--So... not on here much, very busy, check it once in a while, respond to a couple messages but otherwise while I am lonely and would love to date the honest truth right now is I am over extended. I tend to take on too much too often so rarely actually go out on dates with strangers. Opting instead to catch up with the friends I don't see enough of or I stay home and watch a movie. Yep. Below is a profile I just don't have the energy to rewrite so I just keep adding and removing stuff every once in a while... hence the extensive life/love history and commentary. Someday it shall be shorter... someday... -- Jan 2013

As for what I like, I like a bit of a rough edge, I like the emotional artist, and I like a few tattoos and piercings. Which also, unfortunately, means the men I fall for are the fringe sort and have a tendency towards being a bit damaged. But I'm probably a bit damaged myself, not to mention shy, messy, and procrastinating. Very procrastinating.

I suppose what I want right now is conversation, affection, trust, and love. Maybe not romantic love right away but I want to feel important and cared for. I have come to realize that my own walls and fears are chameleon like in nature, I am extremely affectionate when shown affection and cold when held at a distance. So be prepared I may not be the easiest person to get close to unless you are willing to get close to me, unfair as that may be. ;)

I think ideally at this point I want a constant to come home to, I'm lonely for more than the occasional bed warmer. I want someone to talk to who wants to talk to me, someone to watch bad cartoons with, someone to go out with, someone to hold hands and joke with, and someone able and willing to make time for me when I've had a bad day. I am fundamentally a kind slightly sensitive person, my trust is earned not instantly given. But once it's earned I'd probably graciously give you every password I have and a debit card to my bank account, without anything expected in return. >.< I'm also obviously an extremely honest trusting person.

Without intending to sound conceded, I get a lot of messages on here and work 14 hour days 4 days a week and regularly date, work on music, and go out with friends, my life is busy, so please don't be offended if I don't respond to you or am hard to keep a conversation with. It's likely not personal, simply a case of either lack of corresponding interests, bad timing, overwhelming other obligations, me just being my flawed procrastinating self, lack of physical attraction (doesn't mean you're ugly by any means, physical beauty is not really a matter of looks to me so much as something I find appealing. You might be surprised by the people I'm attracted to), or even just a case of conversation seeming too strained. I want a connection that seems special and comes easy and I want it to be mutual.

I don't find myself especially attracted to very many people honestly (1 in 20... maybe), so too often I find either someone I wish I liked more paying me more attention than I'd like or someone I like a lot barely giving me the time of day. The sad, difficult to admit, fact of my dating life.

I am intelligent, I sing, I dance, I draw, I'm romantic, I'm feminine, I'm a tomboy, I'm a gamer, I'm awkward, I'm nerdy, I watch too many movies, I once had pet preying Mantids and intend to again, I have cats and spend more money than I should on them, I used to raise and spoil dwarf hamsters (mostly as a personal experiment in genetics plus they are tiny fluffy and cute), I enjoy my creatures, and I want to fall madly, spontaneous song and dance number in the rain in love someday. I think I'm special in a very non-short bus way and I want someone to make me feel special as I will return the favor 10 fold. Also I'm not a skinny girl and I will probably never be a skinny girl, so you must enjoy my curves. (One of the benefits of such curves is my breast make an extremely comfy pillow) :P

PS. If the best thing you can think to send me a message about is my breasts I will not respond and may even post pictures all over the internet of your head photo shopped into gay bukaki porn... just sayin.

PSS. I'm impressed you're still reading. Seriously, wtf?

I have a habitual love of new experiences and crave a life less ordinary. I sing in a band, I model occasionally, photograph things and people occasionally, love my tattoos and work on them frequently, have been sky diving twice, I've rafted down white water rapids, owned a house, made love in the rain, been an extra on film, ridden the max train in only my undies, had lunch on the lawn of a castle, handled an original Dali, owned an original Aragones, stood in the same doorway as Leonardo Da Vinci, seen the lights of Paris, touched the statue of David (not supposed to!), been to Disneyland, cuddled with a wolf, held a crocodile, been engaged, touched a shrunken head, stood at the center of the Coliseum, grown up, stayed young, loved deeply, mourned deeply, and continued to live. Opportunities do not always come again. I love new experiences and I am happy and strive to be happy as often as possible.

I support myself financially and emotionally but I am happiest taking care of someone else (I mean emotionally and physically, no you can't sleep on my couch!). I'm a nerdy (albeit messy) housewife at heart.

I can hold a tune fairly well, I have an eye for composition, and I can mimic the sound of a baby crying perfectly. Seriously, I am in no way kidding... it's really rather creepy.

Depends on who's noticing. Besides I'm not other people so I wouldn't know. :) Maybe my eyes... maybe my cleavage... probably depends on what I'm wearing.

Random assortment of tastes, I enjoy dark humor in anything, and really like horror, romance, fantasy, adventure, & sci-fi probably most as far as movies and books are concerned. I've probably seen every episode of Twilight Zone at least six times... Otherwise too many favorites to name here! (Plus I'm just too lazy to update it every two weeks with my ever changing tastes..)

I don't eat red meat or poultry (never liked the taste) but I love seafood and Italian.

I tend to enjoy more gothic/industrial/EBM/80's/synth pop/40's/50's/60's/oldies/melodic/poundy etc. styles of music, but can appreciate a wide range of sounds. (pretty much anything with a good beat or tune)

Inspiration, love, music, movies, new experiences, and black lace.

This site thinks I am less moral and less kind, less by who's standards? I believe I am kinder than most and my moral code may be my own but is extremely fair and consistent.

Who knows... kinda varies week by week. Lately I've been staying in with random Netflix TV.

I see dead people...oOooOoh!

This seems as good a place as any to add this point...

I have a dirty mind and am a very sexual person, open minded, and playful. I'll try almost anything once and some things again and again.

However, these are traits reserved for my good friends and this does not mean I am easy or will sleep with random strangers who message me on dating sites expecting to "hook up". If you send me a message and the first words out of your mouth are of a sexual nature, all I'm gonna think is that what's in your pants is your ENTIRE personality and I will likely ignore you. I take very few sexual partners, so you are barking up the wrong tree if this is your only interest. That being said, I think we'll have a lot of fun if it gets to that point. I am a strong believer in attraction, trust, and friendship first.

If you still have any interest in getting to know me, you definitely should!