As for what I like, I like a bit of a rough edge, I like the emotional artist, and I like a few tattoos and piercings. Which also, unfortunately, means the men I fall for are the fringe sort and have a tendency towards being a bit damaged. But I'm probably a bit damaged myself, not to mention shy, messy, and procrastinating. Very procrastinating.
I suppose what I want right now is conversation, affection, trust, and love. Maybe not romantic love right away but I want to feel important and cared for. I have come to realize that my own walls and fears are chameleon like in nature, I am extremely affectionate when shown affection and cold when held at a distance. So be prepared I may not be the easiest person to get close to unless you are willing to get close to me, unfair as that may be. ;)
I think ideally at this point I want a constant to come home to, I'm lonely for more than the occasional bed warmer. I want someone to talk to who wants to talk to me, someone to watch bad cartoons with, someone to go out with, someone to hold hands and joke with, and someone able and willing to make time for me when I've had a bad day. I am fundamentally a kind slightly sensitive person, my trust is earned not instantly given. But once it's earned I'd probably graciously give you every password I have and a debit card to my bank account, without anything expected in return. >.< I'm also obviously an extremely honest trusting person.
Without intending to sound conceded, I get a lot of messages on here and work 14 hour days 4 days a week and regularly date, work on music, and go out with friends, my life is busy, so please don't be offended if I don't respond to you or am hard to keep a conversation with. It's likely not personal, simply a case of either lack of corresponding interests, bad timing, overwhelming other obligations, me just being my flawed procrastinating self, lack of physical attraction (doesn't mean you're ugly by any means, physical beauty is not really a matter of looks to me so much as something I find appealing. You might be surprised by the people I'm attracted to), or even just a case of conversation seeming too strained. I want a connection that seems special and comes easy and I want it to be mutual.
I don't find myself especially attracted to very many people honestly (1 in 20... maybe), so too often I find either someone I wish I liked more paying me more attention than I'd like or someone I like a lot barely giving me the time of day. The sad, difficult to admit, fact of my dating life.
I am intelligent, I sing, I dance, I draw, I'm romantic, I'm feminine, I'm a tomboy, I'm a gamer, I'm awkward, I'm nerdy, I watch too many movies, I once had pet preying Mantids and intend to again, I have cats and spend more money than I should on them, I used to raise and spoil dwarf hamsters (mostly as a personal experiment in genetics plus they are tiny fluffy and cute), I enjoy my creatures, and I want to fall madly, spontaneous song and dance number in the rain in love someday. I think I'm special in a very non-short bus way and I want someone to make me feel special as I will return the favor 10 fold. Also I'm not a skinny girl and I will probably never be a skinny girl, so you must enjoy my curves. (One of the benefits of such curves is my breast make an extremely comfy pillow) :P
PS. If the best thing you can think to send me a message about is my breasts I will not respond and may even post pictures all over the internet of your head photo shopped into gay bukaki porn... just sayin.
PSS. I'm impressed you're still reading. Seriously, wtf?