I am a 22 year old male, looking for all kinds of social interaction. That is what I am used to writing. However, upon reflection, I have realized I am only ever really interested in making friends with women. It's hard to say why, possibly because I have a lot more motivation (evolutionary psychology 101) to invest into a friendship with a female. Maybe I should be honest with myself and admit I'm really looking for another friend with benefits... nope. I mean I am, but coming out with that expectation hurts the chances of it happening. Which is exactly what I just did. Fuck.
I have two close friends, one male and one female, who complement each other very well. From them I gain everything I could hope for. However, I can only see them so often. Once a week at best. That is not enough for me, and I wish to seek more friends.
I want to find someone to ward off my depression, someone I could have real deep conversations with, someone I could perhaps game with, someone who I could call a friend. But most importantly someone I could be affectionate with. I don't necessarily mean a sexual relationship, more like a cat-level relationship. More like someone to hug and/or hold and/or sleep next to.
An ideal friend would be someone who would live close to me and with whom I could do plenty of sleepovers. I would game with them or play boardgames, and maybe play some sports. Of course conversations about all manner of things, and hugging and affection and the like would be really awesome. Because no matter how out of ideas one is, cuddling never gets old ^^ it's the best. Kissing and sex is fun too of course.
So I guess what I'm looking for is a girlfriend? :D
I don't really think about those labels.
For some reason I gain next to nothing from online interaction. I am unsure why that is. Maybe my brain has difficulty comprehending that there actually is a person on the other end.
Some people give me more... social energy... warmth. I don't know what to call it. Some people I can just touch on their shoulder and I feel a pulse of warmth and happiness. I can, from holding hands with them, experience a strong current of happiness. To be honest, so far every one of these people has been an attractive woman. Which makes total sense.
I do not have the least interest in watching sports. Any sport. Don't give a fuck. Don't feel any different if my country is playing. Don't identify with them one bit. However, I love playing sports ^^ but not baseball. Or basketball. Or volleyball. Or handball. The one I absolutely love is football <3
I am very logical, honest, and kind. I always thought all three were positive qualities. Now, after experiencing my first relationship, I know that at least the former two are rather destructive to romantic affairs, if I can generalize from experience (I probably shouldn't).
(Feel free to challenge ^^ I am not evil, just a contrarian. I take myself pretty lightly too and will happily get rid of some of these :D)
Meat eater and against traditional animal rights.
Agnostic/gnostic (depending on god claim) atheist
Incompatibilistic determinist (universe is only indeterministic on a quantum scale)
Don't believe in conspiracy theories or pseudosciences
Euthanasia [no position]
Gender realist (is that a thing?)
And politically I am a liberal. If you use Political Compass, I am right in the middle of the bottom left quadrant.
I apologize for all preposition-related errors that have inevitably been made. Thank you.