***UPDATE*** Currently things are a bit crazy and I have like 30
unread messages here, it's a bit daunting to look at that list and
respond. So fyi it's probably not personal. Feel free to message
but keep in mind I may not be highly responsive till life settles
down a little. ~~~
You know, I keep typing things here then go back and read a month later and think wow that's not right at all!?!
In short I'm a rather bizarre awkward chubby nerd who has learned how to apply makeup, tie a corset, and blend into social situations.
I am looking for something amazing with someone amazing. I want to be blown away. Perfection is boring though and I want someone innately flawed, but ideally aware of their own characteristics and their effect on others. I want to find someone kind hearted and sadistic with a solid, easy going, creative, nerdy, intelligent head on their shoulders (since I'm sure a lack of head would be awkward).
Ideally they would revel in my imperfections and accept their own, though I am past the point in my life where I want to be holding someone up. I want an equal who carries me when I need carrying and reaches for my hand when they wobble, I want a partner and like minded weirdo to enjoy life with. I am extremely open minded and am very unlikely to judge you though my filter for external vs internal dialog is sometimes missing although never intended to harm. I am a curvy happy girl and comfortable in my own skin but I am lonely and happiest caring for someone. I think I'm pretty good at placing myself in someone elses shoes which means I can be extremely forgiving and understanding of things that many would not understand or forgive if I understand your reasons. This also means I can be a bit harsh and cold if I think your complaints are self created or more out of a need for attention than as a legitimate frustration, vent, or concern. Don't whine about your terrible life to me unless you are actually trying to fix it. I do believe I have reached a comfortable balance between the two though. ;)
I want to be humored in my idiosyncrasies but called out when I'm being ridiculous since upon occasions I will likely be ridiculous.
Looks don't make or break a connection but some butterflies in my stomach would be nice, often caused more by some emotional trigger than physical. Though physically I tend to be more attracted to creative looking men (I am bi but it takes a very rare woman to peek my interest). Tattoos, piercings, an interest in the darker music or nightlife, creepy things that the average person avoids like decrepit buildings, dark caves, or oddly shaped bugs on a hiking path. Strange raised eyebrow expressions, overwhelming movie video game or board games collections, and star wars/star trek obsessions are all pluses as well. (Hehe, that rhymed a little.)
I appreciate old world manners, elegance, and style with a sleazy back alley sense of humor and something or someone who possess those qualities will surely catch my attention. Awkward quirks and intelligence with a hint of crazy keeps my attention. I respect confidence but confidence without merit means you'll quickly loose my respect. Be yourself, show me what you enjoy, the places you enjoy, the things that hold your attention, and I'll return the favor.
I'm am much shyer than I seem and can be very quiet at first but when I'm comfortable I open up quite a bit and can be very outgoing or content sitting silently for long periods of time doing very little. I like public displays of affection and am at heart an old school romantic, I think the thought put into a date, gift, or compliment is way more important than the money spent or result of said action. I am intelligent, creative, and honest, I may attempt to spare your feelings from time to time but I will not lie to you.
I treat the men I care for with respect and want the respect returned. I take life as it comes and enjoy the experience, life is short so LIVE already! I sing, I dance, I paint, I draw, I lounge, I play video games, I play card games, I watch too many movies, I enjoy my creatures, I want to experience everything, and I want to fall crazy, madly, spontaneous song and dance number in the rain, in love someday!
You know, I keep typing things here then go back and read a month later and think wow that's not right at all!?!
In short I'm a rather bizarre awkward chubby nerd who has learned how to apply makeup, tie a corset, and blend into social situations.
I am looking for something amazing with someone amazing. I want to be blown away. Perfection is boring though and I want someone innately flawed, but ideally aware of their own characteristics and their effect on others. I want to find someone kind hearted and sadistic with a solid, easy going, creative, nerdy, intelligent head on their shoulders (since I'm sure a lack of head would be awkward).
Ideally they would revel in my imperfections and accept their own, though I am past the point in my life where I want to be holding someone up. I want an equal who carries me when I need carrying and reaches for my hand when they wobble, I want a partner and like minded weirdo to enjoy life with. I am extremely open minded and am very unlikely to judge you though my filter for external vs internal dialog is sometimes missing although never intended to harm. I am a curvy happy girl and comfortable in my own skin but I am lonely and happiest caring for someone. I think I'm pretty good at placing myself in someone elses shoes which means I can be extremely forgiving and understanding of things that many would not understand or forgive if I understand your reasons. This also means I can be a bit harsh and cold if I think your complaints are self created or more out of a need for attention than as a legitimate frustration, vent, or concern. Don't whine about your terrible life to me unless you are actually trying to fix it. I do believe I have reached a comfortable balance between the two though. ;)
I want to be humored in my idiosyncrasies but called out when I'm being ridiculous since upon occasions I will likely be ridiculous.
Looks don't make or break a connection but some butterflies in my stomach would be nice, often caused more by some emotional trigger than physical. Though physically I tend to be more attracted to creative looking men (I am bi but it takes a very rare woman to peek my interest). Tattoos, piercings, an interest in the darker music or nightlife, creepy things that the average person avoids like decrepit buildings, dark caves, or oddly shaped bugs on a hiking path. Strange raised eyebrow expressions, overwhelming movie video game or board games collections, and star wars/star trek obsessions are all pluses as well. (Hehe, that rhymed a little.)
I appreciate old world manners, elegance, and style with a sleazy back alley sense of humor and something or someone who possess those qualities will surely catch my attention. Awkward quirks and intelligence with a hint of crazy keeps my attention. I respect confidence but confidence without merit means you'll quickly loose my respect. Be yourself, show me what you enjoy, the places you enjoy, the things that hold your attention, and I'll return the favor.
I'm am much shyer than I seem and can be very quiet at first but when I'm comfortable I open up quite a bit and can be very outgoing or content sitting silently for long periods of time doing very little. I like public displays of affection and am at heart an old school romantic, I think the thought put into a date, gift, or compliment is way more important than the money spent or result of said action. I am intelligent, creative, and honest, I may attempt to spare your feelings from time to time but I will not lie to you.
I treat the men I care for with respect and want the respect returned. I take life as it comes and enjoy the experience, life is short so LIVE already! I sing, I dance, I paint, I draw, I lounge, I play video games, I play card games, I watch too many movies, I enjoy my creatures, I want to experience everything, and I want to fall crazy, madly, spontaneous song and dance number in the rain, in love someday!
