11.2.09 | Ah where do you get off / And how can I get there too - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IClBpch9vmM

The Short of It
Bi (personality over body). Poly. Love before sex. Music and stories fill me up. Eclectic aesthete. Thrifty. Hidden wanderlust. Likes to please, likes to dream. Wrath and passion. Distracted inattention. Silly goof. Serious like a gun in a knife fight. Vegan. Mostly mature. Not interested in spawning. Romps away.

And the Long of It
I am always thinking and imagining if I'm not focusing and doing. Thoughts step into each other very rapidly (from vibrating phone to nano-rods in fifteen seconds) - my mind is on the go. I come to expect and predict, but leave some room for surprise and joy (or heartbreak). The future always draws my eye before the past. I'd rather trust you first, judge you never, and scorn you later.

Let's enjoy the now.

The laziness and short-sightedness of most human activity confounds and enrages me. How are people so willing to destroy so much more themselves? It's not even a wrathful, "Let the world burn." It's a greedy, "Line my pockets, fuck the rest." It's an apathetic, "It's not me, who gives a damn."

But people can be amazingly sweet and tender and grateful and giving that I can't hate humanity. Stupidity still surprises me; my reaction lessens every year.

I like to abandon myself into music and dance. Lose the control. I don't feel very controlled.

Laughter and fun are the best drugs around. They're free and have no diminishing returns!

Efficiency fascinates me. Businesses should work their pocketbooks to keep the Earth in the black. I'm realistically libertarian. Idealistically, well...

I am many parts desolation from a lonely youth, and the silence and destruction are pretty. Life and growth in a wild nature are equally pretty. Overcast days make me gleeful.

Distraction keeps me from greatness. I haven't gotten focused enough to sweep it away. How defining is it? I don't know!

I'll happily share most everything (the rest begrudgingly).

Living the slow and fast of it.

Patience. Open and closed ears.
Wrath. Passion.
Being earnest.
Dancing.
Expressing myself.
Talk, talk, talking. I level up more slowly in conversing.

Disheveled hair.
Large nose.

Curiosity, distraction, and/or apprehension.

Books - Stories that compel me. Fantasy, sci-fi, fiction, whatever.

Movies - The Ring, Let The Right One In, American Beauty, Darjeeling Limited, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Saw 1, Stardust, Once, Amelie, Pan's Labyrinth, Better Off Dead, Fight Club, Big Fish, Gattaca, V for Vendetta, Hard Candy, Raising Arizona, The Village, Clerks, Requiem for a Dream, etc, etc

Music - A grab-bag of musicry that matches the songs in my heart.

Food - I am gluttonous. No joke. Also, vegan. Oh, and I cook decently well.

Freedom and the mind.

Everything.
No, fucking really.

Working and playing. Or working and working. I work a lot.

I am not a private person. You want to know? Just ask.

I admit I've been a prick, a bitch, and an asshole. I've disappointed myself and those I've cared about most.

I love making people happy and spreading around the joy.

You're comfortable having fun being yourself. No, really.
You can appreciate all the loligags and rastabouts of thinking and dorkery.
You see the winding hills and think, fuck it, and climb up them in the middle of the night, nevermind those creepy shadows.
You're silly (and can be serious).
I interest you.
You can support yourself.
You like disagreeing and going at it with yummy intellectual glee.

Why not.

Oh, and it's not very nice to disappear mid-conversation without explanation.