounds with one another... MORTAL KOMBAT!

You believe you have something of warrant that we should discuss... (philosophy, science findings or theory and hypothesis, possibilities, sex, music, foods, life, other).

or... you're looking to adopt a catboy.

(if you are close by)Don't waste my fucking time if you do not want or like to meet in purrson... You virtual waste... you need to be Degfragged.

A thank ye~