Edited on 10-20-09 - For no particular reason.
Each day I enjoy a new revelation. Or, perhaps it's a new realization. I guess it depends on your definition of both. I wasn't sure what I was going to write here, in my 'Edit'. As it turns out, I am writing in my 'blog' style. I am merely typing and seeing what comes out. All of my life, I have tried so hard to impress the apple of my eye. I wanted to say just the right thing. I concentrated on how to respond, to react, to say something that everyone, or, at least one person in particular, would find interesting or amusing or worth listening to. And, in all of my trying, I forgot to be me. I was so worried about making an impression or being cool, that I forgot what it was all about. It was about being me and letting the world take me or leave me for just who I am. Profile summaries (about me) are very much that way. We are so worried about saying just the right thing to catch someones eye, that we forget to be ourselves. And, since I am here to make friends first and worry about romance if it happens, I am twice denying the very precept of being me. First, I am worried who is going to like me and who won't and, second, I am treating this like a dating site where I am more concerned about impressing, yet, another apple-of-my-eye, whoever you might be. So, let me be clear. AHEM...I am me. In this profile commentary, and all the other information offered to help you choose a new mate or new friend, know that I am me. And, you cannot get to know me by the few lines 'scribbled' in this letter to you. If you wish to know if I am worthy of your companionship, regardless of your final intent, just ask. Ask anything. Start a conversation. Inquire as to my opinion. If you feel I am being genuine in my response, then you can start making an intelligent deduction as to whether I am a person you wish to know. Let's develop a dialogue. Really. Let's communicate our thoughts, feelings, fears, hopes. THEN we can look at the possibility of friendship or romance. As I re-read all that I have written, I think, oh I need a comma here or there. That is an incomplete sentence. I decided to let this fly as is. I only checked on punctuation. This content is a first draft. Which is what I like best. Because? Because we are usually more honest to ourselves and truthful to others in that which comes out of our mouths first.
So? What do you think?

Now the rest:

I am on a journey of self-discovery, but, aren't we all. I don't mind taking a good, long, hard look at myself. I am discovering my own spirituality. Life holds so many possibilities and I want to explore them all. I can be a lot of fun when I am comfortable with someone. I like being in the mountains and music is very important to me. Guess what I like best...that's right, Jazz. It's not music, it's Jazz. I love my dog. I love all dogs. They are the coolest creatures on Earth. If you have a dog, I like you already.

Changing the world, one good deed at a time.

Analyzing. I can see things from every point of view. It is also a double-edged sword. Makes decisions difficult, sometimes. I am pretty good at saying what I mean. But, listen to what I am saying, not what you think I might be saying. I am great at honesty, fidelity, respect and compassion. And I am great with dogs. They love me as much as I love them.

I've been told my eyes and my smile. But, as another person said in her profile on this site, "You tell me".

I like Stephen King. I enjoy Grisham. I want to move into the classics, but am trying to get back into reading, as I took a two year break. I love movies. I collect them. I have about 750 on DVD. I also like TV shows on DVD (there's another 750 DVD's in my library). I like Jazz, blues, rock, classic rock, oldies, crooners, classical. Getting into Reggae a bit. Food...ahh...there is the problem. I am the pickiest eater on the face of the planet. Can you deal?

Friends, Family, music, Shaz (my dog), Chocolate and attention, lol.
Everyone says family and friends. So did I. And though that is very true, I must say that I could never do without my sense of self. I cannot do without the ever-growing person within myself. I cannot do without the frequent 'Ah Ha' moments that enrich my life so. I cannot do without bright colors. I cannot do without the calm that comes over me when the moment and the music and the company is just right. When it all comes into focus, as it does every so often in a special way that cannot be explained, only experienced. I cannot do without newness. I cannot do without the promise of friendship from someone I just met. The list goes on and on. I just cannot do without the important things, the intangible, the untouchable. I cannot do without sensory and emotional overload. This is life. I cannot do without life.

The World.
I think a lot about how to be a better person and how to do the right thing every time. I'm tryin'...
It's funny. Every time I do the right thing, it becomes easier the next time I have a choice between the right thing and the not-so-right-thing. Gray often disappears. That is what I think about very often. And how blessed I am to have the friends I have. I think about how I never had so many people in my corner, and now my corner has expanded to fill the room. Thank you all.

At happy hour or watching the motel or hanging out with one friend or another.

I'm a bit lonely. I have to admit, for all my protestations of just wanting new friends, I really do hope that one will turn out to be the love I have waited for.

you want to.
you find me interesting in any way.
you need a friend to talk to.
you need someone to say it like it is.
you need loyalty, truth, fidelity, compassion, caring.
you have a good beef stroganoff recipe.