I saw this recently and it's quite true:
To females: guys are stupid. You literally do have to say exactly what you want. Don't try to be coy or subtle or leave "hints." Just say it. You'll be AMAZED at how well this works.
*sigh*. I'll try to keep this as brief as possible. I've been trying to slim it down. I know that less is more, but I have a lot to say. Don't expect a lot of coherence, despite my roots as a writer. This is just a collection of things about me that I think are important.
As I've gotten older and have done more introspection, I have come to the conclusion that it is close to impossible to give an accurate description of the awkward, outspoken, headstrong, yet unsure contradiction that I am. So, I invite conversation. It's really the only sure-fire way to even begin to get a feeling for what I'm really like.
I proceed through life with complete honesty and the best intentions. I expect others to do the same, and I have no patience for those that dance around the truth. Due to social ostracization as a child and teenager, I did not fully develop flawless social skills, though as I entered adulthood I have improved this quite a bit, mostly through my one and only learning process of trial and error. However, sometimes I am accidentally rude or blunt, but my actions are never with ill intent.
Somehow, I manage to be both misanthropic yet sociable in the right circles; humanity as a whole is a disgusting species doomed to perish in its own arrogance, nose in an Iphone, but individuals can be inspiring and enjoyable, even life changing.
I suppose there is value in listing my hobbies and interests here, though there is a section for that later as well.
I'm a lifelong gamer, writer, musician, intellectual and seeker of knowledge and happiness. The last thing I want in my life is to be miserable all the time. I had enough of that growing up.
I graduated high school at 16 and I do not learn well in a typical school environment, which is a big part of why I currently have no plans to go to college. The rote memorization that school systems stress instead of genuine learning is fairly insulting, and I've learned far more on my own. I've said for awhile now that the most important thing in life is learning *how* to learn. Understanding how you best hold on to information and truly process and grasp it is the first step toward becoming a genuinely more educated person. I know that college is better about this, but I don't want to spend thousands of dollars on something I may not enjoy or end up needing. A degree matters less and less these days.
Thank fucking christ for the internet. I'd probably be a drooling imbecile without it.
Competitive gaming is a bit part of my life, and anyone that has any interest in me needs to understand that. I've found actually a fairly positive reaction to that among most women, so that's great, but since this section is "about me", I figured I'd put that here.
I feel that people make far too big of a deal out of most things, especially things they have no control over. A good amount of minor inconveniences or small annoyances are out of our control and to be expected in life, and allowing these things to affect you is ridiculous. I believe in being laid back and going with the flow, and finding humor in generally annoying situations. The guy who freaks out because someone is ten minutes late or his internet dies for fifteen minutes is going to die of an aneurysm.
What I've never felt in my life is the feeling of being truly cared for; to have someone look at you with brilliant sparks in their eyes and a genuine smile that tells you all you need to know. Eyes that only see you. I have never known true, unquestioning love and compassion, and as such did not learn it myself. I see it in others, and I truly envy it, yet, so far, none have been able to bring it out in me. I do not feel that anyone owes me these things, far from it. I eagerly await the day that I meet the fateful individual that can bring these traits out of me. I know I have them, buried inside, but they remain dormant until I find a connection that truly makes me shout "fuck yes."
I'm not the kind of person that you will click with instantly, unless you have a very similar mess of a brain. Instead, I require patience, understanding, and communication. As such, I have had many a failed relationship and many, many more that never even got that far. I know that these women exist, though they are precious few and invaluable. I don't just seek the diamond among the coal, I require it, for none else will be able to fulfill what is required to bring out the best in me. I require someone willing to take a chance, to put everything on the line for a chance at a lifetime of true happiness.
I give only my best intentions. I'm bullshit free. I don't play games. And I expect the same of others.