Let's just say I've been fucked over enough. So I'm in no rush for getting screwed over again. Besides that right now I'm just here looking for friends to start out anyways. Or maybe perhaps a partner in crime. For I've always found a fonder connection with women in general anyways. But to find my soul mate would be a dream come true. Oh well, maybe but only in a dream. In all reality that seems highly unlikely here online with all these other delusional brain washed fakes. To be honest I may not be relationship material anyways. Due to the train wreaks & disasters I've already gone through with others. Like many of you I've been lied to, deceived, jacked, cheated on, ratted out, pissed on & dissed on. So I may be damaged goods. Or perhaps the love was never that strong to begin with. Such a Greek tragedy, where has my youth gone? Ha ha.
O.K. then, the first two paragraphs didn't scare you off eh? Well I guess you must have some gumption. Here's some more of my personal aspirations. Needless to say I think it would be nice to build a life & home with somebody in the long run. So reciprocation & consideration while giving 110% on both sides is the key. & so is meeting or exceeding what we bring to the table we sit at. & I don't mean monetarily either. I got mine & don't need yours. But I realize we won't excell as partner's if we don't do that for each other from the start. I'm not looking for nor do I wish for perfection. & I don't expect anything from anybody that I wouldn't first expect from myself. So if your a gutless fake I suspect we wont know one another very long, if at all. I've also never really been into looks. Although attractions always a plus. I prefer the down to earth types. Or perhaps the plain girl next door. I don't think I'm very materialistic. & I don't get too much into the high maintenance thing. Although I do like to get my lady's nails done for her once in a while, because I live vicariously through the happiness of the people I love.
I'm also kinda looking to love somebody through their imperfections & flaws. So long as it don't make me feel too indifferent or way out of place. Because I feel we don't grow as people any other way sometimes. I'm the type that prefers to confront issues rather than run away from them. I'm challenging like that. Nothing gets resolved running away from issues. I'd love to find someone that can give it to me straight. Or is not afraid to put me straight if I'm slippin. I can admit when I'm wrong. I like a lady that can be a strong woman in charge of shit sometimes. So confidence is a plus. I'm the guy that can work through the tough times, if you can as well. Because I understand lifes not perfect & shit happens. But I also know it goes the other way too.
I'd like to think I'm a mystery. So if I told ya everything I'd be in a disposition of giving you nothing new to learn about me. Hmmm, or would I? Well let's just say I can be dark, not that I prefer to be. But at the same time I like to balance things out by doing a good deed or committing a kind act at least once a day. I'm a street smart & I'm also confident, affectionate, sensual, generous & realistic. I don't like to be advantageous or selfish. & I allow the free will of others to take its course, even when I know better that the situations against me. I feel things happen for a reason & we all have our own course to travel. Like a bunch of puzzle pieces with their part in making a complete picture. I prefer to never to be forceful. As I like to treat other people the way I'd like to be treated.
My father was a Dutch, Scott & my mother was an Irish, Swede. They divorced when I was twelve. So I was a latch key kid. I did my own laundry & cooking. While my mother worked full time & went to school. My family past is rather treacherous. I'm originally from Salt Lake City, Utah. I've always been more of a Buddhist Pagan brought up through Astrology by my mother who raised me. My Father had me baptized as a Mormon & made me go to church when I was a child. But I never adhered to that religion. Only to joke about it. In fact here's a good one for ya. How do ya keep a Mormon from drinkin all your beer when ya take em fishin? Take two Mormons. Ha ha ha. Ok, bad joke but you can't say I didn't try to make ya laugh. I believe having a sense of humor in comedy can cure all perils.
I've lived on the Southern Oregon Coast for about 7 years now. It's a beautiful place. But's rural & it gets lonely. I've never been married nor do I have any children. By choice of course. I have strawberry blonde hair with dread locks. I dress nice & I like to smell nice as well. & I drive a pearl white Cadillac. I love to snowboard. I'm honest to a fault. I don't mind admitting when I'm wrong, because my mother raised me to accept responsibility for my actions. I prefer to be polite & have manners. I don't mind opening the door for my lady, nor do I mind holding the door open for strangers. I've studied martial arts most my life. & I've competed in full contact martial arts tournaments in the past. Ya, I've won a couple trophies for it. But I learned more getting my ass kicked by some of the worlds toughest black belts. I've been through & seen a lot in my time here. & I've learned through it all the hard way.
Well lets see what else? I'm tall, so if you're tall great. Although shorties can be fun too. & I have a large tattoo piece still being worked on. So if you have tatt's, I love ya already. I think Tattoo's are a turn on. I can also appreciate curves on a woman. & I also think freckles are sexy too. I like personality traits such as regard & consideration of their partners feelings. & I also believe devotion, dedication, & sensuality are also nice as well. I like to keep it somewhat classy with a little freak bend to my kink. Because you never know whats around the next corner in life. Nor what you might learn about yourself the next day.
I'm very philosophical & grounded spiritually. I love history & I'm also fairly intuitive & intelligent. I can also tend be theatrical & sarcastic as hell. I think I'm funny because I can be such a dork sometimes. I've been told I remind folks of Mitch Hedgberg. & I'm not very political, although I was recently propositioned to become a Free Mason. But I'm not sure if I wish to be a part of that. Because I've always tended to be a lone lion with his own pride rather than wanting to be a part of group in society. I'm more home & family oriented type.
I'm somewhat a reserved type of guy, more of an observer. & rarely make the first move until I'm comfortable with someone. Although I've always been flattered when a woman has the guts to make the first move on me. I find it very admirable in these times of fem power. & besides that I have no desires unless I'm desired by someone stronger. I also have an open mind, & I'm very understanding. I try not to judge. Nor am I homophobic or racist. So if you're judgmental we may not get along very well. I also try to be selfless as well. Because I was raised to be crew minded & I believe that being there for the team is more important to me than being a selfish individual. So if you're a selfish individual we may not get along too well either. I believe in putting you ahead of me. So if you could have the same regard & consideration, then maybe something with strength can be built between us. & perhaps something strong for our future as well.
I must also say I don't prefer associating with drunks, junkies or meth addicts. If that's your thing that's cool I'm not one to judge. It's just simply not my thing. That shit's effected my relationships more than anything else in my life. I've also been cheated on by most I've been with. I also been deceived by those I love. So I don't lie, cheat, or steal. To be honest I once cheated on someone I loved dearly. & I didn't appreciate myself for it. So I work to never do it again. Although if you choose to treat me like a fool or disrespect me you'll be the fool in the end, trust that. Because I can be a Dick within means. & I can also be fierce when I feel backed into a corner. I have more respect for myself than that to be treated like crap or deceived by someone else. Although I understand we all lie to a certain degree, just not to each other if that's cool. So I'd like to avoid the whole liability preemptively if ya know what I'm saying. I'm like a small flame in the palm of your hand. Either it will warm your heart or burn everything down around you emotionally. Yes I'm that good, not to be cocky or anything. So depending on what type of person you are is going to be what you get out of me. So please understand I can be somewhat complex & analytic of situations.
I wouldn't mind finding my queen I can jam percussion's with. & perhaps we could create some music together. I also choose to smoke herb medicinally. So if you smoke herb as well great. I'd rather choose herb over becoming addicted to pain pills for my condition. I've had lower spine infusion surgery done on me in the past. Then five months after that I was struck into by a drunken teenage driver that ran a stop sign, as I was a passenger in a friends car. I know, what luck eh? The Docs were amazed I made it through after dying on em a couple times. Perhaps tenacity's one of the strongest ability's my soul possesses. I've had to relearn how to do everything over again. From how to spell & write again, to using my right arm to eat, tie my shoe or button up my shirt. As the whole right side of my body was busted up. I also couldn't get out of bed for about six months without assistance. & I also went a couple years with my front teeth broken out from the airbag, by choice. It's interesting how people treat you & look at you when your in a disposition. It's been quite a study. I've since then had my teeth crowned & they look good now. Humility is what I gained from such an ordeal.
But amazingly enough I've recovered well & still preform my Martial Arts Kata routines & meditation. It's been what's kept me strong physically & mentally. & I feel very fortunate to be here. I love every breath I take, even when some of the days may not be so good. It's a blessing & simple miracle that any of us are here to experience life with one another, within this short amount of time we're allowed. Life is what happens when your making plans for other things. So beyond all that I'm just an average guy seeking the same stimulation's in life we all are. Such as love, harmony & happiness. It would be nice to share that with someone.