If you had the opportunity to either go to Baltimore to photograph a bat mitzvah (with another photographer) and then see the sights with friends, or fly to Nicaragua on a humanitarian/medical mission photographing disabled children, what would you do?

That's the choice I'm faced with.

I've had the flights booked to Baltimore for over a month and the dates of the two trips overlap significantly enough to make it impossible for me to do both.

But on the other hand, I've been in contact with the humanitarian organization offering the trip to Nicaragua on and off since March and only this week has the offer of that trip become more definite.

I just don't know what to do -- I wish I could just simply do both things, but it's not going to be possible.

So, if the opportunity was yours, what would you choose to do? What would influence your decision most, the cost of changing already booked flights, the good feeling of doing something for someone else, or some other factor?

I Am... content

I Want... the camera store to call

I Have... the best kids anywhere

I Wish... my house would paint itself

I Like... the feeling of being cuddled

I Hate... being tired

I Fear... very little

I Search... for people to hang out with

I Wonder... why my kids like "Totoro"

I Regret... the things I do without thinking

I Love... my Canon 5D

I Ache... for peace

I Always... talk too much (email too much etc) when I get nervous

I Usually... relax and stop trying too hard in a short period of time

I Am Not... a quitter

I Dance... when nobody's watching... and when people *are* are watching too!

I Still... think about my first love now and then

I Sing... in the shower, the car, the kitchen...

I Never... look my age or feel it either

I Rarely.... am satisfied with average

I Cry... when I get tired

I Am Not Always... right

I Lose... my keys and always find them back

I'm Confused... by math

I Need... to clean the kitchen

I Should... drink less pop

I'm Thinking... of friends, good times, and happy places

I love fall. It's my favorite time of the year -- the crunching of fallen leaves, the briskness of the air in contrast to the summer's heat, the smells and textures of the changing seasons.

This year I'm going to just slow down and enjoy it all like I did when I was a child. I've been letting the days and weeks slide by much too quickly but now I feel the need to lay in a big leaf pile and simply breathe in the air.

um... unless it's been raining, then no laying in leaf piles, instead I'll just jump in the puddles.

I'm going through serious chocolate withdrawal. :sigh:

This house is WAY too quiet without the kids at home. I slept in until almost 11:00 this morning just because I could (after getting up at 7:00 to let the dogs out).

I would be enjoying myself, but the thing is that the day lacks all structure as a result of them being away today and my thoughts keep bouncing around to all the things I could/should be doing rather than simply settling down to actually work.

I'm going to list several of my lenses on eBay so that I can raise money to buy a camera to replace the one that was stolen. I'm still totally sick about the loss of the 20D and know I can't use the 10D reliably as a backup for weddings.